Increase My Status, I Was Birthed In Pain

-------/The Thoughts of Jabez/

What can you do in life but
love, make friends or
hate and make enemies and
eat until youre satisfied, or rob until you've quelled
the hunger pangs tormenting you.
Plow the field for purpose
raise a family then bestow the same precarious
fate upon your progeny
you fight hard for everything you own
to amass wealth, just to garrison your possessions
for fear of loss
then you gaze at the moon and for respite and fall asleep
days cascade into one another
time passes so quickly it escapes your notice
and one day you realize you cant account for all the time spent
you come to troubled,
your heart languishing in your sleep with regrets
of wasted potential (of being a profligate)
this is what the elders tell me
and mom tells me my birth was excruciating;
that Im one of the lucky ones (that I best take advantage
of the extraordinary circumstances dealt)
because we were both likely to miss our chance
to live a full life, and possess our dreams
All I want now, all I could ever want is
for God to enlarge the territory I have and
make me colossal, immeasurable, mammoth
bless me all the days of my life free from evil
that his hand would be with me
and make my life count for something
not just a boy serving as a harbinger of pain
to a broken world



-----------------------------------/
Jabez was more honorable than his brothers. His mother had named him Jabez, saying, "I gave birth to him in pain." Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, "Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain." And God granted his request. (1 Chronicles 4:9-10)

(un) WANTED

You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last. Then the Father will give you whatever you ask in my name. John 15:16

No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him, and I will raise him up at the last day. John 6:44

-----------------------/

I know the feeling all too well, jilted and spurned
castigated by your disdain
you don't want me, I get it
and I will never be good enough for you
youre unattainable
and I will never ever be with you
never
ever
be with you
I could never

The cold winds will blow at my back
the night sky will overtake me on my walk home
wolves howl, predators roam
phantoms maraud
and Im alone again, my expectations long since abandoned me
they left when your jeering stopped
candles are burning in the hallway but
I turn the bathroom lights off, leave the door ajar
sitting in the shower running water
my shadow undulates as I cry


And the finality sinks in
and the throbbing pain of dejection pulses
through my body
like an orphan never chosen is my heart
I am nothing
to you (and never will be)

But in the morning the light will dawn
a new horizon will guide me to it
I will awake and tread again
the One who breathed into my lungs will sustain me yet another day

There is hope, there is forgiveness, there is a real chance
for change
opportunities abound, doors are waiting to be opened
the veil of my tears will stop
sorrows will be supplanted by joys
because there is One who Wants me above all
so I am never totally unwanted
I am always, and have always been chosen

I am special...

The First Poem

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=709560572945

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=709580762485


"Adam's first words are neither to God nor to Eve but to himself. His speech is self-reflexive, the emergence of the other, Eve, gives rise to self-awareness and speech.
Why? Because self and other go together like front and back. The creation of Eve is the creation of Adam. Adam was unaware of himself before Eve. Self and Other arise together, and together they create speech." – Rabbi Rami

*dedicated to Kill Hannah - Black Poison Blood, Crazy Angel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o9Mh1rix-I8
*dedicated to Augustana - Boston http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xLluvXi5nOs

--------[Visceral: Adam's Thoughts Upon Looking Into Eve's Eyes]


Its visceral
you don’t have to say anything
but I already know when you speak
your words will surfeit my soul
(I can just tell)
your eyes are different, but they’re enchanting
they have acuity, seeing me for what I am becoming
not always what I am
but I see you as you are
your body is strange (not entirely like mine) yet beguiling
your hair – has panache
your feet are comely, not like mine
with the accumulation of excess mud,
chasing, and playing with the animals
we are opposites from the same flesh
complimentary yet contrary
when I see the earth I see duty
you regale it with your care
and nourish it, mesmerized by it
Ive seen the moon so much I give it my apathy
yet it continually enthralls you
and
I want desperately to hold you;
you desperately want to be held
(where my rib was eviscerated)
you call it love
I call it recognition…that everything I didn't have
God provided me with
that when youre absent, Im fragmented
and together I have a preternatural sense
of peace
because your bone is my bone now
and the land is our land
the world is our world – this Garden
Im just glad I have someone to share it with





