Kristen Stewart, You Are My (Essential) Pack of Ravens

* Forget about R-Patz!!!! What about T-Contz!!!????


--------------[Kristen Stewart, You Are My (Essential) Pack of Ravens]


Love is like bread,
from your mouth,
especially when Im weak and fearful your
tenderness spreads its wings
and circles above my head, spies on me
supplies me with the strength I need
for my heart to keep beating, and to supplement my drinking
water in my cupped hands from the Kerith Ravine
is like my passion for you, baby
incomplete without meat

Kristen,
there will be neither dew nor rain
neither joy nor satiation
as long as Ahab (loneliness like a poison) reigns
and makes cursed love to Jezebel (spurned affection)
causing the land of my soul to die in the drought
of suspicious cynicism and dubious longings for
happiness with you
for I prophesy it isn't achievable without your consent
(to kiss me)
and your help

I have turned eastward and made my home
on the banks of flowing streams in the brook of hope
hiding in anticipation of you coming to me
dining on dreams of you in the morning
and musing on you in the evenings
because
because I'll starve without you girl,
and I'll die without you near
I need you, baby
please don't stop loving me
feeding me

(Kristen, forget Robert Pattinson! I need you more! You are like a swarm of ravens to me!)





-------------------------------1 Kings 17:1-5
Now Elijah the Tishbite, from Tishbe in Gilead, said to Ahab, "As the LORD, the God of Israel, lives, whom I serve, there will be neither dew nor rain in the next few years except at my word."
Then the word of the LORD came to Elijah: "Leave here, turn eastward and hide in the Kerith Ravine, east of the Jordan. You will drink from the brook, and I have ordered the ravens to feed you there." So he did what the LORD had told him. He went to the Kerith Ravine, east of the Jordan, and stayed there. The ravens brought him bread and meat in the morning and bread and meat in the evening, and he drank from the brook.

Kid Cudi ft. Jesus Christ "Day and Night (Wilderness Remix)"

*Dedicated to Kid Cudi "Day and Night"

"Through desire a man, having separated himself, seeketh and intermeddleth with all wisdom." - Proverbs 18:1

---------------[Jesus in the Wilderness, Soul Searching]



I used to feel like a loser
until I separated myself
introspection with locusts and wild honey
in harms way... dwelling amongst wild beasts
blood thirsty and cantankerous
riled by the crescent moons and chilled air
demons lurking to devour my sense of direction
and I had 40 days to turn stones to bread
40 days to worship pleasure and to
throw myself down from high places and kill the latent
dreams I harbored, making a clean break and walking away
but I rebuked those jealous voices inside –
rejection, despair, depression....desparation
with Words my father taught me long ago:
"never close your eyes with regret
rise each morning with resolve
save as many people from this selfsame destitution..."
and they dispelled the fear I had within, the voices of doubt
which shadowed me for the past 30 harried years,
and peace for me is akin to the sound of angel wings
comforting
in my barren desert of searching laid before me,
my robe billowing,
my purpose revealed


--------------------[Matthew 4:1-11]
Then Jesus was led by the Spirit into the desert to be tempted by the devil. After fasting forty days and forty nights, he was hungry. The tempter came to him and said, "If you are the Son of God, tell these stones to become bread." Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'" Then the devil took him to the holy city and had him stand on the highest point of the temple."If you are the Son of God," he said, "throw yourself down. For it is written:
" 'He will command his angels concerning you,
and they will lift you up in their hands,
so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.'"
Jesus answered him, "It is also written: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test.'"
Again, the devil took him to a very high mountain and showed him all the kingdoms of the world and their splendor. "All this I will give you," he said, "if you will bow down and worship me." Jesus said to him, "Away from me, Satan! For it is written: 'Worship the Lord your God, and serve him only.'" Then the devil left him, and angels came and attended him.

