I AM Pregnant with Keira Knightley's Baby Boy

Genesis 30:1b
So she said to Jacob, "Give me children, or I'll die!"
------------------[I am like Rachel, and there is a burning inside me for you, Keira]



I have clenched my womb continuously
and despised this loneliness in my heart like bareness
bitter and jealous of if like it was my sister Leah
full of children when I should be full of children
because it is fraudulent
because she is treacherous and heart wrenching
driving me to sheer madness
akin to having a senseless father...and he was to blame
for everything
Keira, you and I are supposed to be together
not me and this agonizing scourge of realization
that my heart is forever empty without you
my confidence like womanhood needs you
to actualize the potential I have in me
....believe me I would totally dote on you. And it is
a screaming baby boy anxiously making preparations
to leave my body
begging to be recognized and named.....

To love you is to give my world life
calling you my wife is my comfort like holding my child in my arms
contentment like breastfeeding him
baby, I would do anything to be with you
please, please, please just give me a chance
I cant go on like this anymore. If it takes you being with someone else
go ahead and have Bilhah! Name your time with her
Dan, or Naphtali....or lust or "just looking for a good time"
Go ahead and have Zilpah! Nickname your bliss Gad! Fine!
but please don’t make me painfully endure and watch
(selling my soul like a worthless mandrake root)
you and Leah again and again roam in sensual ecstasy
fondly proclaiming "Issachar, Zebulun, Dinah!!!"

Don’t do that to me, baby
come for me
come to me, leave everyone else behind
I’m pregnant with joy for us to be side by side
till death parts our ways, pries my lips from yours
Keira Knightley and Tony eternally
...Lets call him "Joseph"


(I love you girl, let's give birth to my dreams)




Genesis 30:1-24
When Rachel saw that she was not bearing Jacob any children, she became jealous of her sister. So she said to Jacob, "Give me children, or I'll die!" Jacob became angry with her and said, "Am I in the place of God, who has kept you from having children?" Then she said, "Here is Bilhah, my maidservant. Sleep with her so that she can bear children for me and that through her I too can build a family." So she gave him her servant Bilhah as a wife. Jacob slept with her, and she became pregnant and bore him a son. 6 Then Rachel said, "God has vindicated me; he has listened to my plea and given me a son." Because of this she named him Dan. Rachel's servant Bilhah conceived again and bore Jacob a second son. Then Rachel said, "I have had a great struggle with my sister, and I have won." So she named him Naphtali. When Leah saw that she had stopped having children, she took her maidservant Zilpah and gave her to Jacob as a wife. Leah's servant Zilpah bore Jacob a son. 11 Then Leah said, "What good fortune!" So she named him Gad. Leah's servant Zilpah bore Jacob a second son. Then Leah said, "How happy I am! The women will call me happy." So she named him Asher. During wheat harvest, Reuben went out into the fields and found some mandrake plants, which he brought to his mother Leah. Rachel said to Leah, "Please give me some of your son's mandrakes." But she said to her, "Wasn't it enough that you took away my husband? Will you take my son's mandrakes too?" "Very well," Rachel said, "he can sleep with you tonight in return for your son's mandrakes." So when Jacob came in from the fields that evening, Leah went out to meet him. "You must sleep with me," she said. "I have hired you with my son's mandrakes." So he slept with her that night. God listened to Leah, and she became pregnant and bore Jacob a fifth son. Then Leah said, "God has rewarded me for giving my maidservant to my husband." So she named him Issachar. Leah conceived again and bore Jacob a sixth son. Then Leah said, "God has presented me with a precious gift. This time my husband will treat me with honor, because I have borne him six sons." So she named him Zebulun. Some time later she gave birth to a daughter and named her Dinah. Then God remembered Rachel; he listened to her and opened her womb. She became pregnant and gave birth to a son and said, "God has taken away my disgrace." She named him Joseph, and said, "May the LORD add to me another son."

The Beatitudes of Tony and Angelina Jolie

Blessed are the pure of heart, for they shall see [Angelina and Tony]
--------/Angelina Jolie you are my Blessing on the Mount/ Go see Wanted this Friday!!!