------Genesis 2:18-25----------
And the LORD God said, "It is not good that man should be alone; I will make him a helper comparable to him." Out of the ground the LORD God formed every beast of the field and every bird of the air, and brought them to Adam to see what he would call them. And whatever Adam called each living creature, that was its name. So Adam gave names to all cattle, to the birds of the air, and to every beast of the field. But for Adam there was not found a helper comparable to him. And the LORD God caused a deep sleep to fall on Adam, and he slept; and He took one of his ribs, and closed up the flesh in its place. Then the rib which the LORD God had taken from man He made into a woman, and He brought her to the man.
And Adam said:
"This is now bone of my bones
And flesh of my flesh;
She shall be called Woman,
Because she was taken out of Man."
Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and be joined to his wife, and they shall become one flesh. And they were both naked, the man and his wife, and were not ashamed.
-------------------
"Behold" says the Bridegroom as the two meet. This exclamation is one of rapturous acclaim, akin to that with which the first man, Adam, cried out when he awoke from his deep prophetic sleep and beheld the first woman who ever graced creation with her beauty - coming over the sward to meet him, her graceful step scarcely disturbing the morning dews. Such a creature had never been seen in creation before. For grace, beauty, delicacy, and gentleness, she excelled every creature. Even angels did not compare with her. "THIS" - Adam cried out –“THIS is bone of my bone and flesh of my flesh." His exclamation expresses emphatically, (in the Hebrew), his delight, admiration, and wonder at the appearance of Woman" – ????

And what is literary in the sense I am thinking of is that the technique of poetry is used at a moment of enormous intensity in the words between God and the most despised of mortal creatures. Earlier in this second of the two creation myths at the beginning of Genesis, when Adam sees Eve for the first time, after God has made her from his rib, he is given by the compilers of these texts a brief speech that is represented as poetic lines–again because of its emotional intensity, although in this case an overflowing of human wonder rather than of divine wrath: "This one at least / Is bone of my bones / And flesh of my flesh. / This one shall be called Woman, / For from man was she taken." – Reginald Gibbons http://writing-arts-blog.northwestern.edu/tag/poetry-of-the-bible/


Black Poison Blood lyrics----

It looked like the perfect day
In photos we were smiling
But something was wrong in you
Inside you were suffering
Lungs were barely moving
I wanted to comfort you
So i said, "ahhh..
Oh you'll fix all my cracked broken bones
And replace all my black poison blood"
She murdered me with a smile
Strangled me with her eyes
I'm poisoned as she passes by
The buildings around me shake
Like cheap plastic wedding cake
I fell to the ground with you
Then you said, "shhh..
Oh you'll fix all my cracked broken bones
And replace all my black poison blood!
Black poison blood!"

Remains of the fallen

Remains of the fallen
Friendships
I had.
Men of renown, yet men incomplete
men tainted by the rhetoric and philosophy of a
failed world system, and media and phobias
and anger
misplaced emotions
and the sins of not being garrulous
you fight before you talk
you scorn before you empathize
I want to hurt you – beat you up
But then I would be just like you
Why
Why cant I just kick back with you and watch football
Watch boxing
Watch ufc
commiserate together other about girls who broke our
hearts but not the bond between brothers
brothers – ah
that's it
but what is manhood
what is the virtuous life?
Predicated on Jesus
but who is man enough to follow Him
and be His friend?
Not us, obviously

Who the heck do you thing you are, girl?

There is something about you
its like its your eyes - so calming
I cant quite grasp it
you are ineffable
your are sacrosanct
youre inviolable
but I don’t know why

Its like I saw you
and I was intrigued but then those feelings attenuated
but then they intensified
and I found myself falling for you
you didn't have to say a word
after you said only a few words

You flustered me
Who the heck are you?
How can you do this to me?
Then you confounded me
Because I thought you hated me

Then I hated you
I hated your words, your thoughts your actions
your delight and flattery of others
I HATED IT
why didn't you give me attention
so laconic with me, but not with them!
BOOO! dissonance!

