The Birth Of A (Rebel) Nation; The Thoughts Of Ishmael As A Man #IamIshmael

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+-----------The Birth Of A (Rebel) Nation; The Thoughts Of Ishmael As A Man

I suppose its in my genes to be
strident, to strive to seek solace
at chthonic points of earth (like hell),
to put ears to soil and await
water’s disruption of the ground,
muscling through rock to the surface for
a drink in desert springs- like my mother,
famished, abandoned. Pregnant at night then;
she told me of the wolves, and jackals,
snakes hissing, lizards encircling her…
yellow eyed; bereft of Abram’s
sword, his armies of valiant protection.
And aren’t all men like that to me now?
A wild donkey bucking the seeds of
Abraham, numerous as sand and stars,
like bastardization. Your soul doesn’t know
hatred, seething, until you find out you
were unwanted once.....

----------------Genesis 16:5-15
Then Sarai said to Abram, “You are responsible for the wrong I am suffering. I put my slave in your arms, and now that she knows she is pregnant, she despises me. May the Lord judge between you and me.” “Your slave is in your hands,” Abram said. “Do with her whatever you think best.” Then Sarai mistreated Hagar; so she fled from her. The angel of the Lord found Hagar near a spring in the desert; it was the spring that is beside the road to Shur. And he said, “Hagar, slave of Sarai, where have you come from, and where are you going?”
“I’m running away from my mistress Sarai,” she answered.
Then the angel of the Lord told her, “Go back to your mistress and submit to her.” The angel added, “I will increase your descendants so much that they will be too numerous to count.”
The angel of the Lord also said to her:
“You are now pregnant
    and you will give birth to a son.
You shall name him Ishmael,
    for the Lord has heard of your misery.
He will be a wild donkey of a man;
    his hand will be against everyone
    and everyone’s hand against him,
and he will live in hostility
    toward all his brothers.”
She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.” That is why the well was called Beer Lahai Roi; it is still there, between Kadesh and Bered.
So Hagar bore Abram a son, and Abram gave the name Ishmael to the son she had borne. Abram was eighty-six years old when Hagar bore him Ishmael.