The Autobiography Of Lazarus Raised

* Jesus pray for me
* Saints pray for me
* Lazarus pray for me
* Dedicated to #IamLazarus
Dedicated to Silverstein, Smile In Your Sleep
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mgtaRbx4pPQ


+------------The Autobiography Of Lazarus Raised

Back on the other side, the
living speculate on death as a
variant of liberation from angst,
a forced separation from travails,
a soul enveloped in white noise
and ushered by angels towards
the brightest of lights. But in truth
death is cognitive before it’s corporeal.
For me it was sudden, holistic
knowing that of Mary and Martha
I was truly cherished, my absence
a dark cloud, an overcast sky to them,
like a bolt of lightning severing
the trees of their hearts in half.
When they cried, I kept hearing
recurring echoes of the thunder, rains
tapping against my window as a
young boy that chased me to their
beds for comfort. I remember seizing
my angel's hand…whispering
“stop. We must go back.” Then suddenly
the murmuring of a crowd. A baritone
voice beckoning “Lazarus, come out!!!”
I pull the burial cloth from my face-The
sky is clear, the sun effulgent… my
sickness, death like a bad dream.



-----------------John 11:5-16
Now Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. So when he heard that Lazarus was sick, he stayed where he was two more days, and then he said to his disciples, “Let us go back to Judea.” “But Rabbi,” they said, “a short while ago the Jews there tried to stone you, and yet you are going back?” Jesus answered, “Are there not twelve hours of daylight? Anyone who walks in the daytime will not stumble, for they see by this world’s light. It is when a person walks at night that they stumble, for they have no light.” After he had said this, he went on to tell them, “Our friend Lazarus has fallen asleep; but I am going there to wake him up.” His disciples replied, “Lord, if he sleeps, he will get better.” Jesus had been speaking of his death, but his disciples thought he meant natural sleep. So then he told them plainly, “Lazarus is dead, and for your sake I am glad I was not there, so that you may believe. But let us go to him.” Then Thomas (also known as Didymus) said to the rest of the disciples, “Let us also go, that we may die with him.”

-----Smile In Your Sleep Lyrics
When I'm lying in your bed
Play the motions through my head
You know that I'm thinking, I'm thinking...
And I have reasons to believe that
I'm not the only one you spend this time with, but I'll stay...

You say, you're weak,
You won't let me down,
You won't let me down.
You lie through your teeth,
You smile in your sleep,
You smile in your sleep.

When we met
You said we were the same,
You know that we're different, we're different,
And all the times you promised me that
Everything would work out in the end, you were gravely mistaken

You say, you're weak,
You won't let me down,
You won't let me down.
You lie through your teeth,
You smile in your sleep,
You smile in your sleep.

You lie, you lie, you lie, you lie
You lie through your teeth
You won't let me down,
You lie, I deserve better than this

I dream of steel. Maroon and warm,
Your end (your end), your end (your end)
You gasp for air.
I'll see this through, I'll see through you,
Your pale (your pale), your pale (your pale),
Your pale blue eyes.

When you're lying in your bed,
Your eulogy's been read
You know that it's fitting, you lie.

You say, you're weak,
You won't let me down,
You won't let me down.
You lie through your teeth,
You smile in your sleep,
You smile in your sleep.

You smile, you smile, you smile, you smile
I deserve better than this