God, you know this woman
tore my emotions to shreds
but her memory
made me want to be a better person
like I felt I had better actualize all the potential I have
because if I want this woman
I had better be the best
maybe that's why the others had her fawning
but not me

But anyway, you – YOU
who the heck are you?
How did you do this to me

Hate me now

Greg,
I don’t hate you dawg,
Its just that you can be so insensitive
you were like my *** – to a large degree
you said so yourself
but Im shy, and insecure
and I shirk

So years have passed
time has unfurled
I missed the weddings, the new domicile
the maturation of kin
instead I got the onset of schism
and contemporaneously your vile appraisal of me
so we lost touch
and relations eroded
and engaged in proxy fights with all my friends

but what did we gain
except the demonization of me?
the apportioning of guilt to me
why am I always the one wrong?
but that's not the point

the point is, this is us now
nothing
just some ramblings on the page of a blog

Ylos

Ylos*
I feel decrepit within
like I lost my manhood when you smiled at me
and I turned away my glance
You welcomed me with your disposition
and I sneered
but I didn’t really sneer but it probably had that affect
I returned your kindness
with deafening silence
I absconded into the night – during the day
with all your dignity
I never wanted to treat anyone this way….

Its just – you told me you had a boyfriend
that you couldn’t do lunch
...what was I to make of that?
if I befriend you, it would be like stepping on a poison adder
like consenting to conspiracy
like using our conversation as a subterfuge
(I dont want trouble with nobody, Im not bellicose)
I wanted you

You knew that

How could I treacherously plot to take another man’s girl?
I would not want that same fate dealt me
So I stonewall the exchange of any pleasantries
out of respect – for you, him, and me
I don’t want that to be our legacy – that I am a pilferer
of love

No – you enjoy your boyfriend
Im sorry that you just don’t quite understand this

Dont....Just Dont Okay?

You were not supposed to do this
you ravaged my time and my heart
leaving only decibels behind
your face screams in my dreams
your voice
the casual conversations we had rages
memories of you wring my soul
I cover my ears in my sleep

I don’t want to not want to live without you
that was not my plan
I don’t want to be vulnerable anymore,
not to anyone – I know what that's like
and it took years for the pangs to subside
the madness, the folly of it
it makes me capricious
it makes me fear you, because your presence
it afflicts me
I want to fall in love,
but I don’t want to fall in love with you

not if youre going to hurt me
please don’t hurt me
please love me
or leave

forever
but I don't want you to leave
its just that I cant stop thinking about you
don’t do this to me
don’t do this to me

My Enemies Are Absalom Hanged

*Dedicated to anyone who ever rejected, slandered, mistreated, abused, or resented me without cause. to all those jealous of me, to all those who plot and lay traps.

*Dedicated to all those people out there who are tired of laying down at the feet of unjust men

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=707486524355

[[[Psalm 58:10 - The righteous shall rejoice when he seeth the vengeance: he shall wash his feet in the blood of the wicked]]]

-------------------------/Absalom Hanged/---------------------

You killed Amnon (my self-esteem) surreptitiously,
You incited revolt among the people (mocked me publicly) –
upstaging the King
foolishly debasing Ahithophel (sensibility) and heeding Hushai (my wryness)
to your ruin
I did nothing to provoke your wrath
or to deserve your coup d'état (excessive cruelty)
it was your flawed character that compelled you
turning to evil and conspiring with the dark angel (of jealously and fear;
possessed by an uncanny malevolence)
while I camp in Mahanaim (the arms of God), unbeknownst and undetected

