Don't Wake

*dedicated to CS and SS

[Genesis 27:41] So Esau hated Jacob because of the blessing with which his father blessed him, and Esau said in his heart, "The days of mourning for my father are at hand; then I will kill my brother Jacob."


-------------/The Gate of Heaven – Don't Wake Up; The Thoughts of Jacob After His Dream/


You chase after love
you think youre doing the right thing
so young, so full of ambition
so full of energy, and even ruses
never tired – the world is for the taking
and you want to make a difference, an indelible mark
even if your brother stands in your way
impeding paths to greatness by way of birthright
seduced by impetuosities, lack of self control
shackled by the flesh, and proclivities for red stew
but your heart knows no bounds tracing destiny
even skullduggery

But
when that life is imperiled
you have no choice but to flee or risk death
or insanity
and you pray you don't lose yourself in the process
and forget your triumphs and plans for the future
(generations)
but under the weight of stress you’re tiring,
you cant press any further
you just want to place your head against a stone
and pretend the sunrise will chase
the shadows of your nightmares away
the bloody wounds would scab

You wish there was a ladder set up on the earth
of some sort
the kind where the angels of God ascend and descend
the kind where you climb up
and God informs
'I am with you and will keep you wherever you go'
'your descendants shall be as the dust of the earth'
confirming your longings
to open and enter through the gate of heaven
not just Laban's
and your body keeps telling you there's no time to waste
toss and turn, and wake up –
but you don't want to


(not until you rename the city from Luz to Bethel)


------------------Genesis 28:10-22
Now Jacob went out from Beersheba and went toward Haran. So he came to a certain place and stayed there all night, because the sun had set. And he took one of the stones of that place and put it at his head, and he lay down in that place to sleep. Then he dreamed, and behold, a ladder was set up on the earth, and its top reached to heaven; and there the angels of God were ascending and descending on it. And behold, the LORD stood above it and said: "I am the LORD God of Abraham your father and the God of Isaac; the land on which you lie I will give to you and your descendants. Also your descendants shall be as the dust of the earth; you shall spread abroad to the west and the east, to the north and the south; and in you and in your seed all the families of the earth shall be blessed. Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have spoken to you." Then Jacob awoke from his sleep and said, "Surely the LORD is in this place, and I did not know it." And he was afraid and said, "How awesome is this place! This is none other than the house of God, and this is the gate of heaven!" Then Jacob rose early in the morning, and took the stone that he had put at his head, set it up as a pillar, and poured oil on top of it. And he called the name of that place Bethel; but the name of that city had been Luz previously. Then Jacob made a vow, saying, “If God will be with me, and keep me in this way that I am going, and give me bread to eat and clothing to put on, so that I come back to my father's house in peace, then the LORD shall be my God. And this stone which I have set as a pillar shall be God’s house, and of all that You give me I will surely give a tenth to You.”