----------Day and Night Lyrics –

Uh [6x]

[Verse 1]
Day and night (what, what)
I toss and turn, I keep stressing my mind, mind (what, what)
I look for peace but see I don't attain (what, what)
What I need for keeps this silly game we play .. play
Now look at this (what, what)
Madness to magnet keeps attracting me, me (what, what)
I try to run but see I'm not that fast (what, what)
I think I'm first but surely finish last .. last

[Chorus]
Cause day and night (day and night)
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night (night, night)
He's all alone, through the day and night (day and night)
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night (at, at, at night)
Day and night (day and night)
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night (night, night)
He's all alone some things will never change (never change)
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night (at, at, at night)

[Verse 2]
Hold the phone (what, what)
The lonely stoner, mr. solo dolo (what, what)
He's on the move can't seem to shake the shade (what, what)
Within his dreams he see's the life he made .. made
The pain is deep (what, what)
A silent sleeper you won't hear a peep, peep (what, what)
The girl he wants don't seem to want him too (what, what)
It seems the feelings that she had are through .. through

[Chorus]
Cause day and night (day and night)
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night (night, night)
He's all alone, through the day and night (day and night)
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night (at, at, at night)
Day and night (day and night)
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night (night, night)
He's all alone some things will never change (yea) (never change)
The lonely loner seems to free his mind (yea) at night (at, at, yea at night)

[Verse 3]
Slow-mo (what, what)
When the temple slows up and creates that new, new (what, what)
He seems alive though he is feeling blue (what, what)
The sun is shining man he's super cool, cool
The lonely nights (what, what)
They fade away he slips into his white nike's (what, what)
He smokes a clip and then he's on the way (what, what)
To free his mind in search of
To free his mind in search of
To free his mind in search of

[Chorus]
Day and night
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night (night, night)
He's all alone, through the day and night (day and night)
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night (at, at, at night)
Day and night (day and night)
The lonely stoner seems to free his mind at night (night, night)
He's all alone some things will never change (never change)
The lonely loner seems to free his mind at night (at, at, at night, night)

At, at, at night (night)

Na, na, na, na, na, na
Kid Cudi

Susanna's Cry - Daniel 13

*Deidicated to JayZ ft Kid Cudi, "Already Home"
*Dedicated to all my haters out there – don’t get too encouraged: you won't win!

And she weeping looked up to heaven, for her heart had confidence in the Lord."-----------------Susanna's Cry


Desires and dreams, disappointments and reality
failures
reaching but not grasping, yearning but not attaining
becoming callous, embittered – full of spite
but I am a daughter of Judah (not Israel)
of Helcias full of pride, scruples and discretion
will unbending, and faith unshakeable in a God who
doesn’t sleep, or ignore the call of those who fear Him
and I am a woman in a male oriented society
lacking your leverage and influence
yet refusing to be exploited
or to capitulate to your demands and your sinful eyes
and sullied old hands and perverse minds – you are like
wolves preying on the innocent
plotting on lambs innocently feeding and preening
licking your cracked, dry lips for blood
possessed by hedonism and nihilism...
you will not subjugate my mind before you attempt my body
for I would taste death before I taste your vile
interpretation of love
I will be blameless in the sight of the Lord
Your false accusations not withstanding
In my trials, my sorrow like a dark cloud encompassing the moon
there is hope
In your hatred you look to my hell
but in His love, God lifts my gaze to heaven
full of tears






---------“Already Home” Lyrics
Yeezy !!! Hova !!!
Let's Go
Yeezy !! Hova !!

[2X]
Love me or leave me alone
Either love me or leave me alone

[Chorus: Kid Cudi]
Ohhh, they want me to fall (fall)
Fall from the top (top)
They want me to drop (drop)
They want me to stop (stop)
They want me to gooo (goooo)
I'm already gone (already)
The s* that I'm onnn
I'm already homeeee

[Jay-Z]
Hey, I'm already home
Hey I'm already home
Hey, I'm already home
now one mo' gin

[Chorus]
Ohhh, they want me to fall (fall)
Fall from the top (top)
They want me to drop (drop)
They want me to stop (stop)
They want me to gooo (goooo)
I'm already gone (already)
The s* that I'm onnn
I'm already homeeee


[Verse 1: Jay-Z]
These n* want me to go
Don't they know that I'm gone?
They know I'm space shuttle level
They need ox-y-g-g-g-gen
Don't they know that they borin'?
Don't they know that I yawn
Only time they excitin' is when they're mentionin' Shawn
You seen "Single White Female" when she dyed her hair blond?
Sometimes I look at these rappers, the movie remind me of them
Somebody turn these boys off
Don't they know that I'm on
Can't they see that it's foolish to try to kill me with songs?
WTF are they Lauryn? you "Killing Me Softly"
You talk me to death, only thing you could do to him
I opened the door for them, what else could I do?
These n* want me to walk for them
But somebody talk to them
before I go off on them...