I pray you meet your end in the woods of Ephraim
Battling, and striving to best me
may your ambitions be slaughtered and scattered over the countryside
may the woods devour more of your dreams than my anger ever can
because you are pretentious
you ride your intentions like a steed, but sardonically they look like a mule
I hope thick boughs of a great terebinth tree manifest your futility
and hang you by your neck
gasping, wheezing as your lungs mercifully gasp for air
your legs dangle and your body convulses – violently
as my fury then pursues like Joab with no compassion
like a hardened soldier salivating, disgusted and jaded at his enemy
bolstering his disdain thrice
thrusting three spears straight through your chest
smiling as the blood pours profusely from your wounds

blowing a horn
ordering ten more men to slash and impale you ten more times
then your body and your efforts I will have cast in a large pit
heaps of stones thrown over your shameless reputation
(so your body can rot alone)
until all that remains is a pillar
that serves as a monument to your impotence





---------------------------------2 Samuel 18:6-18
So the people went out into the field of battle against Israel. And the battle was in the woods of Ephraim. The people of Israel were overthrown there before the servants of David, and a great slaughter of twenty thousand took place there that day. For the battle there was scattered over the face of the whole countryside, and the woods devoured more people that day than the sword devoured. Then Absalom met the servants of David. Absalom rode on a mule. The mule went under the thick boughs of a great terebinth tree, and his head caught in the terebinth; so he was left hanging between heaven and earth. And the mule which was under him went on. Now a certain man saw it and told Joab, and said, "I just saw Absalom hanging in a terebinth tree!” So Joab said to the man who told him, “You just saw him! And why did you not strike him there to the ground? I would have given you ten shekels of silver and a belt.” But the man said to Joab, “Though I were to receive a thousand shekels of silver in my hand, I would not raise my hand against the king's son. For in our hearing the king commanded you and Abishai and Ittai, saying, 'Beware lest anyone touch the young man Absalom!'Otherwise I would have dealt falsely against my own life. For there is nothing hidden from the king, and you yourself would have set yourself against me." Then Joab said, "I cannot linger with you." And he took three spears in his hand and thrust them through Absalom’s heart, while he was still alive in the midst of the terebinth tree. And ten young men who bore Joab's armor surrounded Absalom, and struck and killed him. So Joab blew the trumpet, and the people returned from pursuing Israel. For Joab held back the people. And they took Absalom and cast him into a large pit in the woods, and laid a very large heap of stones over him. Then all Israel fled, everyone to his tent. Now Absalom in his lifetime had taken and set up a pillar for himself, which is in the King's Valley. For he said, "I have no son to keep my name in remembrance." He called the pillar after his own name. And to this day it is called Absalom's Monument.


-------Alesana [Endings Without Stories] Lyrics

this time I die

our love ruined by your malignance
broken shards of feelings are now just tainted memories left
beautiful dreams that I cherished now are so disgusting as I strangle the light from you

I watched the smile fading from your face
you bled till there was nothing in your veins
blood stains my hands so I won't forget you
its all over now so dry your eyes
there is no forgiveness, be afraid to die
blood stains my hands so I won't forget you

tears fall as your screams of anguish rage throughout the heavens
amidst the penance you must pay
caress this bullet as eyes close to the painful memories you left
consume the rest of me
my vision of you has now turned to dust, your porcelain smile gone

I watched the smile fading from your face
you bled till there was nothing in your veins
blood stains my hands so I won't forget you
its all over now so dry your eyes... there is no forgiveness, be afraid to die
blood stains my hands so I won't forget you

you let me go
you let me go too soon
I love you are meaningless words that slip away as I slit your throat
and I will slit your throat

Gamaliel

* Dedicated to *****
* Dedicated to The Used, "I Caught Fire"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VLoOx86A6bE

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=707219863745


-----------------------------/Gamaliel /-------------------

MEN OF ISRAEL – skeptics, critics, pessimists, naysayers and dissidents of love

I get it, okay?
My heart has hasn’t been seized with anxiety like this
for quite sometime
and I know the risks inherent in this undertaking
I once was Theudas with four hundred reasons
to expect fulfillment of my aspirations, but I was slain
and they were scattered, discouraged
by reason of rejection
(I know the piercing desolation of the soul
of not being wanted)
I was Judas of Gaililee formerly, filled with momentum
intent on engaging any and all citizens
determining interest in me, a census, and many supporters followed
hoping to see my goal realized
but seeing the results my soul perished,
and all who obeyed me were dispersed....and
there was still no one found to stand by me
and now I say to you, keep away from my yearning
and let it alone
if I am set on doing this in my own strength
like all the other times I mentioned, it will fail
but if this person* is from God
our shared destiny cannot be overthrown
...so don't try to stand in my way
or fight against this pursuit of love,
lest you be found to fight against God





