Spellbinding Love, Unparalleled

Saint Maximillian Kolbe: "The union brought about by married love is the most intimate of all. In a much more precise, more interior, more essential manner, the Holy Spirit lives in the soul of the Immaculata [Mary], in the very depths of her being"

*dedicated to Paramore "Miracle"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Om6nNA_46EU


------------------------[ Spellbound :The Holy Spirit’s Serenade to Mary Before Her Fiat]


If the moon had eyelids
it would keep them shut in your presence
just to hear the drumming of your heart
just to hear you inhale, and exhale
so beautifully
then it would shiver, covering itself with luminescence
gazing as you lay innocently at rest
in its reverie of your comeliness
as the winter winds blow on Galilee
ushering in my Love as it settles in Nazareth
(dancing betwixt falling snow)
intent on being with you

And I want to wash away your sin
so you can stand before me immaculate
pristine in your soul, pure in your devotion
fervent in your loyalty
magnanimous and glorious
tender and perpetually blessed by my protection
kissed and hugged
as I entrust to you my dreams of redemption
salvation of a lost world
that aggrieves me. You are the portal for my future
contentment, the Ark containing my ideals
the womb containing the Words of Truth that I wish
all to hear
You are all that I cherish and esteem and hold dear
Heaven’s Queen
Forever Blessed by all generations henceforth

If the angels could trade their immortality
they would gladly die just to hold your hands
grazing your fingertips across their faces
sitting beside you staring at the stars
yearning for a perfect creation




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The angel answered, "The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you. – Luke 1:35

Here is the slave of the Lord. May it happen to me as you have said. -Luke 1:38


----------------Paramore, Miracle lyrics ----

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I
When this memory fades
I'm gonna make sure it's replaced
With chances taken
Hope embraced
and have I told you?

I'm not going
cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
When it might save you

We've learned to run from
Anything uncomfortable
We've tied our pain below and no one ever has to know
That inside we're broken
I try to patch things up again
To calm my tears and kill these fears
But have I told you, have I?

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
When it might save you

It's not faith if, if you use your eyes
Oh why
We'll get it right this time (this time)
Let's leave this all behind
Oh why
We'll get it right this time
It's not faith if you're using your eyes
Oh why

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and

I don't want to run from anything uncomfortable
I just want, no
I just need this pain to end right here

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

Yeah, it might save you
Oh, it might save you

It's not faith if, if you use your eyes
If you use your eyes
If you use your eyes

The Blood-Soaked Moon

--------[Obstinacy: The Thoughts of Jesus As His Mother and Brothers Sought Him Out]-------------------



Is it possible
that normal is crazy, and crazy normal?
that sickness, disease, death, poverty
are aberrations, distortions of reality
cloaked in our consciousness
entrenched in our innermost conceptions
of fate, destiny and the end of existence ever nearing?
What if our eyes are closed
oblivious to light
eyelids fastened, our spiritual bodies at rest?
comatose minds
dormant hearts dreaming of the dawn of a new age?
and we wipe the tears from our eyes in our sleep
(joy from warm thoughts) on winter nights
shivering from the chilled winds of
memories of a distant self
alter egos of yesteryear
so that my Words are nonsensical and elicit scorn and derision
monstrosities causing concern and dismay
yet all the while beguiling
and irresistible
because when my touch purifies a leper's skin
and the sound of my voice resurrects the dead
.....something inside of you awakens
like a soul reclaimed from bitterness and despair
you begin praying for the blood soaked moon
because you know you will never fall asleep again




(basking in the sunlight of Truth forevermore)


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Luke 8:19-20
Now Jesus' mother and brothers came to see him, but they were not able to get near him because of the crowd. Someone told him, "Your mother and brothers are standing outside, wanting to see you."