Baby, I want to be where you are
(always)
I want to smell you and hold you
(sustaining a firm grip)
and maintain quiet in your presence, fawning over you
just holding your hand, just twirling your hair
softly pressing my fingers against your eyelids
asking you to see inside me– spiritually
breathing on you so you could feel my life force
on your nose
tangible proof for you that its your inspiration that keeps me alive
inside

Angelina don't you see (don't open your eyes yet):
you alone are my wealth, so my spirit is poor
knowing you is my key to heaven...
that I mourn when you stop speaking
it is only when we converse again that I am comforted...
you are the most beautiful in the land
the honor of being with you is inheriting the earth, so I stay humble and meek..
I hunger, I thirst for love - and for all that is right
so when you are near, I am completely satisfied...
I am so lost without you – I need your mercy
be merciful to me with your attentiveness...
your heart is as pure as your skin and as luscious as your lips
and as herculean and incapacitating as your kiss!
when I first met you I felt like I met God - that made my heart pure, too
and girl, there is nothing but strife within,
warring between my members in your absence, your company is my peace
in our togetherness there is innocence, I feel like a child of God
so I don't care what anyone says, let them persecute me for righteousness
for obsessing
for nurturing
and caring for you
that is my kingdom of heaven, and they will have to kill me before I let it go

You are my all pervasive benefactor
since you came
everything is miraculous
everything is Blessed
baby


(open your eyes now)


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"Blessed are the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
Blessed are they who mourn,
for they shall be comforted.
Blessed are the meek,
for they shall inherit the earth.
Blessed are they who hunger and thirst for righteousness,
for they shall be satisfied.
Blessed are the merciful,
for they shall obtain mercy.
Blessed are the pure of heart,
for they shall see God.
Blessed are the peacemakers,
for they shall be called children of God.
Blessed are they who are persecuted for the sake of righteousness,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

Gospel of St. Matthew 5:3-10
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The Science of Romantic Rejection - From Jennifer

* Real talk * I feel God is speaking to me in a particular way today. Addressing the issue of rejection, especially from women, the most noble, respectable thing a man can do is accept and not berate. He should come to terms with the decision made, taking all the lessons learned for better or for worse, and then move on. Dont be a knucklehead by going into a fit of rage, throwing things and cussing and the like, when a woman refuses your advances. Every woman (most often being the gender pursued), has a right to choose between suitors. She has this right without any misgivings or regret... it is her endowment from God as a woman...it is part of being a woman; just as pursuing a woman is part of being a man – an intrinsic inclination or characteristic. Thusly, in the same way a man has the right to chose the woman he pursues and a woman should have no qualms about not being chosen. Rejection is an important component of life, a character builder, a patience tester. The Lord Himself was rejected numerous times and each time respected the free will of the object of His affections. Creation rejected its own Savior. He walked amongst His creation and His creation didn’t receive him. [John 1:11 He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him.] The Israelites wanted a king, effectively slapping God in the face because He alone was to rule over them. [1 Samuel 8:7 And the LORD told him: "Listen to all that the people are saying to you; it is not you they have rejected, but they have rejected me as their king.] Notice the response of God to rejection – acceptance. Jesus did not make Jerusalem gather together as chicks under His wings...he let them make their own choice in that matter.

Jennifer, Lisa, Megan, Julia, O*, Alexis, Ke***, Ellen, JoAnne, and everyone else: you have every right to reject me. I accept and honor your choice... no hard feelings. Before, I used to let this bother me but now I see that your rejection of me has taught me life lessons, "and it is marvelous in our eyes." Selah




Jesus said to them, "Have you never read in the Scriptures: " 'The stone the builders rejected has become the capstone; the Lord has done this, and it is marvelous in our eyes.
--------------------------------[Jennifer I relent. We are just not meant to be. / The thoughts of Jesus upon being rejected]



Before I saw you I perceived you
there was dirt, but I conceived you and me together
created "us"
and my heart stopped
and started again, so I had to clutch my chest
and breathe into you like a potter forms his clay
and marvels at his finished product
and begins to use it everyday
even for the mundane things
like staring at it
wishing it would speak, and love him back
or at least let me kiss you, just once
all in all, before we met everything was void and formless
then there was light
then there was you
and all of a sudden...it was good
because of you, it is really good

