I Want A Colossians Two Kind of Girl, Yo!

* dedicated to my next girlfriend (Ive been single for 13 years guys [no dates either]...sheesh!!!)

-------------------------/My Resurrection Babe

My loneliness is plumes of dust, particles that burn and prick

the irises and jeering from a mob of degenerates preferring

the blood of an innocent man to that of murdering thief abominably

failing in love, falling three times, my prayers for you the only salve; Simon of Cyrene

the last thirteen years have felt like original indwelling sin

requiring my heart to walk these paths

and endure these ills whips from Roman centurions of bitter discontent

a nail of constant lust a nail of cynicism and agnostic doubt

gashing thorns a coronation of addiction to stoic detachment from reality

abandonment the new moniker above my head the girls who passed on me

taunting, “Tony, King of the Jews”….save yourself

impotent

now blood gushes down and vision blurred attempted deciphering in the clouds

calling to the God of Romance, why have you forsaken dreaming?
 (eli eli lama sabachthani)

and bringing me a wife, and that luminous wedding day

dissonance in the black sky and the earth quaking

without a disciple of confidence to sustain me – no dates at all

my Virgin Mother of erotic desire weeping the death of me in her arms

a stone rolled over the mouth of my soul’s amorous tomb

and all of this feels like the Jordan River of time

my shortcomings die I drown

my head held down by John the Baptist of obstinate

refusal to give up on a girl falling in love with me…one day

and my twenties were like a monumental splash

buried before a crowd of bemused onlookers

and you are like a dove from heaven descending, hope’s herald awaiting

the foreskin of rejection cut off with a sharp stone

meeting you will be like resurrection, like rising from a stream

and hearing heaven say with me it is well pleased

like circumcision of all the sordid memories of women walking away

(that awkward silence, the permanence of it all)

Forgiving me for the sin of trying too hard, of doubting your existence

nailing my shame and anxiety to the cruel cross of the past

……in your warm embrace and kiss I will be complete

your love of me will be the head of all principality and power in 2013

-----------Colossians 2:10-14

And ye are complete in him, which is the head of all principality and power: In whom also ye are circumcised with the circumcision made without hands, in putting off the body of the sins of the flesh by the circumcision of Christ: Buried with him in baptism, wherein also ye are risen with him through the faith of the operation of God, who hath raised him from the dead. And you, being dead in your sins and the uncircumcision of your flesh, hath he quickened together with him, having forgiven you all trespasses; Blotting out the handwriting of ordinances that was against us, which was contrary to us, and took it out of the way, nailing it to his cross