-------------------------Acts 5:33-42
When they heard this, they were furious and plotted to kill them. Then one in the council stood up, a Pharisee named Gamaliel, a teacher of the law held in respect by all the people, and commanded them to put the apostles outside for a little while. And he said to them: “Men of Israel, take heed to yourselves what you intend to do regarding these men. For some time ago Theudas rose up, claiming to be somebody. A number of men, about four hundred, joined him. He was slain, and all who obeyed him were scattered and came to nothing. After this man, Judas of Galilee rose up in the days of the census, and drew away many people after him. He also perished, and all who obeyed him were dispersed. And now I say to you, keep away from these men and let them alone; for if this plan or this work is of men, it will come to nothing; but if it is of God, you cannot overthrow it—lest you even be found to fight against God." And they agreed with him, and when they had called for the apostles and beaten them, they commanded that they should not speak in the name of Jesus, and let them go. So they departed from the presence of the council, rejoicing that they were counted worthy to suffer shame for His name. And daily in the temple, and in every house, they did not cease teaching and preaching Jesus as the Christ.


--------------I Caught Fire Lyrics

Seemed to stop my breath
My head on your chest
Waiting to cave in
From the bottom of my...
Hear your voice again
Could we dim the sun
And wonder where we've been
Maybe you and me
So kiss me like you did
My heart stopped beating
Such a softer sin...

(I'm melting, Im melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while

And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
Now

Never caught my breath
Every second I'm without you I'm a mess
Ever know each other
Trust these words are stones
Why cuts aren't healing
(why cuts aren't healing)
Learning how to love

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
And I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
(Stay with me lay with me now)

You could stay and watch me fall
And of course I'll ask for help
Just stay with me now
We could take our heads off
stay in bed and just make love that's all
(stay in bed, just make love that's all)
Just stay with me now

I'm melting (I'm melting)
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting

In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me
Lay with me
In your eyes
I lost my place
Could stay a while
and I'm melting
In your eyes
Like my first time
That I caught fire
Just stay with me lay with me
(Stay with me, lay with me)

In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes (I'm melting in your eyes)
In your eyes
Let's sleep till the sun burns out
I'm melting in your eyes

Nicki Minaj, There is a Covenant of Fire Passing Between Us!

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=706214278945

-------------Nicki Minaj, Confirm Our Covenant Of Love Please!-----------


Nicki, baby, I don't want to be without you
I don’t want Eliezer of Damascus, the horrid fate of dying alone,
to be my heart’s heir –
I don’t want to know life if youre not near....
Look towards heaven at night and try to count–
as innumerable as the stars are in the sky: so shall our kisses be
your kindness has delivered me from the land of Ur, of the Chaldeans
the land of maniacal women who only wish me harm and rejection
the pain of a broken soul; indifferent to my feelings
I will bring you sacrifices symbolizing our perpetual concord
a three-year-old heifer of singular focus and attention
a three-year-old female goat of steadfast fidelity to you always
a three-year-old ram of passionate embraces
a turtledove for backrubs and shared bubblebaths
a young pigeon for serenading you with songs
cut down the middle because I want us to share this romance equally
half and half – two lovers to complete this amour
but the serenading belongs to me!
And invariably if those vultures come, those jealous
those conniving and diabolical critics of our relationship
(the Kenites, theKadmonites, the Hittites, etc)
I will drive them away....I will protect all that we cherish and hold dear
anyone that afflicts us will be judged, that I promise
Our unity will be like a smoking oven
like a burning torch passing between our keepsakes
and sentiments, sparking them
and keeping our hearts ablaze for one another
– sealing our covenant
From the river of Egypt to the great river, the River Euphrates
I will proclaim how much I cherish you, and need you
The world will know the eternal and everlasting power of our love
henceforth