Jennifer, I feel like my love would have saved you
(pure, like I was born of a Virgin in Bethlehem)
from foolish inclinations, a corrupt depraved nature
that settles for less than the absolute best
from men that would use you
then discard you
I truly believe life would be Hell without us together
the axe of sorrow is already at the root of the jaded trees
with bad fruit...people that don't cherish each other
relationships in which adulation is not reciprocated
since they don’t produce joy are jettisoned into the fire
of despondency or at best lethargy, baby!
if you would just believe in me (I would heal, perfrom miracles)
I would guarantee eternal lavishing
keys to the Kingdom of Life
complete loyalty to you

Oh how I wanted to gather you as a chick under my wings
let me be your king
let me be your stone
...don't leave me here with my head down
shoulders slouched
hands hanging limp in my pockets
realizing after all my best intentions...you just dont want me







Matthew 21:42
Jesus said to them, "Have you never read in the Scriptures:
" 'The stone the builders rejected
has become the capstone;
the Lord has done this,
and it is marvelous in our eyes?

Isaiah 53:3
He was despised and rejected by men, a man of sorrows, and familiar with suffering. Like one from whom men hide their faces he was despised, and we esteemed him not.

Luke 13:34
"O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, you who kill the prophets and stone those sent to you, how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing!

1 Samuel 8:7
And the LORD told him: "Listen to all that the people are saying to you; it is not you they have rejected, but they have rejected me as their king.

Your Friendship is a Judas Kiss. (I cant stand fake Christians)

* dedicated to all the fake, counterfeit Christians out there. Ive come across so many in my day, but a few special people come to mind recently. Persons Ive known for a while, but act like they don’t know me now. Your friendship is so shallow, you turn and toss like the waves, you cant be trusted. You don’t know the meaning of the words “Jesus Christ,” because Jesus is so much more faithful and true than you’ll ever be. You make Jesus look so ugly to me; but I know Jesus better than that. Youre fake. You don’t obey the second commandment. Youre fake. Youre fake. Youre fake. Youre judgmental, youre shallow. YOURE FAKE.





For it was not an enemy that reproached me; then I could have borne it: neither was it he that hated me that did magnify himself against me; then I would have hid myself from him: But it was thou, a man mine equal, my guide, and mine acquaintance.
------------------------------[I will never forget this fake Christianity. This fake friendship/ Judas Kiss]
[Jesus' Words to Judas after being kissed on the cheek]




I appointed you on a mountainside as my friend (Mark 3:19)
We dined, we made disciples, we raised the dead
reclined with Levi
and broke bread for 5,000 men...besides the women and children
and fish
and collected basketfuls for the trip back
I loved you so much
that I walked on the sea to be near you
I calmed the waves that troubled you
I rebuked the winds that caused you grief
Inviting you to partake in the transcendent
though your faith was not prepared
so I held out my hand
determined never to let you (or the others) drown
my fellow jew
my companion
my child
my friend

You heard my statements to the Pharisees scathing
my disdain at the black hearts
the kind that lack faith and left a father's heart dangling
while a demon threw his son into the fire maimed, into the water destitute
helpless
mistaking my anagoge of their spiritual yeast
for real yeast
mistaking my devotion to you, my words
as mere theatrics for the crowds
not to be taken as a metaphor for something greater

and there are women better than you
sitting in heaven in thrones more glamorous than your fathers'
weeping over my feet
pouring perfume on my hair
caressing me
attentive to me like Mary, but you have the disposition of Martha
you drank my blood
you ate my flesh
but you worry about the wrong things and your soul harps on
evil intentions (for me)
I will never forget how you threw it all away
the look in your eyes, the look in your face
your betrayal is like snake poison
from Eden
and your kiss feels like the wind on that day I walked
finding Adam and Eve hunched over
cursed



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2 Samuel 15:12
While Absalom was offering sacrifices, he also sent for Ahithophel the Gilonite, David's counselor, to come from Giloh, his hometown. And so the conspiracy gained strength, and Absalom's following kept on increasing

Psalm 41:9
Even my close friend, whom I trusted,
he who shared my bread,
has lifted up his heel against me.