A Huge Stone of Unbelief

-------[A Huge Stone of Unbelief/The Angel's Words to Mary Magdalene Upon Arriving at The Empty Tomb/]



I saw you last night at the Pool of Bethesda
stepping over sleeping invalids
quietly lifting arms, and legs from the ledge
so you could dip your hands and wash the blood stained
memories of carrying His lifeless battered body
to the tomb a day before
and your grief is a hallucinogen because you screamed
(much to the chagrin of those resting, who murmured and groused)
but the clear water didn't transmute into thick blood
neither did the white moon into crimson, with leaden skies
nor were there captious Roman soldiers standing over your bed
the past two nights, waiting for you to rise
(you were dreaming)

your mind is troubled from all you've seen
but you look for Jesus in the wrong place –
a graveyard is fit only for those content with perpetual mourning
with burying unfulfilled longings
and letting go of completion
your people are still enslaved by Romans,
the poor by lack of a living wage
the lion and the lamb are still enemies, and the nations
have not beaten their swords into plowshares
the world is still laden with the yoke of Satan
...prisoners still groan to be set free
shackles loosened, melancholy and frowns reversed
evil has yet to be bound and the righteous vindicated.
Your witness to the crucifixion does not give
your lack of faith tacit approval
though you saw His cruel death, you are still to believe
and embrace expectation in your heart
and repudiate your nightmares....
you don't need me to roll away big stones (of doubt)
because in Heaven, with the Father
there is more work to be done
hope never dies
for the One to bring all things to fulfillment



-------John 20:10-16--------------
Early on the first day of the week, while it was still dark, Mary Magdalene went to the tomb and saw that the stone had been removed from the entrance. So she came running to Simon Peter and the other disciple, the one Jesus loved, and said, "They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we don't know where they have put him!" So Peter and the other disciple started for the tomb. Both were running, but the other disciple outran Peter and reached the tomb first. He bent over and looked in at the strips of linen lying there but did not go in. Then Simon Peter, who was behind him, arrived and went into the tomb. He saw the strips of linen lying there, as well as the burial cloth that had been around Jesus' head. The cloth was folded up by itself, separate from the linen. Finally the other disciple, who had reached the tomb first, also went inside. He saw and believed. (They still did not understand from Scripture that Jesus had to rise from the dead.)Then the disciples went back to their homes, but Mary stood outside the tomb crying. As she wept, she bent over to look into the tomb and saw two angels in white, seated where Jesus' body had been, one at the head and the other at the foot. They asked her, "Woman, why are you crying?" "They have taken my Lord away," she said, "and I don't know where they have put him." At this, she turned around and saw Jesus standing there, but she did not realize that it was Jesus. "Woman," he said, "why are you crying? Who is it you are looking for?" Thinking he was the gardener, she said, "Sir, if you have carried him away, tell me where you have put him, and I will get him." Jesus said to her, "Mary."

---------------Matthew 28:1-7
After the Sabbath, at dawn on the first day of the week, Mary Magdalene and the other Mary went to look at the tomb. There was a violent earthquake, for an angel of the Lord came down from heaven and, going to the tomb, rolled back the stone and sat on it. His appearance was like lightning, and his clothes were white as snow. The guards were so afraid of him that they shook and became like dead men. The angel said to the women, "Do not be afraid, for I know that you are looking for Jesus, who was crucified. He is not here; he has risen, just as he said. Come and see the place where he lay. Then go quickly and tell his disciples: 'He has risen from the dead and is going ahead of you into Galilee. There you will see him.' Now I have told you."

The Setting

[The setting - A small dimly lit basement with off-white carpet. Centered in the room is a defunct fireplace encased with brick walls on 3 sides and raised on a 2 foot brick ledge beneath. (The remaining wall in the room is covered by wood paneling) 3 small disparate couches are arranged around the fireplace – one perpendicular, one adjacent and one opposite - various paraphernalia, such as clothes, books and notebooks are adorned on each in various fashion. A metal bar with clothes on hangers affixed lies across two window sills to the right of the fireplace. On the far left side of the room against the wall, is a full size air mattress, two cardboard boxes filled with shoes, and two plastic clothes bins line its left and bottom borders. An old wooden dresser with dark brown finish sits on the far wall opposite the fireplace and behind one of the couches. Clothes bins and magazines embellish the dresser. Stairs leading from the basement to the kitchen and laundry room are next to the dresser. Tony is seated on the couch opposite the fireplace around 12:39am thinking of a new topic to write about for his blog…thejesusmetaphor.blogspot.com when suddenly an angel appears in dazzling white apparel. Tony falls prostrate on the ground]

Angel: Rise, do not be afraid

[Tony arises] Tony: who, who are you?