[Chorus]

[Verse 2: Jay-Z]
I taught 'em 'bout fishscale, they want me to fish for them
They want me to catch, clean... and cook up the dish for them
All of this just for them or they got a diss for him
They want me to disappear, like it's gon' shift for them
They say that I'm in the way, they want me to sit for them
But what they admitting is, they ain't got s* for him
And really the fact is, we not in the same bracket
not in the same league, don't shoot at the same baskets
Don't pay the same taxes, hang with the same b*
So how am I in the way, what is it I'm missin'?
N* I been missin', n* I been gone
The shit that you just witnessin' end, I been on
And as for the critics, tell me I don't get it
Everybody could tell you how to do it, they never did it
Now these n* is mad, oh, they call me a camel
But I mastered the drought, what the f*, I'm an animal
Half man, half mammal
My sign is a Sag, this is just what I planned to do
Oh don't be maddddd

[Chorus]

[Verse 3]
I'm in the Hall already, on The Wall already
I'm a work of art, I'm a Warhol already
On another level, on another plane already
H-O-V, I got my own lane, already (already)
..I done cooked up "The Roc" already
So why the f* can't y'all get hot already? (already)
Put your name in the pot already
Niggas compare me with Biggie & 'Pac already (already)
Like I'm gone already
And I am, n* I'm "Already Home" already (already)
If y'all can't already see
I ain't worried bout y'all cuz I'm already me
Yea...do you already
Enough with the complainin', boo-hoos already
...Eat food already
Ain't nothin' given, you gotta claim your shoes already


Yea
So information, I don't know who you racin'
I'm already at the finish line with the flag wavin'
c'mon

[Chorus: 2x]

Daniel 13

Daniel 13
Now there was a man that dwelt in Babylon, and his name was Joakim: And he took a wife whose name was Susanna, the daughter of Helcias, a very beautiful woman, and one that feared God. For her parents being just, had instructed their daughter according to the law of Moses. Now Joakim was very rich, and had an orchard near his house: and the Jews resorted to him, because he was the most honourable of them all. And there were two of the ancients of the people appointed judges that year, of whom the Lord said: Iniquity came out from Babylon from the ancient judges, that seemed to govern the people. These men frequented the house of Joakim, and all that had any matters of judgment came to them. And when the people departed away at noon, Susanna went in, and walked in her husband's orchard. And the old men saw her going in every day, and walking: and they were inflamed with lust towards her: And they perverted their own mind and turned away their eyes that they might not look unto heaven, nor remember just judgments. So they were both wounded with the love of her, yet they did not make known their grief one to the other: For they were ashamed to declare to one another their lust, being desirous to have to do with her. And they watched carefully every day to see her. And one said to the other: Let us now go home, for it is dinner time. So going out they departed one from another. And turning back again, they came both to the same place: and asking one another the cause, they acknowledged their lust; and then they agreed upon a time, when they might find her alone. And it fell out, as they watched a fit day, she went in on a time, as yesterday and the day before, with two maids only, and was desirous to wash herself in the orchard: for it was hot weather. And there was nobody there, but the two old men that had hid themselves and were beholding her. So she said to the maids: Bring me oil, and washing balls, and shut the doors of the orchard, that I may wash me. And they did as she bade them: and they shut the doors of the orchard, and went out by a back door to fetch what she had commanded them, and they knew not that the elders were hid within. Now when the maids were gone forth, the two elders arose, and ran to her, and said: Behold the doors of the orchard are shut, and nobody seeth us, and we are in love with thee: wherefore consent to us, and lie with us. But if thou wilt not, we will bear witness against thee, that a young man was with thee, and therefore thou didst send away thy maids from thee. Susanna sighed, and said: I am straitened on every side: for if I do this thing, it is death to me: and if I do it not, I shall not escape your hands. But it is better for me to fall into your hands without doing it, than to sin in the sight of the Lord. With that Susanna cried out with a loud voice: and the elders also cried out against her. And one of them ran to the door of the orchard, and opened it. So when the servants of the house heard the cry in the orchard, they rushed in by the back door to see what was the matter. But after the old men had spoken, the servants were greatly ashamed: for never had there been any such word said of Susanna. And on the next day, When the people were come to Joakim her husband, the two elders also came full of wicked device against Susanna, to put her to death. And they said before the people: Send to Susanna daughter of Helcias the wife of Joakim. And presently they sent. And she came with her parents, and children, and all her kindred. Now Susanna was exceeding delicate, and beautiful to behold. But those wicked men commanded that her face should be uncovered, (for she was covered,) that so at least they might be satisfied with her beauty. Therefore her friends and all her acquaintance wept. But the two elders rising up in the midst of the people, laid their hands upon her head. And she weeping looked up to heaven, for her heart had confidence in the Lord. And the elders said: As we walked in the orchard alone, this woman came in with two maids, and shut the doors of the orchard, and sent away the maids from her. Then a young man that was there hid came to her, and lay with her. But we that were in a corner of the orchard, seeing this wickedness, ran up to them, and we saw them lie together. And him indeed we could not take, because he was stronger than us, and opening the doors he leaped out: But having taken this woman, we asked who the young man was, but she would not tell us: of this thing we are witnesses.