-----------Genesis 15-------
After these things the word of the LORD came to Abram in a vision, saying, "Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your exceedingly great reward." But Abram said, "Lord GOD, what will You give me, seeing I go childless, and the heir of my house is Eliezer of Damascus?" Then Abram said, “Look, You have given me no offspring; indeed one born in my house is my heir!" And behold, the word of the LORD came to him, saying, "This one shall not be your heir, but one who will come from your own body shall be your heir." Then He brought him outside and said, "Look now toward heaven, and count the stars if you are able to number them." And He said to him, "So shall your descendants be." And he believed in the LORD, and He accounted it to him for righteousness. Then He said to him, "I am the LORD, who brought you out of Ur of the Chaldeans, to give you this land to inherit it. And he said, "Lord GOD, how shall I know that I will inherit it?" So He said to him, "Bring Me a three-year-old heifer, a three-year-old female goat, a three-year-old ram, a turtledove, and a young pigeon." Then he brought all these to Him and cut them in two, down the middle, and placed each piece opposite the other; but he did not cut the birds in two. And when the vultures came down on the carcasses, Abram drove them away. Now when the sun was going down, a deep sleep fell upon Abram; and behold, horror and great darkness fell upon him. Then He said to Abram: "Know certainly that your descendants will be strangers in a land that is not theirs, and will serve them, and they will afflict them four hundred years. And also the nation whom they serve I will judge; afterward they shall come out with great possessions. Now as for you, you shall go to your fathers in peace; you shall be buried at a good old age. But in the fourth generation they shall return here, for the iniquity of the Amorites is not yet complete." And it came to pass, when the sun went down and it was dark, that behold, there appeared a smoking oven and a burning torch that passed between those pieces. On the same day the LORD made a covenant with Abram, saying: "To your descendants I have given this land, from the river of Egypt to the great river, the River Euphrates— the Kenites, the Kenezzites, the Kadmonites, the Hittites, the Perizzites, the Rephaim, the Amorites, the Canaanites, the Girgashites, and the Jebusites."

Kate Gosselin, Baby, Dont Make Me Eat Grass!!!....please???

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=705723282905

Kate, you dont have to Dance With The Stars to Be MY Star! You already shine in my heart, baby!!! But about those eight kids....you see.....the thing is......I only make $.....


--------------------------/Daniel 4: Kate Gosselin, Dont Make Me Eat Grass!!!/


My love for you is a tree in the middle of the land
enormous
(a vast militaristic pagan empire subjugating the inhabitants of the earth)
Its peak touching the sky, with aspirations of growth unrestrained
hoping to eclipse the sun, or at least cast a silhouette;
a picturesque sentiment reminding all of my ardor
for you. The leaves of my affections for you are beautiful,
with abundant fruit
and every joy like birds of the air or creatures of the field can feed there
to their complete satisfaction.

And I am careful not to take you for granted,
or to ever, full of pride, desecrate what I hold so dear
traipsing on the roof of my palace bragging how I obtained you by my might
because I fear your rejection like a messenger, a holy one,
coming down from heaven
restless, tossing and turning in my nightmares proclaiming:
Cut down the tree and trim off its branches;
strip off its leaves and scatter its fruit.
let the animals flee from under it and the birds from its branches
(yet even then I know your mercy would permit the stump and its roots
of my heart to remain in the ground)
let him be drenched with the dew of heaven,
and let him live with the animals

Kate without you,
I am a man without shelter, a ruler without his empire
savage, vicious, barbaric, primitive, uncivil and unrefined
driven away from his people, walking on his hands and knees
eating grass with unkempt hair like feathers and claws for hands and nails
void of reason and pitiable…growling and hissing.
It is only by your side that I can raise my eyes towards heaven (the sky)
with my sanity always intact
mindful that your dominion, of love, is an eternal dominion
mindful of how bad I need your hugs
realizing you can give your devotion, and loyalty to whoever you wish
recognizing your kiss is a blessing, not a right




(If I walk in pride, I will be humbled)


[I love you baby! Forget Jon! Its Kate and Tony plus Eight!!!!)