Angel: I am Raphael, sent from Jesus Christ the Messiah who has come in the flesh.

Tony: .......

Raphael: I wanted to send salutations from God the Father, and Jesus Christ His only son. Your next two blog entries on the sufferings of Jesus in death are most appreciated. Jesus is most glorified and most honored amongst those who believe in His death and resurrection!

Tony: Word?

Raphael: ........

Tony: Yo doo, before you bounce up out this joint or whatever, whatever tell me something…

Raphael: yes?

Tony: son! I really want to get married homeboy. When will I get married, and who is my wife! I have been praying for days about this woman!

Raphael: I could tell you, but then I would have to kill you

Tony: .......? Huh

Raphael [laughing out loud]: good one eh? Look, don’t focus on that. All in God’s timing right? Read Matthew regarding seeking God’s Kingdom firstly. You will find her when you have the courage to ask who she is. Write those two blog entries. To God be the Glory. [Raphael disappears]

Tony: wa….waaa.wwaaait! Is she Kim Kardashian? Hey Raph, come back, come back! Is she Ashanti, Jennifer Connelly? Come baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaackkkk!!!!!!!

Projection of A Divine Memory - featuring Raphael

He was taken from prison and from judgment: and who shall declare his generation? for he was cut off out of the land of the living....Isaiah 53:8a
And he made his grave with the wicked, and with the rich in his death....Isaiah 53:9a

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cVuhf9_WgW4
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e9dLsyUSzxs
(Click those links! Imagine Jesus listening to this song right before the angel of death slays Him!)

--------------------------------////Projection of A Divine Memory: The Thoughts of Jesus Hanging on The Cross As He Sees the Angel of Death Raise His Sword///----------------


I don’t believe in ghosts
I believe life projects from your dead flesh
as a visible memory

[Raphael dancing around: I like that…take that, take that]

and all your deeds, all your fears, and envies
become one voice enunciated at one pitch: shrills
and to those left living they sound like the fierce winds on winter nights
howling as the moon and the clouds stare stoically from above

[Raphael: I like this]

when the dead cry everyone feels rain, and if the righteous perish
then Hades rages- hurricanes, and earthquakes evince
creation’s disdain.
I saw Moses and Elijah on the mount
they told me the worst part is crossing over to the other side
and my disciples thought I was a ghost as I walked past them on the water

[Raphael: So Tony, what are you saying? Get to the point, son!]

I was beaten, I was mocked
thistles tied together and driven through my scalp
deserted and left alone
nails in my hands and feet.....throbbing hurt
carrying my own cross, carrying my own shame
relatives, people I went to school with, all see me naked now
hoisted in the air in ignominy
and my heart is throttled everytime I raise my chest to breathe
cruelly wringing the vitality from my soul
Yet I don't pray for help anymore, only for those I leave behind
because they still feel the pain of a fallen world
the subconscious hatred of men destined for a lake of fire
in their dreams they gnash their teeth, and grimace
and women cry because true love was lost in paradise
Adam isn't the same anymore, neither was Cain
from the ground they have ploughed and wrought despair
for all generations
Im afraid to leave this place, but I know I must go
otherwise the winds will keep growing stronger
and peace will be omitted from lexicons henceforth
all we know is war and dying and killing and thieving
forgive them Father
forgive them for all the wrongs they have committed
bless them Father
bless them because they will come to believe in my Name
and remember me
(and bless Me, in my frailty and fears)
It is into Your Hands that I commit my Spirit


......I can see death raising his sword now....