The multitude believed them as being the elders and the judges of the people, and they condemned her to death. Then Susanna cried out with a loud voice, and said: O eternal God, who knowest hidden things, who knowest all things before they come to pass, Thou knowest that they have borne false witness against me: and behold I must die, whereas I have done none of these things, which these men have maliciously forged against me. And the Lord heard her voice. And when she was led to be put to death, the Lord raised up the holy spirit of a young boy, whose name was Daniel. And he cried out with a loud voice I am clear from the blood of this woman. Then all the people turning themselves towards him, said: What meaneth this word that thou hast spoken? But he standing in the midst of them, said: Are ye so foolish, ye children of Israel, that without examination or knowledge of the truth, you have condemned a daughter of Israel? Return to judgment, for they have borne false witness against her. So all the people turned again in haste, and the old men said to him: Come, and sit thou down among us, and shew it us: seeing God hath given thee the honour of old age. And Daniel said to the people: Separate these two far from one another, and I will examine them. So when they were put asunder one from the other, he called one of them, and said to him: O thou that art grown old in evil days, now are thy sins come out, which thou hast committed before: In judging unjust judgments, oppressing the innocent, and letting the guilty to go free, whereas the Lord saith: The innocent and the just thou shalt not kill. Now then, if thou sawest her, tell me under what tree thou sawest them conversing together. He said: Under a mastic tree. And Daniel said: Well hast thou lied against thy own head: for behold the angel of God having received the sentence of him, shall cut thee in two. And having put him aside, he commanded that the other should come, and he said to him: O thou seed of Chanaan, and not of Juda, beauty hath deceived thee, and lust hath perverted thy heart: Thus did you do to the daughters of Israel, and they for fear conversed with you: but a daughter of Juda would not abide your wickedness. Now therefore tell me, under what tree didst thou take them conversing together. And he answered: Under a holm tree. And Daniel said to him: Well hast thou also lied against thy own head: for the angel of the Lord waiteth with a sword to cut thee in two, and to destroy you. With that all the assembly cried out with a loud voice, and they blessed God, who saveth them that trust in him.
And they rose up against the two elders, (for Daniel had convicted them of false witness by their own mouth,) and they did to them as they had maliciously dealt against their neighbour, To fulfill the law of Moses: and they put them to death, and innocent blood was saved in that day. But Helcias and his wife praised God, for their daughter Susanna, with Joakim her husband, and all her kindred, because there was no dishonesty found in her. And Daniel became great in the sight of the people from that day, and thenceforward. And king Astyages was gathered to his fathers, and Cyrus the Persian received his kingdom