---Daniel 4----
King Nebuchadnezzar,
To the peoples, nations and men of every language, who live in all the world:
May you prosper greatly!
It is my pleasure to tell you about the miraculous signs and wonders that the Most High God has performed for me.
How great are his signs,
how mighty his wonders!
His kingdom is an eternal kingdom;
his dominion endures from generation to generation.
I, Nebuchadnezzar, was at home in my palace, contented and prosperous. I had a dream that made me afraid. As I was lying in my bed, the images and visions that passed through my mind terrified me. So I commanded that all the wise men of Babylon be brought before me to interpret the dream for me. When the magicians, enchanters, astrologers and diviners came, I told them the dream, but they could not interpret it for me. Finally, Daniel came into my presence and I told him the dream. (He is called Belteshazzar, after the name of my god, and the spirit of the holy gods is in him.) I said, "Belteshazzar, chief of the magicians, I know that the spirit of the holy gods is in you, and no mystery is too difficult for you. Here is my dream; interpret it for me. These are the visions I saw while lying in my bed: I looked, and there before me stood a tree in the middle of the land. Its height was enormous. The tree grew large and strong and its top touched the sky; it was visible to the ends of the earth. Its leaves were beautiful, its fruit abundant, and on it was food for all. Under it the beasts of the field found shelter, and the birds of the air lived in its branches; from it every creature was fed. "In the visions I saw while lying in my bed, I looked, and there before me was a messenger, a holy one, coming down from heaven. He called in a loud voice: 'Cut down the tree and trim off its branches; strip off its leaves and scatter its fruit. Let the animals flee from under it and the birds from its branches. But let the stump and its roots, bound with iron and bronze, remain in the ground, in the grass of the field. “ 'Let him be drenched with the dew of heaven, and let him live with the animals among the plants of the earth. Let his mind be changed from that of a man and let him be given the mind of an animal, till seven times pass by for him.
" 'The decision is announced by messengers, the holy ones declare the verdict, so that the living may know that the Most High is sovereign over the kingdoms of men and gives them to anyone he wishes and sets over them the lowliest of men.'"This is the dream that I, King Nebuchadnezzar, had. Now, Belteshazzar, tell me what it means, for none of the wise men in my kingdom can interpret it for me. But you can, because the spirit of the holy gods is in you." Then Daniel (also called Belteshazzar) was greatly perplexed for a time, and his thoughts terrified him. So the king said, "Belteshazzar, do not let the dream or its meaning alarm you." Belteshazzar answered, "My lord, if only the dream applied to your enemies and its meaning to your adversaries! The tree you saw, which grew large and strong, with its top touching the sky, visible to the whole earth, with beautiful leaves and abundant fruit, providing food for all, giving shelter to the beasts of the field, and having nesting places in its branches for the birds of the air- you, O king, are that tree! You have become great and strong; your greatness has grown until it reaches the sky, and your dominion extends to distant parts of the earth. "You, O king, saw a messenger, a holy one, coming down from heaven and saying, 'Cut down the tree and destroy it, but leave the stump, bound with iron and bronze, in the grass of the field, while its roots remain in the ground. Let him be drenched with the dew of heaven; let him live like the wild animals, until seven times pass by for him.' "This is the interpretation, O king, and this is the decree the Most High has issued against my lord the king: You will be driven away from people and will live with the wild animals; you will eat grass like cattle and be drenched with the dew of heaven. Seven times will pass by for you until you acknowledge that the Most High is sovereign over the kingdoms of men and gives them to anyone he wishes. The command to leave the stump of the tree with its roots means that your kingdom will be restored to you when you acknowledge that Heaven rules. Therefore, O king, be pleased to accept my advice: Renounce your sins by doing what is right, and your wickedness by being kind to the oppressed. It may be that then your prosperity will continue." All this happened to King Nebuchadnezzar. Twelve months later, as the king was walking on the roof of the royal palace of Babylon, he said, "Is not this the great Babylon I have built as the royal residence, by my mighty power and for the glory of my majesty?" The words were still on his lips when a voice came from heaven, "This is what is decreed for you, King Nebuchadnezzar: Your royal authority has been taken from you. You will be driven away from people and will live with the wild animals; you will eat grass like cattle. Seven times will pass by for you until you acknowledge that the Most High is sovereign over the kingdoms of men and gives them to anyone he wishes." Immediately what had been said about Nebuchadnezzar was fulfilled. He was driven away from people and ate grass like cattle. His body was drenched with the dew of heaven until his hair grew like the feathers of an eagle and his nails like the claws of a bird. At the end of that time, I, Nebuchadnezzar, raised my eyes toward heaven, and my sanity was restored. Then I praised the Most High; I honored and glorified him who lives forever.
His dominion is an eternal dominion;
his kingdom endures from generation to generation.
All the peoples of the earth
are regarded as nothing.
He does as he pleases
with the powers of heaven
and the peoples of the earth.
No one can hold back his hand
or say to him: "What have you done?"
At the same time that my sanity was restored, my honor and splendor were returned to me for the glory of my kingdom. My advisers and nobles sought me out, and I was restored to my throne and became even greater than before. Now I, Nebuchadnezzar, praise and exalt and glorify the King of heaven, because everything he does is right and all his ways are just. And those who walk in pride he is able to humble.