[Raphael: Uhnnnn, uhhhnnn, take that take that!]
(featuring The Angel Raphael as P-Diddy)





[So the soldiers took charge of Jesus. Carrying his own cross, he went out to the place of the Skull (which in Aramaic is called Golgotha). Here they crucified him, and with him two others—one on each side and Jesus in the middle. John 19:16b-18]
[Now is my soul troubled; and what shall I say? Father, save me from this hour: but for this cause came I unto this hour. John 12:27]


-----Escape the Fate "My Apocalypse" Lyrics ---

There's a place that I've found
As far as I can see
This place lies within
The depths of my dreams
In a garden surrounded
By fire and trees
Through the smoke a silhouette I can barely see
There’s a man with an axe
Standing in the rain

Looked me straight in the eyes
This is what he had to say

Never fall asleep
You won't wake up
Destroy the guillotine
Before he does

I walk with shadows
(you have to find a better way)
I walk with shadows
(the questions I will never say)
Hiding from the gallows
(they keep me safe and sound)
So I walk with shadows
(the ways of burning down this house)

End transmission
The satellites are down
I need an earthquake
To shake this pity
OFF THE GROUND

Just don’t trust these liars at the door
(you have to find a better way)
Kill the ones that have these answers for
(the questions I will never say)

Never fall asleep
You won't wake up
Destroy the guillotine
Before he does

I walk with shadows
(you have to find a better way)
I walk with shadows
(the questions I will never say)
Hiding from the gallows
(they keep me safe and sound)
So I walk with shadows
(the ways of burning down this house)

End transmission
The satellites are down
I need an earthquake
To shake this pity
Off the ground

All the vibrant colors I see
And the shades that fill the grey

Pain
The pain
Pain
The pain
Pain the pain
Pain

Pain
The pain
Pain
The pain
Pain the pain
Pain

Hiding from the gallows
(you have to find a better way)
I walk with shadows
(the questions I will never say)
Hiding from the gallows
(they keep me safe and sound)
So I walk with shadows
(the ways of burning down this house)

Handmaid

* Dedicated to the Virgin Mary
*Dedicated to Escape the Fate, "Friends and Alibis"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9nWGlLwyA0
(click it, if you know whats good for ya!)

And I will put enmity between you and the woman.... Genesis 3:15

--------/Handmaid to Destiny/The Thoughts of Mary after Gabriel Left Her----------------


Let the Holy Spirit come upon me
Let Him transfix me
and the thread of my heart unravel across troubled emotions
and the mountains fall into the sea
and the earth's surface open wide and swallow
all of my preconditions, dreams and autonomy
....my people are held hostage, bound by sins of our fathers
murderers of prophets, architects of Baal, temples of Ashtaroth
the screams of children burned alive on altars cry out
adjuring me not to let their blood rest unavenged
the angels in heaven pray
Moses, Joshua and Hezekiah pray
please retaliate
please usher salvation into Jerusalem, please herald the coming
of the King to end all kings
eternal Kingship and peace on earth
lions and children playing in the grass together cloud
my visions and I cant eat regularly
because my marriage wont be the same, my mom wont
be a great grandmother
and I will never know quiet obscurity
but the world needs a Savior, we need liberation
(from Rome)
and the clouds wish to stop entertaining the moon
because the prophets foretell of a world with limitless sun
no death. enduring love. joy unbounded
so let history have its way with me
and destiny
let me be handmaid to the choosing of life
an incandescent future for all

(FIAT)


--------------------Luke 1:26-38---------------
And in the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent from God unto a city of Galilee, named Nazareth, To a virgin espoused to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David; and the virgin's name was Mary. And the angel came in unto her, and said, Hail, thou that art highly favoured, the Lord is with thee: blessed art thou among women. And when she saw him, she was troubled at his saying, and cast in her mind what manner of salutation this should be. And the angel said unto her, Fear not, Mary: for thou hast found favour with God. And, behold, thou shalt conceive in thy womb, and bring forth a son, and shalt call his name JESUS. He shall be great, and shall be called the Son of the Highest: and the Lord God shall give unto him the throne of his father David: And he shall reign over the house of Jacob for ever; and of his kingdom there shall be no end. Then said Mary unto the angel, How shall this be, seeing I know not a man? And the angel answered and said unto her, The Holy Ghost shall come upon thee, and the power of the Highest shall overshadow thee: therefore also that holy thing which shall be born of thee shall be called the Son of God. And, behold, thy cousin Elisabeth, she hath also conceived a son in her old age: and this is the sixth month with her, who was called barren. For with God nothing shall be impossible. And Mary said, Behold the handmaid of the Lord; be it unto me according to thy word. And the angel departed from her.