Psalm 55:10-23
Day and night they go about it upon the walls thereof: mischief also and sorrow are in the midst of it. Wickedness is in the midst thereof: deceit and guile depart not from her streets. For it was not an enemy that reproached me; then I could have borne it: neither was it he that hated me that did magnify himself against me; then I would have hid myself from him: But it was thou, a man mine equal, my guide, and mine acquaintance. We took sweet counsel together, and walked unto the house of God in company. Let death seize upon them, and let them go down quick into hell: for wickedness is in their dwellings, and among them. As for me, I will call upon God; and the LORD shall save me. Evening, and morning, and at noon, will I pray, and cry aloud: and he shall hear my voice. He hath delivered my soul in peace from the battle that was against me: for there were many with me. God shall hear, and afflict them, even he that abideth of old. Selah. Because they have no changes, therefore they fear not God. He hath put forth his hands against such as be at peace with him: he hath broken his covenant. The words of his mouth were smoother than butter, but war was in his heart: his words were softer than oil, yet were they drawn swords. Cast thy burden upon the LORD, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved. But thou, O God, shalt bring them down into the pit of destruction: bloody and deceitful men shall not live out half their days; but I will trust in thee.

Matthew 26:49
Going at once to Jesus, Judas said, "Greetings, Rabbi!" and kissed him.

Anne Hathaway Is My Lover/Exorcist

And they begged Him that He would not command them to go out into the abyss.
----------[Anne, don't do this to me, please. Life without you, baby, is an Abyss]



Anne, I need you
so bad
so bad
so bad
without you in my life, I simply cant go on
I might as well dwell amongst tombs
and go insane
If I cant kiss you, If I cant hug you, If I cant love you
It is demonic...sufficient for me to leave the city
disclaim my house (while tearing my clothes off)
and throw rocks at the moon, running (back and forth) in the wild
...SCREAMING...
strong men with weapons over me keep watch
they try to chain with me cruel intentions
of keeping me away from you
hideous, baleful, hateful assaults like chains
like shackles but they cannot contain my affections
my yearning

When I toss and turn in my sleep
almost too internally afflicted to rest
scarred skin from those jagged rocks
I dream of you, baby
your hair as black as the night sky adorning tree tops
and mountain ridges...
sailing for me
to country of the Gadarenes
Ive been waiting for that moment for such a long time:

When you would finally step out on the dry land
and I cry before you
falling at your feet, just holding you
avowing loudly "What have I to do without you, Anne,
daughter of the Most High God?"
do not torment me with your absence any longer
I am legion, because there are many reasons why
I cant let you go
Baby, when youre gone my existence is an Abyss
don’t send me there
please?


[command these spirits of forlornness to come out of me, baby]





(Anne Hathaway, I want to see your new movie Get Smart due to your participation, there is no other reason. If you were living in PG county Maryland I would ask you to marry me. You are so beautiful and...and I refuse to smile again unless you are near...I love you baby)



Luke 8:26-31
Then they sailed to the country of the Gadarenes, which is opposite Galilee. And when He stepped out on the land, there met Him a certain man from the city who had demons for a long time. And he wore no clothes, nor did he live in a house but in the tombs. When he saw Jesus, he cried out, fell down before Him, and with a loud voice said, "What have I to do with You, Jesus, Son of the Most High God? I beg You, do not torment me!" For He had commanded the unclean spirit to come out of the man. For it had often seized him, and he was kept under guard, bound with chains and shackles; and he broke the bonds and was driven by the demon into the wilderness. Jesus asked him, saying, "What is your name?" And he said, "Legion," because many demons had entered him. And they begged Him that He would not command them to go out into the abyss.

Into the Viper's Eyes

But Paul shook the snake off into the fire and suffered no ill effects.
-----------------------------[Into the Viper's Eyes; Paul’s Words to the Viper that Bit Him]


I was riding a horse on the way to Damascus
(with no harness)
when dazzling lights blinded me, lacerating my eyes forming scales
flinging me to the ground
though in the passing of 3 days I regained my sight.
I was the victim of conspiracy, assassination by the Jews
yet escaped death nestled in a basket
through a hole in the wall suspended by a rope
tightly tied, I hurried to Jerusalem
my flesh torn back whipped 39 times 5 times
each time enduring just enough to live
save one blow
save one stone that would have killed me
when my adversaries left me for dead
and I stared at the stars
wondering when I would breathe my last...