From HOVs Son flow streams of Living Water

* JESUS, RIDE WITH ME ON THIS ONE HOMIE!----------------
1 Corinthians 3:16
Don't you know that you yourselves are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you?
--------------
John 7:38
"He who believes in Me, as the Scripture said, 'From his innermost being will flow rivers of living water.'"
-------------------

DEAR JESUS,


Like David said
"my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you"
because you are like St. John said:
"love"
and I wouldn't be here without you
nor would I have the inspiration to write these poems
or the creativity to put them into words
you are my contentment, my refuge my resort
when the world's vitriol proves too much to bear
and I know Im by no means perfect but your
grace and mercy
nurture me
I desperately want a woman to love me
but if this doesn't transpire
I know I'll be okay with you
you are the spring of living waters
I yearn for deep within
And you are my rock, my warrior God
dismantling my enemies before my eyes
saving me from the traps of death they set
resurrecting me so can I stand tall, with my foot on their necks
and when I look at the sun, and survey the land
Im so fond of the autumn brisk autumn air
and the effulgent colors on the leaves
I know you made it all
I know you made me
and I know you live inside me


SO ITS ALL GOOD SON!


------------------------EVEN THE RAPPERS GOT TO GIVE YOU PRAISE!

Blessed, the Lord is a G, he gotta be – Nas, "America"

I can introduce you to your maker
Bring you closer to nature
Hope you been reading your psalms and chapters
Paying your ties being good Catholics – Jay Z, "Lucifer"

Save the Last Dance

* Dedicated to Linkin Park: "Leave Out All The Rest"

-----------Bewailing My Virginity (The Thoughts of Jephthah's Daughter)


Its dark and Im so lonely
I am a candle flickering
Beneath heavy breathing,
tears and sobs
on the wall of my bedroom I see
silhouettes of a man and woman, a groom and bride
holding each other in a loving embrace
and my blurry eyes are transfixed on
their undulatory dance...until I grow weary
and they morph into black phantoms rushing towards me
like the angel of death
and I miss life and I miss love
I never had
I wish I could have kissed a man before I died
I wish I could have given a man my love
holding my son underneath the autumn sun
arms and legs waving gleefully
but now the air is cold, my covers provide
little warmth as I lay beneath them
my dreams drift back and forth
between girlhood and womanhood, and all that
lies between
today me and my girlfriends climb mountains
for tomorrow is unforseen
the cruel wind extinguishes the flames
and I pray one last prayer as I feel the smoke rising
above my head


------------------------------
Judges 11:29-40
Then the Spirit of the LORD came upon Jephthah, and he passed over Gilead, and Manasseh, and passed over Mizpeh of Gilead, and from Mizpeh of Gilead he passed over unto the children of Ammon. And Jephthah vowed a vow unto the LORD, and said, If thou shalt without fail deliver the children of Ammon into mine hands, Then it shall be, that whatsoever cometh forth of the doors of my house to meet me, when I return in peace from the children of Ammon, shall surely be the LORD's, and I will offer it up for a burnt offering. So Jephthah passed over unto the children of Ammon to fight against them; and the LORD delivered them into his hands. And he smote them from Aroer, even till thou come to Minnith, even twenty cities, and unto the plain of the vineyards, with a very great slaughter. Thus the children of Ammon were subdued before the children of Israel. And Jephthah came to Mizpeh unto his house, and, behold, his daughter came out to meet him with timbrels and with dances: and she was his only child; beside her he had neither son nor daughter. And it came to pass, when he saw her, that he rent his clothes, and said, Alas, my daughter! thou hast brought me very low, and thou art one of them that trouble me: for I have opened my mouth unto the LORD, and I cannot go back. And she said unto him, My father, if thou hast opened thy mouth unto the LORD, do to me according to that which hath proceeded out of thy mouth; forasmuch as the LORD hath taken vengeance for thee of thine enemies, even of the children of Ammon. And she said unto her father, Let this thing be done for me: let me alone two months, that I may go up and down upon the mountains, and bewail my virginity, I and my fellows. And he said, Go. And he sent her away for two months: and she went with her companions, and bewailed her virginity upon the mountains. And it came to pass at the end of two months, that she returned unto her father, who did with her according to his vow which he had vowed: and she knew no man. And it was a custom in Israel, That the daughters of Israel went yearly to lament the daughter of Jephthah the Gileadite four days in a year.

