Incomprehensible (To You)

And they stirred up the people, the elders, and the scribes; and they came upon him, seized him, and brought him to the council. They also set up false witnesses who said, "This man does not cease to speak blasphemous words against this holy place and the law; for we have heard him say that this Jesus of Nazareth will destroy this place and change the customs which Moses delivered to us." And all who sat in the council, looking steadfastly at him, saw his face as the face of an angel. [Acts 6:12-15]



-------------------------/Acts Chronicles Chapter 6: Incomprehensible -The Thoughts of Stephen as He Was Falsely Accused]


How can I tell you how I feel for you
or disclose all the things residing within me
deep in my heart
without double entendre
confusion, or ambiguity
precise language, pointed speech
unity and accord, spiritually bound one
to another, brothers in law, brothers in the Lord
so that our love doesn’t falter
and we don’t regress…and glorify Cain
and hold Abel in disrepute
a glorious and fitting representation to all nations
of all Jews, especially David our father
(whom we all lionize even to this day)
How can I convey hope
to your forlorn faces
that you can forsake your grumblings, and vile machinations
raping and robbing, deceiving and killing (stoning)
to fill your purse, feed your avarice and experience
catharsis from your sinful ways
by being judged righteous and having bodies resurrected anew
How can I translate the ineffable into mere words
that the prophets and our forefathers
anticipated more than just desert sands upon leaving Egypt
the promises they foretold weren't for themselves
but for us, to provide solace in our plight
and free our souls from this wicked generation
to which we have been enslaved far too long
I wish I could tell you somehow, that you would understand:
(and stop your libelous cunning)
my words to you are not mine, but from above
and I speak them as plainly as Moses did when he heard
and like him, just the thought of all these things
makes my face incandescent


(brightly shining, and eager for all the joys that lie ahead)

The Shadow of Peter

And through the hands of the apostles many signs and wonders were done among the people. And they were all with one accord in Solomon’s Porch. Yet none of the rest dared join them, but the people esteemed them highly. And believers were increasingly added to the Lord, multitudes of both men and women, so that they brought the sick out into the streets and laid them on beds and couches, that at least the shadow of Peter passing by might fall on some of them. Also a multitude gathered from the surrounding cities to Jerusalem, bringing sick people and those who were tormented by unclean spirits, and they were all healed. [Acts 5:12-16]


+-------/Acts Chronicles Chapter 5: The Shadow of Peter – Thoughts From The Crowds/


This is the twilight before darkness falls
on a desecrated world wrought by pain
of leaving behind prosperity, and promise
luscious fruit
to grasp – and behold with wonder
cravenness and cursedness
corrosive fruit
withering in our hands, brittle and
frail souls
lost and vulnerable – yet with palpable anger
and hatred for our brothers
and the tears of sisters barren
fall silently on the brink of sleep, while others wail
midday widowed and with sons homeless
which explains our rabid obsession
with the end of the world
and the beatific vision
for the present world is senseless
blind
deaf
mute
crippled by the maladies of government,
aimless militaristic slaughtering and reprobate clergy
and by our continual contretemps
to find a cure (for the sickly)
by endorsing depraved prophets, despising
those of virtue, unable to wash the stain of
the innocent blood of the martyrs from our collective consciousness
because we don't know how to love anymore
or live with joy. So please
just give us one more glimpse of the sun –
(and the paradise we once had)
before it sets on this life
maybe the Shadows of Redemption will cascade
on our scars, regrets, and fears of tomorrow


(and bring us reprieve)

Cornerstone

Then Peter, filled with the Holy Spirit, said to them, "Rulers of the people and elders of Israel: If we this day are judged for a good deed done to a helpless man, by what means he has been made well, let it be known to you all, and to all the people of Israel, that by the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, whom you crucified, whom God raised from the dead, by Him this man stands here before you whole. This is the ‘stone which was rejected by you builders, which has become the chief cornerstone.’ Nor is there salvation in any other, for there is no other name under heaven given among men by which we must be saved."-------------[Acts 4:8-12]