------Friends and Alibis Lyrics-------
Oh, I hate to be the one to bear the bad news
Yes, it is true
I finally fell in love
I fell so hard that I'm killing myself
Yes, I need out
Out of this grave that I've dug

And all the friends that I have gone through
And how much I deserve the pain
It's a shame

So hold your head
Hold it up high
Here's to the friends that were alibis
Keep this close by your side
When I come home we will have our night

Oh, they always told me I was gorgeous in a way
And that fateful day
I found who I was
So fill this hole with my prescriptions
I just keep feeding my addictions

And all the friends that I have gone through
And how much I deserve the pain
It's a shame

So hold your head
Hold it up high
Here's to the friends that were alibis
Keep this close by your side
When I come home we will have our night
We will have our night

You were the ones that stood by my side, whoa
And I was the one that fought all of your fights
Go!

(Hold your head, hold it up high) Whoa
(Keep this close by your side) Whoa

So hold your head
Hold it high
Here's to the friends that were alibis
Keep this close by your side
When I come home we will have our night

Hold your head
Hold it up high
Here's to the friends that were alibis
Keep this close by your side
When I come home we will have our night

Hold your head
Hold it up high
Here's to the friends that were alibis
Keep this close by your side
When I come home we will have our night
We will have our night

Mary In Better Times

Now yall know I converted to Catholicism right? As a corollary, I got a newfound relationship with my Heavenly Moms, right...wait...isn't she also my patron Saint? Yo, Mary – Mother of God, not Magdalene – what the dealie, homie? Pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death! Waz up, Waz up, WAAAAZ UUUUUUPPPP!!! Feel me? So you see, I want to write a poem dedicated to you and the writhing sufferance of the heart you experienced pulling your Son’s Lifeless (Cold), Tattered, Limp Body, a Body once so full of Life, Vitality and Truth, off the cross, assisted by Roman soldiers undoubtedly, and dragging it to Joseph of Arimathea’s tomb. That had to be the most acute pain, Im sure. Hurt you in the worst way! Simeon said a sword would pierce your heart, but he neglected to note this tragedy would impale your heart and make your soul numb… As a Mother, how did you withstand and prevail? I salute you and give you reverence. Pray for me, pray for this poem....Im sure Jesus would honor the prayers of His Dutiful, Tender Mother! HOLLLLAAAAAAAAAA....Lets get em!

The Last Night We Smile

*Dedicated to Escape the Fate, Cellar Door
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdxTA0GHV54
(click that link, son!)

Near the cross of Jesus stood his mother....John 19.25

-------[I KISS YOUR FACE ONE LAST TIME: Dragging Your Cold, Breathless, Battered, Body to Joseph of Arimathea's Tomb; The Thoughts Of Mary After Jesus' Crucifixion]


Youre gone now, the wind
keeps blowing my hair in my mouth
(dress billowing frenetically)
sobbing blurs my vision and my body
is spasmodic, and Im trembling because its freezing
chapped lips, frost-bitten toes from hours of
waiting…wailing, watching the sky turn black
listening to You scream, then stop breathing
and pleading with the sun to return
with warm salutations from my past life and
expectations of a Son holding me in his Strong Arms
during His coronation ceremony...salubrious visions of an angel
choirs of angels singing, three Magi with three gifts
exchanged for embraces
amidst a crackling fire, warm smiles and faint hums of animals
but now Your Eyes are listless, and I can tend to the blood
but I cant remove the scabs
I cant stitch the gashes, I cant mend the holes in your hands
cant stop my heart from throbbing and crying
Your Shoulders feel so cold, your Legs are turning blue
and Youre so heavy now
I cant lift Your Body by myself
You didn't tell Me this would feel so Empty
So wrong
Salvation is meaningless if its implemented without You
I would just as soon bless the fallen, fete the cursed
murder many innocent, rob Caesar, spit in the face of
Pharisees, kiss a leper....worship Poseidon
before the full moon rises above my head
flanked by dark clouds
and the temperatures continue to plunge
wolves howl, watching us with yellow conniving eyes
and we place You in someone else’s Tomb
(YOU PROMISED ME YOU WOULD NEVER DIE!)
and I walk home alone
without a Son to comfort me anymore
....[crying].....


