From the Lofts of Deceit

----------------------------/From the Lofts of Deceit; Acts Chronicles Chapter 20: The Thoughts of Eutychus After Coming To From His Fall

Sometimes, but not often, you hear words that cause epiphanous doubt

phrases of hope eulogies of harmful things, deleterious things

that transpose your natural order of thought:

there are second chances, redemption shaking hands with destiny

a deal made to settle and abolish mankind’s shame

and that the man you are speaks nothing to the man you can be, proscriptions

on living in another’s expectations

and/or scrupulosity

….and when you listen you fancy everything that preceded it

Just a dream

you never knew consciousness

or liberation or joy or elation, your personhood a star in the sky

of fantasies waiting to be born…

cues like salvation, forgiveness, new beginnings like jostling and shaking

of a midwife

blood drenching your hair, the harrowing entry into the world from the womb

like a thunderous crash from the third loft of the memory of another existence

inchoate and dire, vacuous and languid

the voice of Paul ,the gospel, the dawning of a new day, a rooster crowing

every other tongue and language lullabies of naiveté

it is then,

waking up, flanked by crowds of concerned men, that you realize and reckon illusions

that life will never be the same, and

you can never fall asleep again

you were dead to sensibility you were at rest

but now finally wide awake

and free to walk in your own truth

(walk away from what you once were)

--------------------Acts 20:6-12

And we sailed away from Philippi after the days of unleavened bread, and came unto them to Troas in five days; where we abode seven days. And upon the first day of the week, when the disciples came together to break bread, Paul preached unto them, ready to depart on the morrow; and continued his speech until midnight. And there were many lights in the upper chamber, where they were gathered together. And there sat in a window a certain young man named Eutychus, being fallen into a deep sleep: and as Paul was long preaching, he sunk down with sleep, and fell down from the third loft, and was taken up dead. And Paul went down, and fell on him, and embracing him said, Trouble not yourselves; for his life is in him. When he therefore was come up again, and had broken bread, and eaten, and talked a long while, even till break of day, so he departed. And they brought the young man alive, and were not a little comforted.