------Acts Chronicles Chapter 4: Cornerstone (The Thoughts of Peter as He Addresses the Sanhedrin)



We used to talk at night
sometimes on profundities, sometimes not
and
unbeknownst to You
I stared as you slept, musing
on what your soul was comprised of
that enabled the world to be so comprehendible
you to hold onto a fate without pretenses
full of bravery
defiant, almost romantic in pursuit
of what we all felt were lost ideals
in a fallen world full of Roman guile
salvation extended to gentiles, eschewal
of David’s throne – though the crown was overtly offered
the crowd willing to usurp Caesar’s even
yearning to be rallied, yearning to exercise vengeance
let rivers of blood flow through Jerusalem
(their sound a fitting requiem for the lost children slain by Herod)
but lost on Your deaf ears
and ferocity smote on your hands, feet, and head
by soldiers we despised as proxies of our rage
thorns, whips, nails thrust as a repudiation
a denouement, if you will, of Your Philosophy
rejected
as unfitting to a Jewish nation full of angst
for freedom, but ultimately unable to recognize it
in its Purest Form
you were a stone dislodged from a people misguided
desirous to build an ivory tower into the sky
filled with dreams – yet
we are an empty people still, shackled to our misery
oppressed by foreigners and lost - without
the Kingdom You promised to bring us
of which we now realize You obviously
were the Chief Cornerstone...


(establishing a celestial foundation to be built upon)

Don't Wake

*dedicated to CS and SS

[Genesis 27:41] So Esau hated Jacob because of the blessing with which his father blessed him, and Esau said in his heart, "The days of mourning for my father are at hand; then I will kill my brother Jacob."


-------------/The Gate of Heaven – Don't Wake Up; The Thoughts of Jacob After His Dream/


You chase after love
you think youre doing the right thing
so young, so full of ambition
so full of energy, and even ruses
never tired – the world is for the taking
and you want to make a difference, an indelible mark
even if your brother stands in your way
impeding paths to greatness by way of birthright
seduced by impetuosities, lack of self control
shackled by the flesh, and proclivities for red stew
but your heart knows no bounds tracing destiny
even skullduggery

But
when that life is imperiled
you have no choice but to flee or risk death
or insanity
and you pray you don't lose yourself in the process
and forget your triumphs and plans for the future
(generations)
but under the weight of stress you’re tiring,
you cant press any further
you just want to place your head against a stone
and pretend the sunrise will chase
the shadows of your nightmares away
the bloody wounds would scab

You wish there was a ladder set up on the earth
of some sort
the kind where the angels of God ascend and descend
the kind where you climb up
and God informs
'I am with you and will keep you wherever you go'
'your descendants shall be as the dust of the earth'
confirming your longings
to open and enter through the gate of heaven
not just Laban's
and your body keeps telling you there's no time to waste
toss and turn, and wake up –
but you don't want to


(not until you rename the city from Luz to Bethel)


------------------Genesis 28:10-22
Now Jacob went out from Beersheba and went toward Haran. So he came to a certain place and stayed there all night, because the sun had set. And he took one of the stones of that place and put it at his head, and he lay down in that place to sleep. Then he dreamed, and behold, a ladder was set up on the earth, and its top reached to heaven; and there the angels of God were ascending and descending on it. And behold, the LORD stood above it and said: "I am the LORD God of Abraham your father and the God of Isaac; the land on which you lie I will give to you and your descendants. Also your descendants shall be as the dust of the earth; you shall spread abroad to the west and the east, to the north and the south; and in you and in your seed all the families of the earth shall be blessed. Behold, I am with you and will keep you wherever you go, and will bring you back to this land; for I will not leave you until I have done what I have spoken to you." Then Jacob awoke from his sleep and said, "Surely the LORD is in this place, and I did not know it." And he was afraid and said, "How awesome is this place! This is none other than the house of God, and this is the gate of heaven!" Then Jacob rose early in the morning, and took the stone that he had put at his head, set it up as a pillar, and poured oil on top of it. And he called the name of that place Bethel; but the name of that city had been Luz previously. Then Jacob made a vow, saying, “If God will be with me, and keep me in this way that I am going, and give me bread to eat and clothing to put on, so that I come back to my father's house in peace, then the LORD shall be my God. And this stone which I have set as a pillar shall be God’s house, and of all that You give me I will surely give a tenth to You.”

