Snooki Let Your Love Open My Ears and Loosen My Tongue!!!

* dedicated to The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus "Cat and Mouse"

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=693928908925

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=693931264205

--------------------/Plaintively; Ephphatha/-----

I have been walking through Decapolis all my life
but nothing makes sense
and in love, everyone is a pantomime because I cant hear
and I cant speak, my enunciations are blabber
to those around me
especially when I tell them I am stricken with loneliness
without your company

Take me aside, away from the crowd
and look into my soul, your kindness is like fingers
covering my ears from all the despondency I hear
within my soul and your desire for me is like spit
on my tongue, intimate engagement, physical sacrifice and bonding
(your life into mine, your heart)
proof that we speak the same language, loosening my clenched jaw
so my words can free myself from the morass of public scrutiny
and misunderstanding
Ephphatha means "be open" to opportunities of liaisons
with the woman of my dreams
holding her hand, and whispering into her ear
things Ive held back for years
unable to communicate
the soul's speech – begging for you

Snooki,
you are the best woman I have ever met
you do all things well, please hold me in your arms
and make my enervated ears spring to life with vigor
and my listless tongue effusive with your praise
because all Ive ever wanted
from the one I love
is to be understood




Mark 7:31-37-----------------------------------/
Then Jesus left the vicinity of Tyre and went through Sidon, down to the Sea of Galilee and into the region of the Decapolis. There some people brought to him a man who was deaf and could hardly talk, and they begged him to place his hand on the man. After he took him aside, away from the crowd, Jesus put his fingers into the man's ears. Then he spit and touched the man's tongue. He looked up to heaven and with a deep sigh said to him, "Ephphatha!" (which means, "Be opened!" ). At this, the man's ears were opened, his tongue was loosened and he began to speak plainly. Jesus commanded them not to tell anyone. But the more he did so, the more they kept talking about it. People were overwhelmed with amazement. "He has done everything well," they said. "He even makes the deaf hear and the mute speak."


----Cat and Mouse Lyrics---
Softly we tremble tonight
Picture perfect fading smiles are all that's left in sight
I said I'd never leave, you'll never change
I'm not satisfied with where I'm at in life

Am I supposed to be happy
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price
Am I supposed to be happy
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price
You said, "You said that you would die for me"

We made plans to grow old
believe me there was truth in all those stories that I told
Lost in a simple game, cat and mouse,
are we the same people as before this came to light?

Am I supposed to be happy
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price
Am I supposed to be happy
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price
You said, "You said that you would die for me...
You must live for me too...for me too
Yea, Yea...
You said that you would die for me"

Am I supposed to be happy
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price
Am I supposed to be happy
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price
You said, "You said that you would die for me"

Lord Have Pity on Israel (Me Too)

*dedicated to Kill Hannah "Tokyo (Dance in the Dust)"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZjHjcScKjjY

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=692199195285

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=692201375915


-----------------------/Lord Have Pity For Israel (Me); My Official Cry For Forgiveness/


I love you I never meant to
hurt you I was trying to assuage the pain of
a life lived with regret, and misgivings about
coveted things...I didn’t see your wrath coming
mired in my demise
now I turn to your heart and rend mine
hoping instead of locusts, you will leave your
blessing and meal offering
for our children
and we promise to demolish our idols
and we promise to abstain from food
gathered in the town square
old men, children and women nursing
bride and bridegroom weep so as to be spared
because I lost my way somewhere
grass and thorns instead of smooth road
the lion, the bear the wild beast not the lamb
the shepherds fall into the ditches they have dug
running from you
entangled by the same world that derides me now
taunting words – where is his God?
for my people are hungry and we lost our crops
I lost my money
my girl, my will to press on in Holiness
all for my myopic desire for pleasure
repentance
and jealously we pray for
be jealous for me
be jealous for Israel
Lord have mercy

(so I can dance in the dust of my past sins)



