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--------------------------/He Was…; Eve’s Thoughts as She
Discovered and Held Abel (Bathed In Blood)
His face pallid illumined beneath the blood moon crimson in solidarity
the winds now cruel, now arming themselves with swords of chilled
lament
shoving trees (leaves rustling violently), flinging beasts screeching marching
between mountains howling dolorously
lakes once placid form high tides hell bent on destruction…anger
(rotting fish on dry land putrid, malodorous)
at life stolen, potential pilfered, a smiling boy taken too soon
in the morning the habitually
bombastic sun refuses to shout
in jubilee, refuses to rise – silent darkness a melancholy meditation
on death
on a life stolen
my son, representative atonement for Adam’s and my tragic mistake
….we were to teach him the righteousness we forfeited
God’s forgiveness manifested, lifeless
and now all guilt and foreboding of that day of indictment resurfaces,
resurrects: God accusing and condemning,
expelling his chosen ones from
his favor
Adam blaming me, my continual tears
when death ushers in life, this is the paradox of the cursed
internalizing fault
was it my sour breasts that failed, my afflicted damned womb
that infected
when pregnant did I grind my teeth too much in angst
when macabre
dreams haunted;
chased by angels with flaming swords, struck then burning in hell?
did I pass on the sense of hideousness and repugnance I embodied
that drove his brother to slay him?
was this menstrual madness or the sinister slithering effects of a
sacrilegious snake seizing the innocent seducing them to suffer
with thoughts of immortality in the face of sin and harrowing
disobedience
Satan, I will never forgive you for this
never ever forgive you
may God redeem this son you have taken from me
may the next one born crush your head
….and extinguish you from all memories
(sobbing)
(He was a fresh new start, an envoy of my desire to make things right)
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And Adam knew Eve his wife; and she conceived, and bare Cain, and said,
I have gotten a man from the Lord. And she again bare his brother Abel. And
Abel was a keeper of sheep, but Cain was a tiller of the ground. And in process
of time it came to pass, that Cain brought of the fruit of the ground an
offering unto the Lord. And Abel, he also brought of the firstlings of his
flock and of the fat thereof. And the Lord had respect unto Abel and to his
offering: But unto Cain and to his offering he had not respect. And Cain was
very wroth, and his countenance fell. And the Lord said unto Cain, Why art thou
wroth? and why is thy countenance fallen? If thou doest well, shalt thou not be
accepted? and if thou doest not well, sin lieth at the door. And unto thee
shall be his desire, and thou shalt rule over him. And Cain talked with Abel
his brother: and it came to pass, when they were in the field, that Cain rose
up against Abel his brother, and slew him. And the Lord said unto Cain, Where
is Abel thy brother? And he said, I know not: Am I my brother's keeper? And he
said, What hast thou done? the voice of thy brother's blood crieth unto me from
the ground. And now art thou cursed from the earth, which hath opened her mouth
to receive thy brother's blood from thy hand; (Genesis 4:1-11)
--------- Suicide Season lyrics
We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.
The days turn into nights, empty hearts and empty places.
The day you lost him, I slowly lost you too.
For when he died, he took a part of you.
No time for farewells, no chances for goodbyes.
No explanations, No f****ing reasons why.
I watched it eat you up, pieces fallen on the floor.
We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.
If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way.
I would climb my way to heaven, and bring him back home again.
Don't give up hope my friend, this is not the end.
We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.
The days turn into nights, empty hearts and empty places.
The day you lost him, I slowly lost you too.
For when he died, he took a part of you.
Death is only a chapter, so lets rip out the pages of yesterday.
Death is only a horizon. And I am ready for my sun to set.
If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way.
We would climb our way to heaven, and bring him home again. [X3]
We would do anything to bring him back to you.
We would do anything to end what your going through.
If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way.
I would climb my way to heaven, and bring him back home again.
I would do anything to bring him back to you.
Because if you got him back, I would get back the friend that I once knew.
We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.
The days turn into nights, empty hearts and empty places.
The day you lost him, I slowly lost you too.
For when he died, he took a part of you.
No time for farewells, no chances for goodbyes.
No explanations, No f****ing reasons why.
I watched it eat you up, pieces fallen on the floor.
We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.
If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way.
I would climb my way to heaven, and bring him back home again.
Don't give up hope my friend, this is not the end.
We stare at broken clocks, the hands don't turn anymore.
The days turn into nights, empty hearts and empty places.
The day you lost him, I slowly lost you too.
For when he died, he took a part of you.
Death is only a chapter, so lets rip out the pages of yesterday.
Death is only a horizon. And I am ready for my sun to set.
If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way.
We would climb our way to heaven, and bring him home again. [X3]
We would do anything to bring him back to you.
We would do anything to end what your going through.
If only sorrow could build a staircase, or tears could show the way.
I would climb my way to heaven, and bring him back home again.
I would do anything to bring him back to you.
Because if you got him back, I would get back the friend that I once knew.
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