My Bland (Love) Life

Man yall, I acted so stupidly. I liked this girl right? Then I de-friended her on facebook after she wasnt too talkative when I saw her recently; actually it seemed as if she was avoiding me. Thing is - now I have no way of rekindling the friendship or even assuaging her fears that I wanted to rush into a relationship with her, which is presumably the explanation behind her reticence to engage in convo. Now there is zero chance of communication between us, and I have no way of even guessing when we will next meet.
True, she just may not be that into me, but I should have used restraint when it came to excising her from my Facebook life. See what confused emotions will make you do?


"Fill the waterpots with water."

----------------/Life Is Bland – SS**/

I was not ready to meet you when I did
It was not my time
but the love I had needed to be hurried
with you I forced myself to be impetuous
everything was dull
trite before you came – even whilst the world around
was celebrating marriage everything tasted like water
this was my pall
so I couldn’t wait any longer, my thirst: rapacious
my lot: unenthusiastic
my hope was like six waterpots of stone
filled to the brim (with water plain)
waiting for a miracle, waiting to be touched
by you
for the many sleepless nights with insipid drink
crying
gazing at the clouds, partially revealed
by the moon's incandescent glow to end
the taste buds of my heart needed you so badly
you are the most interesting person I have ever met
you make even the most drab conversation lively
eyes like luscious grapes growing on the vine
personality like a winepress
to my soul that makes your presence taste sweet
you are so intoxicating
because the fermentation of getting to know you
got better over time
you set the inferior out first, the best last
and I cant stop thinking about you –
I cant stop drinking (memories of us talking)

so forgive me for writing blogs about you
and forgive me for de-friending you on Facebook
after you ignored me for being too forward
Im an emotional wreck -its just I couldn't wait
for you to turn my water into new wine

(and I blew it)

---------------John 2:1-12
On the third day there was a wedding in Cana of Galilee, and the mother of Jesus was there. Now both Jesus and His disciples were invited to the wedding. And when they ran out of wine, the mother of Jesus said to Him, "They have no wine." Jesus said to her, "Woman, what does your concern have to do with Me? My hour has not yet come.” His mother said to the servants, "Whatever He says to you, do it.” Now there were set there six waterpots of stone, according to the manner of purification of the Jews, containing twenty or thirty gallons apiece. Jesus said to them, "Fill the waterpots with water.” And they filled them up to the brim. And He said to them, "Draw some out now, and take it to the master of the feast.” And they took it. When the master of the feast had tasted the water that was made wine, and did not know where it came from (but the servants who had drawn the water knew), the master of the feast called the bridegroom. And he said to him, "Every man at the beginning sets out the good wine, and when the guests have well drunk, then the inferior. You have kept the good wine until now!" This beginning of signs Jesus did in Cana of Galilee, and manifested His glory; and His disciples believed in Him. After this He went down to Capernaum, He, His mother, His brothers, and His disciples; and they did not stay there many days.

Raptured (Away From Me)

*dedicated to Agent SS**
* dedicated to Escape the Fate, Reverse this Curse


-----------/Raptured: Stalks of Wheat/

I know now what it is to experience
loss in love,
and oblivion
you and I spoke just the other day
....you had a very affable demeanor
and I looked forward to continuing
this friendly discourse
I of course harbored favorable sentiments towards you
but mostly just wanted to get to know you
by standing in your presence
and breathing your air

But your face changed
when I saw you next – you were cold,
eyes obtuse
you diverted your gaze from me
your feelings nebulous
to exchanging pleasantries you were averse
when I reached out to greet you
desirous to shake your hand
you reluctantly obliged
and maintained your stride – walking away from me
forever
left behind

Oh Agent SS*,
in these last days
I ate, I drank, I sold, I planted, I built
expectations of our friendship
only to be met with the fire and brimstone of your cruelty
like Sodom
you left me on the housetop, goods in the house left to spoil
dreams of a tight bond between us
-now severed -
we were in bed, I turned over and you were gone
we were grinding together, I leaned over to pick up loose grain
...the millstones shattered
We were in the field of newfound camaraderie
I in a state of reverie
then all of a sudden you disappeared
and I was alone
left to search hopelessly for you
amongst the stalks of wheat


(Why did you run away from me? What did I do?)