-------------Joel 2:12-18----
"Now, therefore," says the LORD,
"Turn to Me with all your heart,
With fasting, with weeping, and with mourning."
So rend your heart, and not your garments;
Return to the LORD your God,
For He is gracious and merciful,
Slow to anger, and of great kindness;
And He relents from doing harm.
Who knows if He will turn and relent,
And leave a blessing behind Him—
A grain offering and a drink offering
For the LORD your God?
Blow the trumpet in Zion,
Consecrate a fast,
Call a sacred assembly;
Gather the people,
Sanctify the congregation,
Assemble the elders,
Gather the children and nursing babes;
Let the bridegroom go out from his chamber,
And the bride from her dressing room.
Let the priests, who minister to the LORD,
Weep between the porch and the altar;
Let them say, "Spare Your people, O LORD,
And do not give Your heritage to reproach,
That the nations should rule over them.
Why should they say among the peoples,
'Where is their God?'"
Then the LORD will be zealous for His land,
And pity His people.

---------------"Tokyo (Dance in the Dust)" Lyrics
I see you come alive when our hearts and thoughts connect,
I feel your bedroom eyes from behind your cigarette,
Finally you're here,

Tokyo,
It's in our blood,
Japanese angels you and I,
The night is young,
It's inside us,
Stay forever immortalized,
Come join us,
Dance in the d-d-d-dust,

I knew I loved you from before the night we met,
When the neon colors all blew up your silhouette,
Suddenly you're free,

Tokyo,
It's in our blood,
Japanese angels you and I,
The night is young,
It's inside us,
Earth and heaven both collide,
Come join us,
Dance in the dust,

T.o.k.y.o, T.o.k.y.o, T.o.k.y.o, T.o.k.y.o, T.o.k.y.o
(dance in the dust, dance in the dust)
T.o.k.y.o, T.o.k.y.o, T.o.k.y.o, T.o.k.y.o, T.o.k.y.o
(dance in the dust, dance in the dust)
(dance in the dust, dance in the dust)

Bellicose

*dedicated to The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus "Grim Goodbye"


http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=691925388995

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bf883pV41mI

-----/Bellicose: The Thoughts of The Apostle Paul The Soldier/--------------



I don't like the smell of blood
Or the sight of it, or when it stains my clothes
and people say cowards fall in battle while the courageous
stand steadfast
undeterred
just before sunset with my command I blow the candles out
and use the darkness as a canvas to paint my thoughts
staring into ether wondering what the world could be without death
because most men don't fight anymore,
all they do is run and hide
forced to recant their aspirations before conquered by their fears
but sometimes we don’t chase murder (or mortality)
it accosts us...
The Belt of truth protects from lies
The Breastplate of righteousness girds against lewdness
without which any conflict would be ill-advised
and misguided
but ultimately we pray against all wrangling our feet
adorned with the gospel of peace
in the interim, to deflect flaming arrows of wickedness
we use the shield of faith, forged in crucibles of lost love
but belief in its reclamation
And the helmet of salvation guards against insanity in the trenches
when those around us begin to perish
when the world turns cold and we wont let the Enemy
win the day, brandishing the sword of the Spirit which is
our words proclaiming victory and cessation from all suffering
because the Covenant of Life was meant to be sealed with trust
never blood
the contract of suffering into which we were all conscripted
though you realize after some time
men were never meant to die

(it is a sin)


------------------------Ephesians 6:10-18
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God. And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the saints.