I KISS YOUR COLD LIPS ONE LAST TIME


--------------Luke 2:25-35----------
Now there was a man in Jerusalem called Simeon, who was righteous and devout. He was waiting for the consolation of Israel, and the Holy Spirit was upon him. It had been revealed to him by the Holy Spirit that he would not die before he had seen the Lord's Christ. Moved by the Spirit, he went into the temple courts. When the parents brought in the child Jesus to do for him what the custom of the Law required, Simeon took him in his arms and praised God, saying:
"Sovereign Lord, as you have promised,
you now dismiss your servant in peace.
For my eyes have seen your salvation,
which you have prepared in the sight of all people,
a light for revelation to the Gentiles
and for glory to your people Israel."
The child's father and mother marveled at what was said about him. Then Simeon blessed them and said to Mary, his mother: "This child is destined to cause the falling and rising of many in Israel, and to be a sign that will be spoken against, so that the thoughts of many hearts will be revealed. And a sword will pierce your own soul too."


-------Escape the Fate “Cellar Door” lyrics-----------
We walk through the doorway, heard you calling from the hall
To find you in the bedroom not breathing at all
I drag your body to the cellar where we lay, the wax it melts away,
I kiss your face...

Now we are starting to love you more
Your body's on the canvas I painted on the floor

Now you wait, like the drug, like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh, how it hurts in the worst way, now that you're gone, it's so wrong, it's so wrong....

If I could take you somewhere, I'd take you to the darkest place,
scatter you in art forms, admire the whore
beauty in different ways, your hands on picture frames
your eyes in the glass wear your face as a mask

Now they are starting to love you more
a gallery of your beauty, no charge at the door

As you wait, like the drug, like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh, how it hurts in the worst way, now that you're gone, it's so wrong, it's so wrong....

And down below your veins run dry your vacant eyes
I lost control your face is pale, your body's cold
And down below your veins run dry your vacant eyes
I lost control your face is pale, your body's cold

Wait, like the drug, like the change in the pain it goes on for so long
And oh, how it hurts in the worst way, now that you're gone, it's so wrong, it's so wrong...

Jennifer...I Cant Take In Oxygen Anymore (Without You)

Jennifer, I just cant seem to let you go. You are like an angelic vision enchanting me.....and scaring me; I cant sleep, Im stonewalled and troubled. When I first met you and I dared to fathom a future with us paired together.....doing romantic and mundane things.....HUUUH..HUHHH.....forgive me for my heavy breathing – Im short of breath when I muse on what could have been between us.....I held hands with hope and danced cheek to cheek with fulfillment of my fantasies. Jennifer....now that youre gone.....now that you’ve embraced another man.....I'm lovelorn and throwing pillows at my nightstand, dislodging the lampshade from my lamp....shattering the bulb. HUUUUH....HUUH.....because Im in the dark without you Jennifer, because Im losing my sanity and my grasp on what it means to be happy. Im a sad sack, Im a shell of a man perfunctorily passing through life.... These are my visions, Jennifer.....YOU tell me what they mean. I love you.....even though this love has proven to be ill-fated....HUHHHH.......HUUUUUHHHHH......HUUUUUUUUUH......HUUUUUHHHHHH

Jennifer, My Love For You Is Like Four Beasts!