------------------------Luke 17:20-37
Now when He was asked by the Pharisees when the kingdom of God would come, He answered them and said, "The kingdom of God does not come with observation; nor will they say, 'See here!' or 'See there!' For indeed, the kingdom of God is within you." Then He said to the disciples, "The days will come when you will desire to see one of the days of the Son of Man, and you will not see it. And they will say to you, 'Look here!' or 'Look there!' Do not go after them or follow them. For as the lightning that flashes out of one part under heaven shines to the other part under heaven, so also the Son of Man will be in His day. But first He must suffer many things and be rejected by this generation. And as it was in the days of Noah, so it will be also in the days of the Son of Man: They ate, they drank, they married wives, they were given in marriage, until the day that Noah entered the ark, and the flood came and destroyed them all. Likewise as it was also in the days of Lot: They ate, they drank, they bought, they sold, they planted, they built; but on the day that Lot went out of Sodom it rained fire and brimstone from heaven and destroyed them all. Even so will it be in the day when the Son of Man is revealed. "In that day, he who is on the housetop, and his goods are in the house, let him not come down to take them away. And likewise the one who is in the field, let him not turn back. Remember Lot's wife. Whoever seeks to save his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life will preserve it. I tell you, in that night there will be two men in one bed: the one will be taken and the other will be left. Two women will be grinding together: the one will be taken and the other left. Two men will be in the field: the one will be taken and the other left.” And they answered and said to Him, "Where, Lord?" So He said to them, “Wherever the body is, there the eagles will be gathered together."





----Reverse this Curse, Lyrics-----

A withered past and a blurry future,
My hearts on an auction,
It goes out to the highest bid.

I live too fast, and I know I will lose her,
But there is an option, to die is to live in her head.

So I'll hang on, never let go.
I dug this pain into my chest.
Instead

[Chorus:]
One last chance to reverse this curse,
You stole my heart but I had it first.
And now I see you've got something to prove,
And nothing to lose, so let me tell you the truth.

A deadly wish but it should've come sooner,
A corpse in a funeral that I would never attend.
There is a light on in the back of this house,
But you're not around, to die is to live in her head.

So I'll hang on, never let go.
I dug this pain into my chest.
It's dead.

[Chorus:]
One last chance to reverse this curse,
You stole my heart but I had it first.
And now I see you've got something to prove,
And nothing to lose so let me tell you the truth.

So, this goes, out to, the ones that fall in love,
And to, the girl, that filled my dark.
Last night I had the weirdest dream,
That you and I drove up the darkest streets,
Passing through these city lights,
Closure for the kiss that died.

One last chance to reverse this curse,
You stole my heart but I had it first,
And now I see you've got something to prove,
And nothing to lose so let me tell you the truth.

One last chance to reverse this curse,
You stole my heart but I had it first,
And now I see you've got something to prove,
And nothing to lose so let me tell you the truth.

(whisper) This goes
Out to
The ones that fall in love
And to the girl
That filled my dark

You Hurt Me Badly

There is this piercing
this hole inside of me
nothing can fill it. Not work
not monotony to divert my attention
because I feel scourged
by you
I have never felt the way I've felt since I met you
in just a brief span you upended my worldview
and its only recently that I began to learn to love again
the innocence and the fresh vibrancy of pure adoration
but you dont even want to talk to me
you turned away from my greeting
how can I ever get over this?
For 3 straight weeks I woke up clenching my chest
my heart spasms thinking about you
why dont you love me? why am I not good enough?