Didymus Latte

*dedicated to the Starbucks girl with the black hat and ponytail in Montgomery County (Nelson –haaa haaaaa, I wont tell you where!!!) whose eyes meet with mine often, and mine very intentional, yet I never have the moxy to say anything to her or approach her. Part of the problem is that she is always on duty and I figure it may break with decorum to send any overtures her way, and the other part of the problem is that I can only drool while muttering inchoate sentences about iced green tea (sweetened) when I get any semblance of a chance to woo her. *sigggghhh*

---------/Didymus Latte


The cool breeze flirts with my shirt sleeves
high noon, wrapped in the secure shade of an umbrella table
watching couples walk by
pensive
wishing it was you and me
but you don’t work the afternoon shift
when I dwell upon thoughts of you
it is night, it is twilight
and Im pacing nervously towards the Starbucks
before I read
and the doors of my heart are locked for fear
of your rejection
I close my eyes – you are standing next to me
Im about to order a tall hot chocolate
I wish I had the gall to order a tall hot kiss
“can I help you?” I come to (in my dream)
your words like therapy, like panacea
to my shivering soul, wishing to be loved
heart palpitations
I wish I could just stop doubting myself
and stop repudiating the notion that you could want me
as equally as I want you
I want you to grab my hand, guiding me
as my fingers graze against yours, softly, gently
emotively
as I reach out and touch your side
the spear wounds of my shyness, the nails
of being a cowardly man
then I would have seen you and believed
but blessed would I be if I could believe without seeing
these visions
and not ascribe to the tenuous, specious
reasoning that since I have taken so long
the romance between us has been crucified
by chance to the cross of missed opportunities
and that you are dead to me
somberly never to be resurrected,
never to appear in the upper room of my love
(for you)

AAAAAHHHHHH! ANYONE ANYONE! IF YOU SEE THE PONY TAILED GIRL AT STARBUCK WITH THE *….EHHHH, NEVERMIND THAT DESCRIPTOR, BUT YEAH IF YOU SEE HER, TELL HER I NEED HER NOW! (LIKE LADY ANTEBELLUM!)




--------------------John 20:19-30
On the evening of that first day of the week, when the disciples were together, with the doors locked for fear of the Jewish leaders, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!” After he said this, he showed them his hands and side. The disciples were overjoyed when they saw the Lord. Again Jesus said, "Peace be with you! As the Father has sent me, I am sending you.” And with that he breathed on them and said, "Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive anyone’s sins, their sins are forgiven; if you do not forgive them, they are not forgiven." Now Thomas (also known as Didymus), one of the Twelve, was not with the disciples when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, "We have seen the Lord!" But he said to them, "Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe." A week later his disciples were in the house again, and Thomas was with them. Though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, "Peace be with you!" Then he said to Thomas, "Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe." Thomas said to him, "My Lord and my God!" Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed; blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed." Jesus performed many other signs in the presence of his disciples, which are not recorded in this book. But these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name.