------[Visions of Love On My Bed (For Jennifer D.)]---


Im restless, Jennifer
and its dark, and I cant see anything
but I can feel four winds stirring my heart
...desire...faith...hope...love
and my heart is like the Great Sea, boundless and immeasurable
Listen to me Jennifer

My yearning for you is a lion with eagles' wings
from the Sea emerging
fierce and yet lofty..soaring above clouds of normal expectations
(because Im not a normal guy)
seeking to devour its prey, hunting
sinking its teeth into marriage with you so elusive
and the chase, this journey is wearisome
plucking feathers with each failed attempt at your love
scarred and shorn but still persisting
cavalierly standing like a man
patiently enduring hardships, waiting for you
to hand your heart to me

But my attraction to you is a bear, ravenous
insatiable and stalwartly raised on its side
poised to strike. the last time I saw you is etched in my dreams
like three ribs in its mouth: your hair, your eyes, your grin
delectable to my mind, intriguing to my senses
and its never enough! I need to see you again
and touch your hand…the voice inside its head roars
visit with Jennifer, taste more sweet experiences
savor memories next to her dancing, arms enfolding her
"arise, devour much flesh"

My respect for you is another beast rising
a leopard with four heads and four wings
ever looking for ways to please
ever watchful, ever nomadic
trolling for an opportunity to exercise dominion
over your enthusiasm for a just suitor
preying
hoping
wanting

But the most august of my feelings
Is dreadful and terrible, exceedingly strong.
It has huge iron teeth; it devours, it breaks in pieces
trampling the residue with its feet
and it has ten horns, (weapons against hate)
with a little horn rising and displacing
the first three with eyes of a man,
and a mouth speaking pompous words
words of defiance
words of aggression, and instigation
and rebellion
this beast is my loyalty to you, most powerful and resistant
to charms
to sensibilities and consensus by those who would tell me
"leave Jennifer alone"
it is disagreeable, insufferable
pugnacious
demolishing all things that stand between us

Im restless, Jennifer
and its dark, and I cant see anything
except these visions
emotions rising from my heart
beasts rising from the Waters
of my passion, my robust love for you



--------------------Daniel 7:1-14---------------
In the first year of Belshazzar king of Babylon, Daniel had a dream and visions of his head while on his bed. Then he wrote down the dream, telling the main facts. Daniel spoke, saying, “I saw in my vision by night, and behold, the four winds of heaven were stirring up the Great Sea. And four great beasts came up from the sea, each different from the other. The first was like a lion, and had eagle's wings. I watched till its wings were plucked off; and it was lifted up from the earth and made to stand on two feet like a man, and a man’s heart was given to it. “And suddenly another beast, a second, like a bear. It was raised up on one side, and had three ribs in its mouth between its teeth. And they said thus to it: ‘Arise, devour much flesh!' After this I looked, and there was another, like a leopard, which had on its back four wings of a bird. The beast also had four heads, and dominion was given to it. "After this I saw in the night visions, and behold, a fourth beast, dreadful and terrible, exceedingly strong. It had huge iron teeth; it was devouring, breaking in pieces, and trampling the residue with its feet. It was different from all the beasts that were before it, and it had ten horns. I was considering the horns, and there was another horn, a little one, coming up among them, before whom three of the first horns were plucked out by the roots. And there, in this horn, were eyes like the eyes of a man, and a mouth speaking pompous words.
" I watched till thrones were put in place,
And the Ancient of Days was seated;
His garment was white as snow,
And the hair of His head was like pure wool.
His throne was a fiery flame,
Its wheels a burning fire;
A fiery stream issued
And came forth from before Him.
A thousand thousands ministered to Him;
Ten thousand times ten thousand stood before Him.
The court was seated,
And the books were opened.
"I watched then because of the sound of the pompous words which the horn was speaking; I watched till the beast was slain, and its body destroyed and given to the burning flame. As for the rest of the beasts, they had their dominion taken away, yet their lives were prolonged for a season and a time.
" I was watching in the night visions,
And behold, One like the Son of Man,
Coming with the clouds of heaven!
He came to the Ancient of Days,
And they brought Him near before Him.
Then to Him was given dominion and glory and a kingdom,
That all peoples, nations, and languages should serve Him.
His dominion is an everlasting dominion,
Which shall not pass away,
And His kingdom the one
Which shall not be destroyed.