The Parable of the Rich (Hot White Girl) Young Ruler

* dedicated to CF, Stephanie, Jennifer, Anne, Em

----------------------/Parable of the Rich (Hot White Girl) Young Ruler

Like a dream you came to me in the still of night, serendipitous stars

paralysis of thought, apoplexy of nerves

the gospel of love promulgated your ears perked

as I tell the world how much I want to be loved, your gullible eyes

I am your Good Master, of novelty, of exoticism, rapture New Jerusalem

gentiles exalted  

you anticipating impressive speech forged to woo

all of which after four years of familiarity you by now know

I will obey all of romance’s commandments, I will not commit adultery

I will not kill, I will not bear false witness, I will not omit kissing

or cherishing your brown hair and hazel eyes creamy white skin like the moon

upon which when I muse about you I stare

I ask reciprocation of all the aforementioned yet there is one thing you lack

go and sell your girlhood expectations of a tall white blue eyed boyfriend, rich

erudite, politically conversant and adventurous children

iterative of him

yet you would be rich if you followed me down this biracial path society limp

we would heal its blind eyes, restore its withered hand

resurrect its dead daughters, exorcise its sons walk on its capricious inequitable seas

I hold out my hand I promise you wont drown overwhelmed

my twelve disciples of passionate reinforcement witnesses to how desperate I am

to press compatibility to make this work

you hang your head I hang my head in turn

under my breath whimpering  

"Please don’t walk away"

"Please don’t walk away"

 

------------------Luke 18:18-25

And a certain ruler asked him, saying, Good Master, what shall I do to inherit eternal life? And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? none is good, save one, that is, God. Thou knowest the commandments, Do not commit adultery, Do not kill, Do not steal, Do not bear false witness, Honour thy father and thy mother. And he said, All these have I kept from my youth up. Now when Jesus heard these things, he said unto him, Yet lackest thou one thing: sell all that thou hast, and distribute unto the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come, follow me. And when he heard this, he was very sorrowful: for he was very rich. And when Jesus saw that he was very sorrowful, he said, How hardly shall they that have riches enter into the kingdom of God! For it is easier for a camel to go through a needle's eye, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God.

Dont Walk Away Jennifer. please. Dont Walk Away

http://youtu.be/SfthbF3lZCg

*  Dedicated to Just Surrender Forgotten Not Forgiven

* Dedicated to Jennifer D, my perpetual muse, my first obsession….the first girl Ive been “absolutely crazy about,” like I told you – before you ran away into the arms of another man never to speak to me again. You were my everything back in 2007, my everything now. The one that got away. I miss your green eyes. What happened? How can I move on to other girls when your face is the gatekeeper of my dreams! OH JENN

I need my boys Just Surrender to help me rock out and anesthetize this pain! WOOOOOOOOO! (click the link to the vid)

[Master, behold, the fig tree which thou cursedst is withered away]

------------------------/Im a Pathetic Excuse For A Plant Jennifer….Im Sorry (Fig Dreams)

Jennifer, when I first met you you were glorious

stunning in your aura, resplendent your beauty commanding

as if you had twelve disciples of class, dignity and manners hanging

at your every word

imploring your sagacious, sexy yet classy advice

when I asked you out to lunch I surmised you were single hungry

for love for a man to slake your appetite for affection: true love

to gird your quest to Shepherd the world with your beguiling green eyes 

(buxom bosom)

Messiah born of pure virginal disposition

Your Mother: Queen, she loved me…. whilst you

Guided and healed an Israel (Rockville) devoid of winsome charismatic girls

professional

the Bethany of immature relationships behind, looking ahead to heaven

down the path of couples’ opportunity you saw me

you smiled at me seeking figs

you emailed me seeking figs

you went on group lunches with me seeking figs

but I didn’t quite measure up did I? You only saw leaves so you left

denunciating my heart with the words “no wo-man eat fruit of thee hereafter forever”

you crushed me when you left me for another man depreciating our status

to “really good friends”

I never fully recuperated from this, my soul withered

Jennifer, baby, I tried to be the man best suited to you, I tried to love you the best

I possibly could

maybe I scared you off with my three page letter, perhaps I distracted you

from achieving ultimate salvation for the helpless around you

the time of figs was not yet

you cursedst me, walked away, leaving behind a man who can never forget you

scarred permanently

or stop dreaming of figs

------------------------Mark 11:12-14; 19-22

And on the morrow, when they were come from Bethany, he was hungry: And seeing a fig tree afar off having leaves, he came, if haply he might find any thing thereon: and when he came to it, he found nothing but leaves; for the time of figs was not yet. And Jesus answered and said unto it, No man eat fruit of thee hereafter for ever. And his disciples heard it. And when even was come, he went out of the city. And in the morning, as they passed by, they saw the fig tree dried up from the roots.  And Peter calling to remembrance saith unto him, Master, behold, the fig tree which thou cursedst is withered away. And Jesus answering saith unto them, Have faith in God.