----------Leave Out All The Rest (Lyrics)

dreamed I was missing, you were so scared
But no one would listen, 'cause no one else cared
After my dreaming, I woke with this fear
What am I leaving when I'm done here?

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest, don't be afraid
I've taken my beating, I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface, not all the way through
I've never been perfect, but neither have you

So if you're asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed
Don't resent me, and when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory, leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest

Forgetting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well
Pretending someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

I can't be who you are

Praying for Melchizedek

+

------------------Thoughts on Melchizedek


My heart is fatigued
worn by blood and screams of hatred
and hoofs of horses are like deafening thunder which
is causing me a massive headache
and I feel remorse for the vacuous eyes of my victims
when I raise my sword
or draw and arrow from my quiver
greeted by the angel of death
before crossing to the other side. Vapid is this
constant strife and needless struggle
deep within we all dream dreams of peace - prosperity for all
when the final horn is blown, and the banners
are raised in victory instead of extolling my achievements
I cry
because I feel misunderstood
(and Im hungry and Im thirsty)
and hunted at the same time. When the sun sets,
usually after a brief cessation from the day's strife, I kneel down
and run my fingers across the dirt drawing
meaningless nothings
until I can stop my hands from shaking
and mount my horse, and embark on the journey
back home
longing for respite, recognition, community
and control
placing my chin on my chest
as the wind chills my bones
praying for a blessing to end it all
for an answer
I would give a tenth of all I own



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Genesis 14:17-20
After his return from the defeat of Chedorlaomer and the kings who were with him, the king of Sodom went out to meet him at the Valley of Shaveh (that is, the King's Valley). And King Melchizedek of Salem brought out bread and wine; he was priest of God Most High. He blessed him and said, "Blessed be Abram by God Most High, maker of heaven and earth; and blessed be God Most High, who has delivered your enemies into your hand!" And Abram gave him one tenth of everything.

Autumn Life

* Dedicated to Underaoth "Young and Aspiring"


Autumn Life----(Thoughts from The Apostle Paul)


Summer's coming to an end...
the cloudy skies, the cool winds jostling branches on trees
and the requisite chill they bring
stir my mind to autumn days long ago, as a youth in Rome
writing on wax tablets and day dreaming
of days in authority as an adult
of days in Zion, twirling the staff of Moses parting and closing
the rivers; sitting next to David on his throne
recounting stories of the glory days gone by
(and how tall Goliath really was)
we stared at the clouds, though our teacher admonished
never to stare at the sun
but ever since, I have harbored this longing caged in flesh
to be free
to open my eyes and see the truth
to bend my ears and hear wisdom and knowledge from above
and rest securely, not intermittently roused from fear of barbarians
shooting firebrand arrows through the lattice
to be anywhere but here...where injustice is sport
lies promulgated without regret
and the wicked idolatrous endure a prosperous reign
unable to restrain their resident disobedience
fomenting deceitful malice within their hearts, and even I
want to do right, but often times I do what is wrong
I want what is unlawful but pleasurable
Enslaved by sin
so I am always unhappy, though I smile for your sake
and withstand
hoping for death, eternal life in the frigid air
with Christ I stand to gain



--------------------------------------------------]
Philippians 1:20-26
I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death. For to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain. If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. Yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, so that through my being with you again your joy in Christ Jesus will overflow on account of me.



2 Corinthians 5:6-10
Therefore we are always confident and know that as long as we are at home in the body we are away from the Lord. We live by faith, not by sight. We are confident, I say, and would prefer to be away from the body and at home with the Lord. So we make it our goal to please him, whether we are at home in the body or away from it. For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, that each one may receive what is due him for the things done while in the body, whether good or bad.


