The Fight For Meaning #IamJacob

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* Moses, Jacob, Holy Church pray for me
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*  Dedicated to #IamJacob

+------The Fight For Life; The Thoughts Of Jacob Wrestling With The Angel 

It happens when Im alone at night,
a sense of foreboding, 
resentment of Esau's eyes
in our Mother's womb, of 
a life cursed for birthright-deceit
approaching, a winged angel,
colossal, with strength incalculable 
surreptitiously stalking me,
grabbing my arm and wrenching me
into subjugation; Justice lifting my body
off the sand and slamming, my
back contorting in pain…gagging on
feathers, rolling over dirt, blood
under the moon. And so I fight,
for acceptance of this dismal script
feels like dying. I resist dying with
regret's scars, I put God in a
headlock of one desperate-
refusing to relent until I receive 
Blessings/Forgiveness/A New Beginning.

------Genesis 32:22-32
That night Jacob got up and took his two wives, his two female servants and his eleven sons and crossed the ford of the Jabbok. After he had sent them across the stream, he sent over all his possessions. So Jacob was left alone, and a man wrestled with him till daybreak.  When the man saw that he could not overpower him, he touched the socket of Jacob’s hip so that his hip was wrenched as he wrestled with the man. Then the man said, “Let me go, for it is daybreak.” But Jacob replied, “I will not let you go unless you bless me.” The man asked him, “What is your name?” “Jacob,” he answered. Then the man said, “Your name will no longer be Jacob, but Israel, because you have struggled with God and with humans and have overcome.” Jacob said, “Please tell me your name.” But he replied, “Why do you ask my name?” Then he blessed him there. So Jacob called the place Peniel, saying, “It is because I saw God face to face, and yet my life was spared.” The sun rose above him as he passed Peniel, and he was limping because of his hip. Therefore to this day the Israelites do not eat the tendon attached to the socket of the hip, because the socket of Jacob’s hip was touched near the tendon.