-------------------------------/Forgotten Not Forgiven Lyrics

I'm watching your eyes move slowly

Up and down my silhouette,

And I wonder if you get it yet.

This is the last time I crawl away on these broken knees,

And don't you wish it all would be okay?

“Promise me you'll forget me,”

You said as you walked away.

“Don't hold on… please… let go of me…”

You make it so hard to leave.

And I can't breathe without you here

For fear I'll catch your scent.

And we both know how bad I get.

I don't do well or dwell in change.

And don't you know that

Three small words could make this all okay?

“Promise me you'll forget me,”

You said as you walked away.

“Don't hold on… please… let go of me…”

You make it so hard to leave.

You promise me

You'll never forget me.

You promise me

You'll never forget…

“Promise me you'll forget me,”

You said as you walked away.

“Don't hold on… please… let go of me…”

You make it so hard to leave.

“You promise (YOU) me (PRO) you'll (MISE) forget (ME) me,”

You said as you walked away.

“You promise (YOU'LL) me (FOR) you’ll (GET) forget (ME) me.”

Cheese State Ave...Get Behind Me Satan!

*  Dedicated to Alesana All Night Dance Parties in the Underground Palace

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hTTKgBGYXxo

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZCYRO1U8Osg

* Dedicated to W….woah! Wait a minute! I cant tell you her name, silly! I left clues though! Oh BABY!! If you’ve read my blog for long enough…you know how this goes. I crush on girl, write about it unbeknownst to her, she finds out…freaks out and I blow my opportunity with her. ….why am I doing this again??? D’OHHHH!

---------------------------/(Cheese State Ave/ DC) I Think She Subliminally Told Me Get Behind Me Satan, Simon Barjona, Tony Conti

A savior with curly brown hair was born in Nazareth of Galilee

of Romance

while the world slept

while the world writhed in silent subconscious agony

in the doldrums of disconsolation

when I first met her gaze I instinctively knew she

heaven sent, choirs of angels with cacophonous reverberating

praise sublime infectious smile eyes blue

a doctor of souls. And that without equivocation whatever malady

any harbored

her voice could just manifest a miraculous cure I saw ten lepers

of my self-esteem cured after just lingering in her presence

my aspirations to be a better man were like a withered hand

incurable that by her dynamism, friendliness was made whole

simply by stretching my hand forth to wave

at her face

she fed five thousand of my utmost fantasies by her comeliness

her sexiness overflowed into twelve baskets of leftover bread and fish

for my famished and lovelorn libido

right before my eyes, when I previously claimed apathy due to rejection

barely five fish two loaves of optimism

I talked to her yesterday, or so it still seems and me rattled

my nerves must have communicated (Im sure) to her

“Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God”

maybe in my sickness, my laryngitis delirium (I had a sore throat) I failed

to grasp whether or not

these feelings were requited

maybe I wished for once in my life some hot blue eyed girl would brashly exclaim

Tony Conti – Simon Barjona, you have the keys to my kingdom

nothing shall prevail against us

but she left that night with her friend nonchalantly, effortlessly

I wanted to yank her by the arm,

recoiling to my bosom I would whisper in her ear

“Be it far from thee, Lord: this shall not be unto thee”

you will not leave me here subjected to my absence

your otherness, your disembodied memory is crucifixion

------------------Matthew 16:16-23

And Simon Peter answered and said, Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God.  And Jesus answered and said unto him, Blessed art thou, Simon Barjona: for flesh and blood hath not revealed it unto thee, but my Father which is in heaven. And I say also unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it. And I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven. Then charged he his disciples that they should tell no man that he was Jesus the Christ. From that time forth began Jesus to shew unto his disciples, how that he must go unto Jerusalem, and suffer many things of the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and be raised again the third day. Then Peter took him, and began to rebuke him, saying, Be it far from thee, Lord: this shall not be unto thee. But he turned, and said unto Peter, Get thee behind me, Satan: thou art an offence unto me: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men.

--------------/All Night Dance Parties in the Underground Palace Lyrics

Beautiful, you know you leave me breathless when you fall into my eyes

My heart belongs to you my angel

There is just no reason for you to let life bring you down

Please come with me and let me show you

I know that at times it may be hard to let go of yourself

Babygirl, tonight leave your cares behind because it's time to celebrate!

All night long I'll sing and dance with you, my sweet princess, only if you trust in this

Take my hand and follow me, I will sweep you off of your feet

All night long I will sing and dance with you

Every time I look at you I can't believe how magical you are

The stars belong to you my angel

Run away with me into a world where time seems to not exist

The smile on my face will show you

I know that at times it may be hard to let go of yourself

Babygirl, tonight leave your cares behind because it's time to celebrate!

All night long I will sing and dance with you, my sweet princess, only if you trust in this

Take my hand and follow me, I will sweep you off of your feet

This night will only end when we stop dancing

My sweet princess I will sing and dance with you all night long

The stars, they belong to you my angel

All night long I'll sing and dance with you. my sweet princess, only if you trust in this

Take my hand and follow me, I will sweep you off your feet

This night will only end when we stop

I'll Never Be The Same Again

Dedicated to Drake Best I Ever Had

 St. Peter, aka P-Breezy aka St. Peezy aka Petreezy! Pray for us!