Youg and Aspiring Lyrics*
Underoath Young And Aspiring Lyrics

So lets not even try you're right lets ball it up and throw it out the window
It's becoming all so clear in my mind
I've thought this through more like once or twice
I feel that this is my last request to you

Hold your breath
Bottle it up and save it for the next one
It's safe to say we've been riding this all night
None of this will ever change your mind
It's never safe to rely on borrowed time
Now we're both undone and it's time to open up your eyes

Consequence it's our need in times like this
Feeling free is our modern disease
You're a classic disaster with a knack for losing your exterior
I'm so sick
From staring at the mirror

This all nees a break from you
And I'm used to this

I fear that I am just an end
So you'll play the mistaken and I'll play the victim
In our screenplay of desire and I'm still writing
The letters I'll never send

Running in circles I can't forget how many times
I've played this in my mind

Feeling free feeling free
This is my panic this is my call to arms

Written by Underoath. © 2004 814 Stops Today (ASCAP)/Thirsty Moon River Publishing (ASCAP)

Twilight - New Moon

* dedicated to Stonesour: "Through Glass"

------------* (Jesus') Thoughts at Twilight/ The Son Rising


Blood...
Blood tastes like rains descending from a forsaken moon
silent in the face of injustice
iron bars, rusted shackles act as stoic accomplices
in the frenetic fight
for the right to live and die as a denizen of heaven
with dignity…uncontaminated by lies
by harsh and sometimes soft-spoken duplicity
your disdain shrouded by your heavy cloak of tolerance
and gold rings, and chalices full of deep spite
asleep in hatred, awoken by fear and driven by self aggrandizing
angst, jealous of objectivity and truth spoken without shifting shadows
ushered in by angels of light and choruses proclaiming
HOLY, HOLY, HOLY is the New World* supplanting your paradise
of decay and suffering
widows cradling their children from breasts filled with sour milk
due to starvation…at your hands and neglect
and feet that walk right past those in need...Jews by inheritance
abandoning your own flesh
tombstones with no names, lepers with no benefactors in the synagogues
Pharisees and Sadducees lame souls
Sanhedrin with blind eyes, deaf to compassion’s cry
so I speak
to set the prisoners free, imprisoned by your tyranny filled,
brow-beating, guilt-apportioned gaze
your lack of piety
I speak what is true, and seek to save what has been lost
Why do you strike me?
Your evil will not prevent the true Dawn from rising...





[John 18:19-23; 28]----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Meanwhile, the high priest questioned Jesus about his disciples and his teaching.
"I have spoken openly to the world," Jesus replied. "I always taught in synagogues or at the temple, where all the Jews come together. I said nothing in secret. Why question me? Ask those who heard me. Surely they know what I said." When Jesus said this, one of the officials nearby struck him in the face. "Is this the way you answer the high priest?" he demanded. "If I said something wrong," Jesus replied, "testify as to what is wrong. But if I spoke the truth, why did you strike me?" Then Annas sent him, still bound, to Caiaphas the high priest...Then the Jews led Jesus from Caiaphas to the palace of the Roman governor. By now it was early morning...
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Through Glass lyrics
Songwriters: Economaki, Shawn; Rand, Josh; Root, James Donald; Taylor, Corey;

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of folks

So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins, contaminating everything
We thought came from the heart
But never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
(Null and void instead of voices)

Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
And all I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you, yeah

And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you, yeah

I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

'Cause I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
All I know is that it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head

And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you, yeah
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you, yeah

And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you, yeah
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you, yeah yeah

Who are the stars?
Who are the stars that lie?

Words at Night

Lord,


you dont talk to me like she does
your eyes dont cut
your tongue doesnt scathe
or tease,
or disappoint
you dont sound like them
those who deride, and those who scoff
with their mocking, and carousing
and value judgements and estimations of self worth
loathing everything I have ever done
jealous
and discontented

your words are more arousing
penetrating to the depths of the spirit inside me
emboldening, reaffirming
even soothing, even carrying my weary soul
to the mansions in your father's house
I hope it has a soft bed
and fluffy pillow to lay my head
so I can fasten my eyelids and dream of better days
and rest my sore back

because you dont deny love (ever)
because you dont turn down affection
when its cold, your word is warmth
it is a tissue consoling tears of rejection
strength from fear
lips to kiss and someone to hold
it is a quiet night, pensive watching my breath
as I exhale
because I dont need Jennifer




The words of the LORD are pure words: as silver tried in a furnace of earth, purified seven times. (Psalm 12:6)