And you fear the heat much more
than I fear my demise
and you disregard life much more
than I fear the consternation in your eyes
the pain in my wrist
and the sullen expressions on the company I keep

When the sun rises tomorrow
I will do as the angel told me
(as he chuckled at my past calamities)
I will preach to Caesar
and write to Timothy and share the kinship with my men
and bathe my feet in the tide of the ocean
but tonight you will go from whence you cannot return
into the fire
into hell where you have sent so many before you
weeping
and gnashing your (blood stained) teeth




[Acts 28: 1-6]
Once safely on shore, we found out that the island was called Malta. The islanders showed us unusual kindness. They built a fire and welcomed us all because it was raining and cold. Paul gathered a pile of brushwood and, as he put it on the fire, a viper, driven out by the heat, fastened itself on his hand. When the islanders saw the snake hanging from his hand, they said to each other, "This man must be a murderer; for though he escaped from the sea, Justice has not allowed him to live." But Paul shook the snake off into the fire and suffered no ill effects. The people expected him to swell up or suddenly fall dead, but after waiting a long time and seeing nothing unusual happen to him, they changed their minds and said he was a god.

Till My Dreams Come True

* dedicated to my future wife (who is she?)

The sun stopped in midheaven,
and did not hurry to set for about a whole day.
------------------------------------[Dreams Come True: The thoughts of Joshua, battling the Amorites]


No one likes to relinquish dreams
to the endless spectrum of possibilities
of thoughts
of daydreaming and nightmares
waking in cold sweats and gazing aimlessly while battles rage on
how the universe
is comprised of a vast array of stars; a bastion of great lights
above
and ether
below
trying to comprehend the greatness of the heavenly expanse
when (at certain times) you can hold your arms to the sky
seemingly able to clasp clouds in your palms
those moments crystallize as longings in your heart
rapidly beating on the cusp of obtaining your desire
of inhabiting lands promised to you
after 40 long years of triumph and defeat
after lifting your staff and crossing the Jordan river through the center
on dry land soldiers marched
and priests carried the Ark
never stopping…perpetually hopeful
of rest

And you wont let opportunity pass you by
or the Amorites disappear into darkness
on the eve of obtaining everything you ever wanted
so you grab the sun (in Gibeon)
so you squeeze the moon (in the valley of Aijalon)
"STOP" you tell them..."DON'T MOVE"
Please stay,
until all my dreams come true



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On the day when the LORD gave the Amorites over to the Israelites,
Joshua spoke to the LORD;
and he said in the sight of Israel,
"Sun, stand still at Gibeon, and Moon, in the valley of Aijalon."
And the sun stood still,
and the moon stopped,
until the nation took vengeance on their enemies.

Is this not written in the Book of Jashar?
The sun stopped in midheaven,
and did not hurry to set for about a whole day.
There has been no day like it before or since,
when the LORD heeded a human voice;
for the LORD fought for Israel. [Joshua 10:12-14]

In Need of a Prophet

"As the LORD your God lives, I have nothing baked, only a handful of meal in a jar, and a little oil in a cruse; and now, I am gathering a couple of sticks, that I may go in and prepare it for myself and my son, that we may eat it, and die."
-------------[In need of a prophet]


a little oil in a cruse
a handful of meal in a jar, few sticks
a dinner with death (hes an angel)
baked bread to satisfy until I reach the other side
holding hands with my son

I live in a land forsaken
the clouds have dried up
under the simmering heat there is no wind
the more we fan our faces
the more we suffocate
and branches fall off trees while we pray:
save us from ourselves, from the tyranny of our cognizance
ranting “there is no hope in Zar’ephath”
nightmares are as sweet dreams because we cant sleep
the lions don’t foment fear anymore
it is the fear of the unknown
that most plagues me
and all the opportunities I missed to live my life
to its fullest

