I Shall Never Forget You...(Or Gibeah)

YOU ARE A TREACHEROUS LEVITE, YOU ARE A MOB OF BENJAMITES. YOU TURNED YOUR BACK ON ME
* dedicated to all women who have been raped. I don't presume to know your anguish, but I know something of the anger you may feel towards your oppressors. May your spirits be with me...
* dedicated to Jehovah, who will force all to make recompense for the wrongs they have done
* dedicated to all my fake friends and enemies…you’re all the same...
* dedicated to all injustice in the world – its just not fair

[Then came the woman in the dawning of the day, and fell down at the door of the man's house where her lord was, till it was light. And her lord rose up in the morning, and opened the doors of the house, and went out to go his way; and, behold, the woman his concubine was fallen down at the door of the house, with her hands upon the threshold. (Judges 19:26-27)]

Monument to Gibeah [Judges 19]————–
MY HANDS ARE UPON THE THRESHOLD OF YOUR CRUELTY
In the Dead of Night—————i HAtE you—————————

You turned your back on me
Your actions are like
Leaving me to a ravenous mob;
Twenty men brutish and beastly
the rain feels like fatal ice
in the dead of winter they yank my hair
hit my face with balled fist, I scream
with a mouth filled with mucous turned red and yellow
but the fierce frigid winds howl above me
none can hear my desperation
as they tear my bloodied clothes, expose my nakedness
unveiling my innermost fears

I may have made mistakes but I loved you
Held fast to you in my heart with all sentimentality
But you pushed me away

In my right ear
I can hear men laughing, growling to the left
Your betrayal is like being beaten semiconscious
And groped continuously; all resistance drawn out of me
In cycles a new set of hands chokes my neck
The repository of tears in my eyes runs dry
In cycles a new genital inserted rips my soul
Until I am callously dropped
My convulsing body stirs up dust like brown ashes
To which I soon return; just before sunrise
When I realize Im not dreaming
I crawl back to you
With my last breath I reach for the door
My hands upon threshold

(The Sun Comforts My Lifeless Body) (You betrayed me, You killed me, You raped me)

BE CAREFUL TO WHOM YOU BESTOW YOUR FRIENDSHIP