----"Grim Goodbye" Lyrics

Whoooaaaa, whooooaa
Whooooa, whooooooa, whooooaa
......
Don't you try to take me down,
don't you try to take me over,
won't you try to break me?
The complexities moving in,
and I feel that I do not have the strength,
tragedies plaguing me solemnly
Its affecting my will

Wait now that I've found you,
situations from dark now change to gray
Disregarding my absence of memories,
its perpetually blinding me of sanity,
and just when I'm giving in,
as I try to scale these walls
Jericho falls around me
and I feel that I've strayed too long

And darkness is fading in...and darkness is real

Oh my eyes
oh closing slowly
I try

Fate seems to recreate,
I just can not escape,
Something holds me down and makes me act a way I can't explain
Even now I can feel it coming over me choking me,
as I'm falling behind
You can say you know me,
but you have no clue what my dreams could show you

And darkness is fading in, and darkness is real

Oh my eyes
oh closing slowly
I try

I
Can't
Can't win

I feel something deep inside me,
I feel deep inside
I feel something deep inside me and I can't let this go, whoa,
I feel something deep inside me and I can't let this go, whoa,

Lie, as I try to steer clear, and I try to stay sober
This is taking me over,
And my dreams complicate it...

I just can not let this go
I tried so many times to tell you
I just I can not let this go,
I just can not win

See you
I see you falling away
I see you...you
Killing me softly
I see you...you falling away I see you...you

Don't take what's in front of me, open eyes can see I have everything
Tell you don't take what's in front of me, tell you don't take what's in me

Lie, which one lied?
When I feel it come a way, way that's why I try...lie

(Crowd singing)

I see you coming my way
dreams may fall more everyday
I see you looking my way

And I've tried just to separate dreams from reality watch to satisfy this wanting,
Try to stay righteous, try to stay sober, but then, I can't win

And I know you, and I know you, and I know you...
Lie

Drew Barrymore: My Bronze-Serpent Valentine! Cha-Chiiing!

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/video/video.php?v=690579111945

----------------[Drew Barrymore: My Bronze Valentine ; Israel Griping In the Wilderness]



Drew forgive me,
I was wrong to grouse about you, saying
of your kindness "there is no food," and your company
"there is no water" and again that your affections
my "soul loathes" like "worthless bread"
in my current state of singleness I have contracted slight
delirium
loneliness has been my perpetual wasteland, vast and widespread
(and time consuming – as the years blow sand in my face;
and remorse like scorpion's fangs threaten every step)
dejection traced as far back as my last girlfriend (Egypt)
who spurned me and denigrated my self-esteem
her words like whips and cords, her eyes like
a slave master – scars and scabs yet to heal
and the collective emotional weight of it all
has made me disagreeable

I can only pray for your mercy....
that your love would purify me of my indiscretions
my ungratefulness
because your indignation feels like snake bites
lethal to my heart, I can barely breathe at night
gasping for air, my limbs stiff and vomiting
in need of another chance
baby, would you be to me redemption lifted high
treasured like bronze?
your kiss could be like a serpent on a pole
subverting your wrath
restoring my senses


(Please....????)


[Im so sorry for offending you Drew! I love you! Will you be my Valentine???]

-------------------Numbers 21:4-9
Then they journeyed from Mount Hor by the Way of the Red Sea, to go around the land of Edom; and the soul of the people became very discouraged on the way. And the people spoke against God and against Moses: "Why have you brought us up out of Egypt to die in the wilderness? For there is no food and no water, and our soul loathes this worthless bread." So the LORD sent fiery serpents among the people, and they bit the people; and many of the people of Israel died. Therefore the people came to Moses, and said, "We have sinned, for we have spoken against the LORD and against you; pray to the LORD that He take away the serpents from us." So Moses prayed for the people. Then the LORD said to Moses, "Make a fiery serpent, and set it on a pole; and it shall be that everyone who is bitten, when he looks at it, shall live." So Moses made a bronze serpent, and put it on a pole; and so it was, if a serpent had bitten anyone, when he looked at the bronze serpent, he lived.

