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* Dedicated to Taylor Swift #TaylorDateTony
* Dedicated to all unborn babies in the world right now
* Mary Mother of God pray for me
+-------------------------------/Esau For You
Taylor why cant we just do coffee?
My heart is pregnant with angst, like
the prospects of invigorating
romance and perpetual loneliness are fighting
within me, brothers of the fate
of my love life clasping heels, clenching
teeth like two nations poised to war
amongst themselves at birth. (Predestined
enemies converging fast upon fallopian tubes
in the womb).
I would do anything just to see the steam
rising in front of your face, my forlorn
soul famished for the aroma of dark
roasted beans from Canaan poured
at Starbucks,
the pottage and lentils of your company,
blonde hair and blue eyes a promise of a
better tomorrow to me
after years and years of hunting
for girls to requite my affections but returning
home empty handed.
It has been so long since Ive dated, by now
the fetuses of expectation fully grown:
the lover in me, the firstborn twin, hairy
and cunning in the fields of cynical ex-girlfriends,
the pessimistic socially depraved un-dateable
vagabond in me just a plain man
lying in tents of inertia on weekends
stirring insipid stew of memory.
Oh baby, just
to sit at table and hear your
melodic voice meander through the minutiae
of your day would mean everything to me….
Even if you were to walk away
never ever to speak to me again, and
I consigned to die loveless and unmarried
serving the lesser kin,
I would exchange the birthright of happily
ever after for just a few seconds
of Venti café mocha on your breath.
(Im sweating, gasping for air and panting, my palpitating heart echoing through the tent of desperation.)
------Genesis 25:19-34; 27:1-42
And these are the generations of Isaac, Abraham's son: Abraham begat Isaac: And Isaac was forty years old when he took Rebekah to wife, the daughter of Bethuel the Syrian of Padanaram, the sister to Laban the Syrian. And Isaac intreated the Lord for his wife, because she was barren: and the Lord was intreated of him, and Rebekah his wife conceived. And the children struggled together within her; and she said, If it be so, why am I thus? And she went to enquire of the Lord. And the Lord said unto her, Two nations are in thy womb, and two manner of people shall be separated from thy bowels; and the one people shall be stronger than the other people; and the elder shall serve the younger. And when her days to be delivered were fulfilled, behold, there were twins in her womb. And the first came out red, all over like an hairy garment; and they called his name Esau. And after that came his brother out, and his hand took hold on Esau's heel; and his name was called Jacob: and Isaac was threescore years old when she bare them. And the boys grew: and Esau was a cunning hunter, a man of the field; and Jacob was a plain man, dwelling in tents. And Isaac loved Esau, because he did eat of his venison: but Rebekah loved Jacob. And Jacob sod pottage: and Esau came from the field, and he was faint: And Esau said to Jacob, Feed me, I pray thee, with that same red pottage; for I am faint: therefore was his name called Edom. And Jacob said, Sell me this day thy birthright. And Esau said, Behold, I am at the point to die: and what profit shall this birthright do to me? And Jacob said, Swear to me this day; and he sware unto him: and he sold his birthright unto Jacob. Then Jacob gave Esau bread and pottage of lentiles; and he did eat and drink, and rose up, and went his way: thus Esau despised his birthright. And it came to pass, that when Isaac was old, and his eyes were dim, so that he could not see, he called Esau his eldest son, and said unto him, My son: and he said unto him, Behold, here am I. And he said, Behold now, I am old, I know not the day of my death: Now therefore take, I pray thee, thy weapons, thy quiver and thy bow, and go out to the field, and take me some venison; And make me savoury meat, such as I love, and bring it to me, that I may eat; that my soul may bless thee before I die. And Rebekah heard when Isaac spake to Esau his son. And Esau went to the field to hunt for venison, and to bring it. And Rebekah spake unto Jacob her son, saying, Behold, I heard thy father speak unto Esau thy brother, saying, Bring me venison, and make me savoury meat, that I may eat, and bless thee before the Lord before my death. Now therefore, my son, obey my voice according to that which I command thee. Go now to the flock, and fetch me from thence two good kids of the goats; and I will make them savoury meat for thy father, such as he loveth: And thou shalt bring it to thy father, that he may eat, and that he may bless thee before his death. And Jacob said to Rebekah his mother, Behold, Esau my brother is a hairy man, and I am a smooth man: My father peradventure will feel me, and I shall seem to him as a deceiver; and I shall bring a curse upon me, and not a blessing. And his mother said unto him, Upon me be thy curse, my son: only obey my voice, and go fetch me them. And he went, and fetched, and brought them to his mother: and his mother made savoury meat, such as his father loved. And Rebekah took goodly raiment of her eldest son Esau, which were with her in the house, and put them upon Jacob her younger son: And she put the skins of the kids of the goats upon his hands, and upon the smooth of his neck: And she gave the