My trembling hands gather their last heap
these frail knees make their last journey
to the city and back to the house
and back to the house to breathe my last breath
to let the last tears stream down my cheeks remembering my husband
to dance outside with my boy
pretending its storming
and the rain is soaking our hair







1 Kings 17: 7 - 16
And after a while the brook dried up, because there was no rain in the land. Then the word of the LORD came to him, "Arise, go to Zar'ephath, which belongs to Sidon, and dwell there. Behold, I have commanded a widow there to feed you." So he arose and went to Zar'ephath; and when he came to the gate of the city, behold, a widow was there gathering sticks; and he called to her and said, "Bring me a little water in a vessel, that I may drink." And as she was going to bring it, he called to her and said, "Bring me a morsel of bread in your hand." And she said, "As the LORD your God lives, I have nothing baked, only a handful of meal in a jar, and a little oil in a cruse; and now, I am gathering a couple of sticks, that I may go in and prepare it for myself and my son, that we may eat it, and die." And Eli'jah said to her, "Fear not; go and do as you have said; but first make me a little cake of it and bring it to me, and afterward make for yourself and your son. For thus says the LORD the God of Israel, `The jar of meal shall not be spent, and the cruse of oil shall not fail, until the day that the LORD sends rain upon the earth.'" And she went and did as Eli'jah said; and she, and he, and her household ate for many days. The jar of meal was not spent, neither did the cruse of oil fail, according to the word of the LORD which he spoke by Eli'jah.

Blind Bartimaeus

* Jesus, I want to see things as they really are. You feel me? Help me to write this poem, for yo' Glory, man. Lets do it Home Skillet!Woooooooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrddddd!!!!

Then they came to Jericho And as He was leaving Jericho with His disciples and a large crowd, a blind beggar named Bartimaeus, the son of Timaeus, was sitting by the road. ----------------[The thoughts of blind Bartimaeus, sitting near the road]





I have lost my way stumbling
Ive wandered
and the night has fallen, beckoning the moon
like a mother she has her arms wrapped about me
tightly
never releasing
always nursing
Ive fallen asleep in her bosom of deep remorse (fear of the unknown)
like utter darkness, vainly attempting
to grasp a window shutter or door to my house
for this black is indifferent to them
impervious to my surroundings
if the sun is my father, he has absconded
before him I was awake, wide eyes
now life is a dream from which it seems
there is no return

Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!
Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!
Rabboni, I want to regain my sight!

When I was a child there was a distinction between
night and day
dark and light
evil and good
death and life
atrophy and ambition
prejudice and pride
Throwing aside my cloak, I want to regain my innocence
my sense of self and sanity amid my clamoring detractors
with clarity I hear them, but this time
I see no reason to give up


[I take courage, and stand up! Because He is calling for me]







[Mark 10:46-52]
Then they came to Jericho And as He was leaving Jericho with His disciples and a large crowd, a blind beggar named Bartimaeus, the son of Timaeus, was sitting by the road. When he heard that it was Jesus the Nazarene, he began to cry out and say, "Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!" Many were sternly telling him to be quiet, but he kept crying out all the more, "Son of David, have mercy on me!" And Jesus stopped and said, "Call him here." So they called the blind man, saying to him, "Take courage, stand up! He is calling for you." Throwing aside his cloak, he jumped up and came to Jesus. And answering him, Jesus said, "What do you want Me to do for you?" And the blind man said to Him, "Rabboni, I want to regain my sight!" And Jesus said to him, "Go; your faith has made you well." Immediately he regained his sight and began following Him on the road.

This song helped me to get over Jennifer!

www.myspace.com/alesana

www.alesanarock.com

The name of the song is "Seduction"
The album is called Where Myth Fades to Legend

Chicka chick check it out yo!

I WISH I was the soldier who stabbed Jesus.