Moment of Clarity

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When he had said this, he breathed his last


----------------------/Clarity – The Last Thoughts of Jesus On the Cross/

Most men spend the entirety of their lives
not knowing who they are
refuting characterizations of what they are not
seeking, straining, striving to find themselves among the bedlam
of uncertainties
of doubts
for some it takes a lifetime, and other less time
yet others an eternity
walking on water, distributing fish and bread to thousands
when there really is none to give
raising the dead, gleaning tax money from piscaries
casting demons into large herds of pigs
giving clarity of sight to eyes enveloped in onyx light
souls in shadows deprived of sun since birth
praying for respite from the eclipse
and still they don't understand who you are
and where they stand in relation
you come from heaven, and they from dust
you come to redeem, as they are lost in sin
yet they slander, and don't quite understand
labeling you as the one full of sin
in the presence of truth they profess what they are not:
tolerant of the One who ushers it in,
and subverts their pride, transforming grown men into children
who in turn deny their true Father for a false one
losing themselves in the process: discombobulated
The vigilant fight for obtuseness, the adamant stance against
love by whipping, slapping, spitting, mocking, crucifying
when their scarred souls need love most
(they know not what they do)
but even though nails pierce my hands and feet
there is no confusion
I know who I am, and where I am going



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Luke 23: 44-46
It was now about the sixth hour, and darkness came over the whole land until the ninth hour, for the sun stopped shining. And the curtain of the temple was torn in two. Jesus called out with a loud voice, "Father, into your hands I commit my spirit." When he had said this, he breathed his last.

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Kill Hannah "Last Night Here" Lyrics
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This is our last night here
The air is cold as ice
All the trees that lost their leaves
Are reflected in our eyes
This is our last night here
Or so it seems
Silence like the darkest waters in a submarine...

This is our last night here
On planet Earth
And I don't want my heart
'Cause it always hurts
If this is our last night here
I won't kick and scream
I'll just grab onto you
And I dare to breathe...

If it's is our last night here for long
I'm gonna put this record on
I'm gonna burn this city down
And we'll watch the glow until it's gone
But before I go insane
There's something else to say
You thought you were alone
But I was with you all the way...

With you all the way
With you all the way...

If this is our last night here
On planet Earth
Then I'll give you my heart
'Cause it hurts too much
If this is our last night here
I won't change a thing
I'll just grab onto you
And I feel you breathe...

If this is our last night here...
If this is our last night here...
If this is our last night here
I'll grab onto you
Just to feel you breathe...

Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe….