I want to be your Catholic God

(Jill, dedicated to you, baby)

God is not a man, that he should lie, Neither the son of man,
that he should repent: Hath he said, and will he not do it?
Or hath he spoken, and will he not make it good? (Numbers 23:19)

How great are thy works, O Jehovah! Thy thoughts are very deep. (Psalm 92:5)

For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith Jehovah.
(Isaiah 55:8)

...God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. (1 John 1:5)

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—–Jill, I wish I was your priest——-I wish I was a God —
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JILL,

I cant even look at you
anymore
in your eyes is fire
that burns my heart slow
and it melts away my happiness
my desire for you was like
7 candles lit
and my love for you was my altar at pontifical high mass
I was the priest that raised you high in the air

I would die before I let you touch the ground

But now
But now you have found another guy
and for me, Jill
the mass has ended
and the entropy increased

You have caused me grief
my soul now languishes
with heavy breathing and
asphyxiation…
dear God give me extreme unction
now - and spare me of this pain
searing
the wax of repudiation
boiling my fingers - defacing the altar cloths

Why couldnt you choose me Jill?

I am tired of being banished
from the hearts of the women I am fond of
Why can I be the Communion Host for a change?
I want you to lift me up in the air
HIGH
for the congregation to see ME
in all my dazzling Glory
so Splendid

I want you on YOUR knees Jill,
praying that I would reciprocate YOUR love
know what its like to be in my skin
and invoke prayers - for my love

I want to be God to you, like you have been
to me

Flying high above your contingent plans
and concerns
Overlooking your world with sheer
remarkable ambivalence

I want to be God, unaffected by you
I want to be God, unaffected by you
I want to be God, unaffected by you