Blood Is No Longer The Issue

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/video/video.php?v=690302785705


----------------------/Antidote; The Last Thoughts Of The Woman With an Issue of Blood/



The scribes say you'll know when you're chosen by God
by antecedent signs
by the ethos of an era that cries out for recognition
....or simply the pure desire you harbor
for change
for liberation from oppression (if it rages deep within).
And I don't bathe anymore because
it never stops....my clothes are always sullied, the water opaque,
dried blood stains the staircase
the shame from defiling my family's house always lingers
and the doctors don't want to touch me
they only prescribe excuses for me to be dismissed
and ostracized in the synagogues
so Im mostly relegated to lurching along the border of town
by day (hoping on charity for food and drink)
insistent to God for a reprieve from the wild beasts
in the wilderness by night
as I place my arms on my knees
and sob underneath the glare of the full moon and dark clouds
wondering
is there any life for me other than this one
the sneers of my enemies never felt so palpable
I can feel the delight of those who feel it a privilege not to pray
yet even if I had to slither like a serpent on the ground
the rest of my days
grasping for the cloak of the man who knew a cure
I wouldn't wish this on anyone
I only wish that someone would save me
from this madness, from myself
reverse this curse
and set me free




(restore my dignity)

-----------------Luke 8:43-48
As Jesus was on his way, the crowds almost crushed him. And a woman was there who had been subject to bleeding for twelve years, but no one could heal her. She came up behind him and touched the edge of his cloak, and immediately her bleeding stopped."Who touched me?" Jesus asked. When they all denied it, Peter said, "Master, the people are crowding and pressing against you." But Jesus said, "Someone touched me; I know that power has gone out from me." Then the woman, seeing that she could not go unnoticed, came trembling and fell at his feet. In the presence of all the people, she told why she had touched him and how she had been instantly healed. Then he said to her, "Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace."

Just a Little Fastidious...

* dedicated to Alesana. "Where Myth Fades To Legend"

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=688917367095


http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=688922636535

http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=688927676435


------------------/Don't Forget The Sandals; Lazarus' Last Words Before Dying/---


Girls,
to be overly concerned
with self destructive behavior when dying
is foolishness
wizened to your prohibitive fate;
the consequences of promises unfulfilled
and with it, the people who might retaliate
the prospect of life without you
Mary, Martha
let me drink on my deathbed please
leave my mouth to the fury of its cursing
(but keep the windows closed)
leave me to my tears running, languid
I don't mind a squalid face anymore...
it is unimportant to be kempt and groomed in Hades
only circumspect and adaptable
and contrite
I only ask that you refrain from a dirge
and leave my eyes open if they stay that way
I would much like to see the paths Death takes me
en route to the River Stixx
but leave my sandals in the tomb
so just in case He comes after me, I wont sacrifice my feet
on the journey back here
we've seen Him resuscitate the deceased before
perhaps I...
Martha take care of Mary for me
you always were the most dutiful, and she the most
most.....I,....I....
please don't forget the sandals...


