A Sorcerer's Remorse

-------------/Acts Chronicles Chapter 8: A Sorcerer's Remorse - The Thoughts of Simon Upon Seeing Philip

What do you do when you've run out of magic?
when life ceases to amaze you
or bedazzle
and all the things that used to inspire you
become tepid
are no longer enchanting....
or when you find yourself pitiable
feeling sorry for people who believe the lies you've constructed
so gullibly
or at least half truths
when you know the power they've attributed to you
is overblown, that it has no power to compel anyone to
true greatness or inner resolve
or lasting virtue
when the people you’ve served walk past you in the streets
and their faces are still as expressionless as before
like the walking dead
and their children still lame
backs still hunched, eyes still unopened
unable to see. though the few seconds of vision
through the anemic spell you granted them
gives them a temporary false positive, renewed only upon
the condition of more money pilfered from the allowance due their landlords
ear still unable to hear
yet you have a sizeable allocation of wealth
that feeds your lust and greed preying on the weak and feeble
with absolutely no stain of remorse
....which prompts all of this soul searching
there must be a better way
some worldview, divers philosophies
that provide some solace in this world of grief and deception
because you just don't have access to the materials
no ingredients for hope
no additives for comfort
that could enable you to cast that type of spell....




-----------Acts 8:9-13
But there was a certain man called Simon, who previously practiced sorcery in the city and astonished the people of Samaria, claiming that he was someone great, to whom they all gave heed, from the least to the greatest, saying, "This man is the great power of God." And they heeded him because he had astonished them with his sorceries for a long time. But when they believed Philip as he preached the things concerning the kingdom of God and the name of Jesus Christ, both men and women were baptized. Then Simon himself also believed; and when he was baptized he continued with Philip, and was amazed, seeing the miracles and signs which were done.