savoury meat and the bread, which she had prepared, into the hand of her son Jacob. And he came unto his father, and said, My father: and he said, Here am I; who art thou, my son? And Jacob said unto his father, I am Esau thy first born; I have done according as thou badest me: arise, I pray thee, sit and eat of my venison, that thy soul may bless me. And Isaac said unto his son, How is it that thou hast found it so quickly, my son? And he said, Because the Lord thy God brought it to me. And Isaac said unto Jacob, Come near, I pray thee, that I may feel thee, my son, whether thou be my very son Esau or not. And Jacob went near unto Isaac his father; and he felt him, and said, The voice is Jacob's voice, but the hands are the hands of Esau. And he discerned him not, because his hands were hairy, as his brother Esau's hands: so he blessed him. And he said, Art thou my very son Esau? And he said, I am. And he said, Bring it near to me, and I will eat of my son's venison, that my soul may bless thee. And he brought it near to him, and he did eat: and he brought him wine and he drank. And his father Isaac said unto him, Come near now, and kiss me, my son. And he came near, and kissed him: and he smelled the smell of his raiment, and blessed him, and said, See, the smell of my son is as the smell of a field which the Lord hath blessed: Therefore God give thee of the dew of heaven, and the fatness of the earth, and plenty of corn and wine: Let people serve thee, and nations bow down to thee: be lord over thy brethren, and let thy mother's sons bow down to thee: cursed be every one that curseth thee, and blessed be he that blesseth thee. And it came to pass, as soon as Isaac had made an end of blessing Jacob, and Jacob was yet scarce gone out from the presence of Isaac his father, that Esau his brother came in from his hunting. And he also had made savoury meat, and brought it unto his father, and said unto his father, Let my father arise, and eat of his son's venison, that thy soul may bless me. And Isaac his father said unto him, Who art thou? And he said, I am thy son, thy firstborn Esau. And Isaac trembled very exceedingly, and said, Who? where is he that hath taken venison, and brought it me, and I have eaten of all before thou camest, and have blessed him? yea, and he shall be blessed. And when Esau heard the words of his father, he cried with a great and exceeding bitter cry, and said unto his father, Bless me, even me also, O my father. And he said, Thy brother came with subtilty, and hath taken away thy blessing. And he said, Is not he rightly named Jacob? for he hath supplanted me these two times: he took away my birthright; and, behold, now he hath taken away my blessing. And he said, Hast thou not reserved a blessing for me? And Isaac answered and said unto Esau, Behold, I have made him thy lord, and all his brethren have I given to him for servants; and with corn and wine have I sustained him: and what shall I do now unto thee, my son? And Esau said unto his father, Hast thou but one blessing, my father? bless me, even me also, O my father. And Esau lifted up his voice, and wept. And Isaac his father answered and said unto him, Behold, thy dwelling shall be the fatness of the earth, and of the dew of heaven from above; And by thy sword shalt thou live, and shalt serve thy brother; and it shall come to pass when thou shalt have the dominion, that thou shalt break his yoke from off thy neck. And Esau hated Jacob because of the blessing wherewith his father blessed him: and Esau said in his heart, The days of mourning for my father are at hand; then will I slay my brother Jacob. And these words of Esau her elder son were told to Rebekah: and she sent and called Jacob her younger son, and said unto him, Behold, thy brother Esau, as touching thee, doth comfort himself, purposing to kill thee.
-----Harbinger Lyrics
At higher ground is where you'll find
The cure for the emptiness in your eyes
Letting go will get you high
You'll finally feel alive
If you can read between their lies
Beneath that thin line
Is where they try to hide
Everything you know you need
I won't let you fall short
I can see right through their walls
It's too late
But I can't help them anyway
I can feel your heart it's beating in my hands
I layed across your chest
I only did what I thought was best
And I can feel your heart
It's beating in my hands
I'll leave you the best I can
Just let em be
Just let em be
Is what they all say
But if I did
What happens then
Do I just walk away
Won't let em be
Can't let em be
It's not who I am
Just hear me out
I promise that
It's for your own sake
Forgive, forget what you have done
It's all or none
Become the man you want be
Not the man they want to see
I can feel your heart it's beating in my hands
I layed across your chest
I only did what I thought was best
And I can feel your heart
It's beating in my hands
I'll leave you the best I can
The nights seem so long
What do you love
We built this from the ground up
And we won't watch it fall
We built this from the ground up, time to reap what's sewn
I can feel your heart it's beating in my hands
I layed across your chest
I only did what I thought was best
I don't need you to take this further
You tried to leave when I pulled you closer
Wake up and see that I left you the best I can
The night seems so long
What do you love
You made me see what you'd become and then you left
(I thought what I did was best)
Say no more, wake up and see