Man yall, its like this kat Peter wanted Jesus so bad he practically begged my man to stay alive, even at the expense of salvation for the whole world! Jesus had Peter hooked! To Peter, Jesus was the best he ever had! (The fact Jesus called him Satan in response notwithstanding)

----------------------/I'll Never Be The Same Again: Peter’s Counter Proposal To Jesus' Death

I stare at you in your sleep. when awake you

are a doppelganger that apprises

of how far I have to mature and what is left undeveloped   

I gaze into your eyes intently when you address crowds

wishing

they were mirrors… wishing the man that healed

the consoling man full of exuberance

the keen intuitiveness and perspicacity were mine

I wish you and I were the same person

when you speak all listen when you glare all fall prostrate

whereas before there was paucity of joy

now my life has meaning there is a glut

(there is nothing…..no one else to live for)

I dream beneath the moon

of rolling stones

rolling stones

rolling stones

first for Lazarus then for the world in our palms

resurrecting all the dead dreams and hopes of victimized Jews

of chances unfairly stolen by fate

demons shrilling women groaning lepers moaning

terrify me no more. I stand tall in the same face of trials

of impossibility

I used to retreat from without fear. Life is flying

I am a leaf riding your gust of wind  

In your presence I have never felt more alive, happy

You and I together. Forever…..your Spirit lives theres no reason

for either of us to ever die; it would never be the same again

------------------Matthew 16:16-23

And Simon Peter answered and said, Thou art the Christ, the Son of the living God.  And Jesus answered and said unto him, Blessed art thou, Simon Barjona: for flesh and blood hath not revealed it unto thee, but my Father which is in heaven. And I say also unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it. And I will give unto thee the keys of the kingdom of heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt bind on earth shall be bound in heaven: and whatsoever thou shalt loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven. Then charged he his disciples that they should tell no man that he was Jesus the Christ. From that time forth began Jesus to shew unto his disciples, how that he must go unto Jerusalem, and suffer many things of the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and be raised again the third day. Then Peter took him, and began to rebuke him, saying, Be it far from thee, Lord: this shall not be unto thee. But he turned, and said unto Peter, Get thee behind me, Satan: thou art an offence unto me: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but those that be of men.

------------------Best I Ever Had Lyrics

You know a lot of girls be thinkin' my songs are about them
This is not to get confused, this one's for you

Baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the F*ing best, you the F*ing best
You the F*ing best, you the F*ing best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had, I say you the F*ing

Know you got a roommate, call me when it's no one there
Put the key under the mat, and you know I'll be over there
I'll be over there, shawty, I'll be over there
I'll be hitting all the spots that you ain't even know was there

Ha and you all ain't even have to ask twice
You can have my heart or we can share it like the last slice
Always felt like you was so accustomed to the fast life
Have a nigga thinking that he met you in a past life

Sweat pants, hair tied, chillin' with no make-up on
That's when you're the prettiest, I hope that you don't take it wrong
You don't even trip when friends say you ain't bringin' Drake along
You know that I'm working, I'll be there soon as I make it home

And she a patient in my waiting room
Never pay attention to them rumors and what they assume
And until them girls prove it
I'm the one they never get confused with

'Cause baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the F*ing best, you the F*ing best
You the F*ing best, you the F*ing best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had, I say you the F*ing

Sex, love, pain, baby, I be on that tank sh*
Buzz so big, I could probably sell a blank disk
When my album drop, b* will buy it for the picture
And niggas will buy it too and claim they got it for they sister

Magazine, paper, girl, but money ain't the issue
They bring dinner to my room and ask me to initial
She call me the referee 'cause I be so official
My shirt ain't got no stripes but I can make your p** whistle

Like the Andy Griffith theme song
And who told you to put them jeans on
Double cup love, you the one I lean on
Feeling for a fix then you should really get your fiend on

Yeah, just know my condo is the crack spot
Every single show she out there reppin' like a mascot
Get it from the back and make your F*ing bra strap pop
All up in yo slot until the nigga hit the jackpot

Baby, you my everything, you all I ever wanted
We can do it real big, bigger than you ever done it
You be up on everything, other hoes ain't never on it
I want this forever, I swear I can spend whatever on it

'Cause she hold me down every time I hit her up
When I get right I promise that we gonna live it up
She make me beg for it till she give it up
And I say the same thing every single time

I say you the F*ing best, you the F*ing best
You the F*ing best, you the F*ing best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had

I say you the F*ing best, you the F*ing best
You the F*ing best, you the F*ing best
You the best I ever had, best I ever had
Best I ever had, best I ever had

Uh, uh yeah, see this the type of joint
You got to dedicate to somebody
Just make sure they that special somebody
Young Money
Ya, ya, you know who you are, I got you