(Im scared)
* Lazarus breathes his last....*

-------John 11:1-45
Now a man named Lazarus was sick. He was from Bethany, the village of Mary and her sister Martha. This Mary, whose brother Lazarus now lay sick, was the same one who poured perfume on the Lord and wiped his feet with her hair. So the sisters sent word to Jesus, "Lord, the one you love is sick." When he heard this, Jesus said, "This sickness will not end in death. No, it is for God's glory so that God's Son may be glorified through it." Jesus loved Martha and her sister and Lazarus. Yet when he heard that Lazarus was sick, he stayed where he was two more days. Then he said to his disciples, "Let us go back to Judea." "But Rabbi," they said, "a short while ago the Jews tried to stone you, and yet you are going back there?" Jesus answered, "Are there not twelve hours of daylight? A man who walks by day will not stumble, for he sees by this world's light. It is when he walks by night that he stumbles, for he has no light." After he had said this, he went on to tell them, "Our friend Lazarus has fallen asleep; but I am going there to wake him up." His disciples replied, "Lord, if he sleeps, he will get better." Jesus had been speaking of his death, but his disciples thought he meant natural sleep. So then he told them plainly, "Lazarus is dead, and for your sake I am glad I was not there, so that you may believe. But let us go to him." Then Thomas (called Didymus) said to the rest of the disciples, "Let us also go, that we may die with him." On his arrival, Jesus found that Lazarus had already been in the tomb for four days. Bethany was less than two miles from Jerusalem, and many Jews had come to Martha and Mary to comfort them in the loss of their brother. When Martha heard that Jesus was coming, she went out to meet him, but Mary stayed at home. "Lord," Martha said to Jesus, "if you had been here, my brother would not have died. But I know that even now God will give you whatever you ask." Jesus said to her, "Your brother will rise again." Martha answered, "I know he will rise again in the resurrection at the last day." Jesus said to her, "I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?" "Yes, Lord," she told him, "I believe that you are the Christ, the Son of God, who was to come into the world." And after she had said this, she went back and called her sister Mary aside. "The Teacher is here," she said, "and is asking for you." When Mary heard this, she got up quickly and went to him. Now Jesus had not yet entered the village, but was still at the place where Martha had met him. When the Jews who had been with Mary in the house, comforting her, noticed how quickly she got up and went out, they followed her, supposing she was going to the tomb to mourn there. When Mary reached the place where Jesus was and saw him, she fell at his feet and said, "Lord, if you had been here, my brother would not have died." When Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who had come along with her also weeping, he was deeply moved in spirit and troubled. "Where have you laid him?" he asked. "Come and see, Lord," they replied. Jesus wept. Then the Jews said, "See how he loved him!" But some of them said, "Could not he who opened the eyes of the blind man have kept this man from dying?" Jesus, once more deeply moved, came to the tomb. It was a cave with a stone laid across the entrance. "Take away the stone," he said. "But, Lord," said Martha, the sister of the dead man, "by this time there is a bad odor, for he has been there four days." Then Jesus said, "Did I not tell you that if you believed, you would see the glory of God?" So they took away the stone. Then Jesus looked up and said, "Father, I thank you that you have heard me. I knew that you always hear me, but I said this for the benefit of the people standing here, that they may believe that you sent me." When he had said this, Jesus called in a loud voice, "Lazarus, come out!" The dead man came out, his hands and feet wrapped with strips of linen, and a cloth around his face. Jesus said to them, "Take off the grave clothes and let him go." Therefore many of the Jews who had come to visit Mary, and had seen what Jesus did, put their faith in him.

Are You Really The Christ?

"....or should we expect someone else?" – Matthew 11:3

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/video/video.php?v=688287948455
* dedicated to everyone in the struggle*


---------------/The Thoughts of John the Baptist Imprisoned/


Either Im doing everything right
or everything wrong
was Zechariah full of treachery and deceit, and the calling
in my heart falsely sanguine? The baptisms just public baths,
the Pharisees still narcissistic? Their presence just an attempt at entrapment…
Locusts, wild honey and camel skin
bouts of delusion – the onset of demonic possession
accompanied by shame and misery for my family hereafter?
Because infamy travels,
and all sorts of miscellany plague one's thoughts
handed food through a cell, confined and loss of privacy
as odor of my flesh becomes stench
as the coarse talk of prison guards becomes my night song
and I begin to dream of an alternate life
declining the call, traversing the river banks of some other prophet
oblivious of the need to repent
quite stoic to the notion of change for Israel
no risk and no sacrifice
reclining on hillsides with friends, watching clouds scatter
and the sunset
just a serene bland life, unchained
unbounded and unhurt by abusive captors
smugly deriving meaning from the haranguing of a hapless man
sentenced to imprisonment for doing the right thing
saying the right things
utilizing the wisdom he thought he had
before death was peering at him from behind these walls
for this one thing I am certain
but before I close my eyes for the last time...
someone please tell me "he didn't live his life in vain"



----Matthew 11:2-6-----------------
When John heard in prison what Christ was doing, he sent his disciples to ask him, "Are you the one who was to come, or should we expect someone else?"Jesus replied, "Go back and report to John what you hear and see: The blind receive sight, the lame walk, those who have leprosy are cured, the deaf hear, the dead are raised, and the good news is preached to the poor. Blessed is the man who does not fall away on account of me."