* dedicated to A Skylit Drive – "Wires and the Concept of Breathing" [Wires and the Concept of Breathing album] www.myspace.com/askylitdrive

"For the life of the flesh is in the blood, and I have given it to you on the altar to make atonement for your souls; for it is the blood by reason of the life that makes atonement." (Leviticus 17:11)

In fact, the law requires that nearly everything be cleansed with blood, and without the shedding of blood there is no forgiveness. (Hebrews 9:22)--------------------[Jesus Your Blood is Life, So I Want To Drink It/ Give Me A Spear]




A sharp (steel) tip affixed to a wooden stick
thrust steadily, forcibly
elicits a horrid cry and pitiable glance
from its Victim, my life
my yearning
my drink
ecstatically watching as the blood trickles
down your body
pouring out slowly, then evenly
thick then thinly...diluted by water
I open wide
I wait

Roman water is bitter death
its taste is sand
afterwards I still thirst
my mouth stays ajar with a cracking tongue inside
my cup, empty
Your blood is forgiveness
it fills, it soaks, it satiates it never runs
dry
I want it, I need it I lust for it
let it soil my tunic
and stain my sandals
...rust my helmet
I don't care

Your life is in the Blood
when it falls off your body I will drink
I will swallow
I will imbibe
...and savor
I cant go on without You
I will scream out your name, I will devour you
from the wood of your Cross
licking every last drop




Instead, one of the soldiers pierced Jesus' side with a spear, bringing a sudden flow of blood and water. [John 19:34]

Then he took the cup, gave thanks and offered it to them, saying, "Drink from it, all of you. This is my blood of the covenant, which is poured out for many for the forgiveness of sins. (Matthew 26:27-28)

But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin...(1 John 1:7a)



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A Skylit Drive – "Wires and the Concept of Breathing" lyrics
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Won't you scream my name?
For the first time (For the first time)
For the last time (For the last time)

As I lay down my life before you
The hiding place where I sought out your eyes
Screaming outwards to shoot me back in time
You sent me out in the right field
Spilled my words and disguise
We're starting a rise
Now it's so true I can't go on without you by my side
Every night we die

Hold my breath just to see your ghost
I hold it in my hand for you

Won't you scream my name?
For the first time (For the first time)
For the last time (For the last time)

And I regret the moments I gave you
Searching for my plans to devour you
I finally found out the truth
You sent me out in the right field
Spilled my words and disguise
We're starting a rise
Now it's so true I can't go on without you by my side
Every night we die

Let go of the wires!
Let go of the wires!

I am Dry Bones without my Man Jesus, dawg!

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[Ezekiel 37:1-6]The hand of the LORD was upon me, and he brought me out by the Spirit of the LORD and set me in the middle of a valley; it was full of bones. He led me back and forth among them, and I saw a great many bones on the floor of the valley, bones that were very dry. He asked me, "Son of man, can these bones live?"
I said, "O Sovereign LORD, you alone know."--------------------}(God my heart was a dry bone, Your love is tendon and skin over me)




Before I knew You life was a tempestuous storm
raging waters barreled over me
suffocated me; drowned me
then the wind blew over and time passed
and years, they quickly fled from me
leaving behind
scattered dreams, dispersed yearning, soggy hope
muddy and soiled
I lay abandoned over a dilapidated landscape hardening and barren
now trodden over by wild beasts, vagrant
scowling at the dawn, lunging at the moon
trees with branches bare, the withered leaves have fallen to ground
some on my chest
together we look up at the sky, scorching sun
together we decay, sinking in the ground
and life is like my valley without you Jesus, my God
very dry and full of bones
the angels in heaven ask, "how can these bones live?"
no one has ever seen someone resurrected from deep despair
but from above God is near to the broken hearted
and His life is like a breath
and His presence is like a touch, caressing
like green grass and foliage sprouting from cracked earth,
shriveled bush limbs nurtured by Spring
His Word spoken feels like security; like tendons attaching
and flesh covering me in places it once left
there was death, but now life
a valley but now a brook.
Before You came
I was in a lifeless heap full of resentment, now
I stand fully erect, lungs filled with fresh air



Then he said to me, "Prophesy to these bones and say to them, 'Dry bones, hear the word of the LORD! This is what the Sovereign LORD says to these bones: I will make breath enter you, and you will come to life. I will attach tendons to you and make flesh come upon you and cover you with skin; I will put breath in you, and you will come to life. Then you will know that I am the LORD.' "

V10 So I prophesied as he commanded me, and breath entered them; they came to life and stood up on their feet—a vast army.