Guys, what up! Look, I gotta go to Bible study in Georgetown tonight...so I cant 'splain in great detail, yet be comforted by the assurance that I still smart over this babe every time I see her and that these emotions are true! Drats! Valentines Day is tomorrow and my love life SUX!!!!!
gotta go, gotta go! Until next time.....HOLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!
-----------------/What You Sacrificed
Listen to me you
silly silly brunette babe you knew there was chemistry
between us
you knew what I saw, that night, when I looked into your
soul:
you on the car under that luminous lamppost (that night)
I was your grizzled old prophet, seasoned with the words of
wisdom’s seduction
your Samuel who saw
a king regal in her beauty, dazzling in sex appeal a woman
fit
for God, allegiance rendered to her by the entire nation of Israel
a lover’s metaphor
my soul, chosen, bequeathed the Promise after tumultuous slavery
and wandering,
of Romance, your kiss your matrimonial touch –The Promised
Land of all men.
Three thousand reasons for three thousand heart palpitations
at night
three thousand reveries – your sense of humor, your thighs,
your hips like stalwart soldiers
smiling fantasies about your smile girl, I have
smiling fantasies about your smile… but you are young so I
pled with you
babe, wait for me…in Michmash, the country of our mutual
passion (the Gaze we shared)
the age discrepancy just a mere flit from current
inconvenience
the culturally acceptable time for us to be together just
seven days away, really
then we could honor decorum’s observance with fires of
reciprocal sacrifice
then hold hands in public, nuzzle at the retreat bonfires
but the gap too wide overwhelmed you perhaps
descending on your nubile conscience were thirty thousand
chariots, and six thousand horsemen,
slander by your friends, assured backlash from siblings
and parents these threats like people to you
approaching with swords of emotional torment; stark
generational rifts arrows aimed bows taut
at your popularity and social acceptance: people as the sand which is on the sea shore
in multitude
so you betrayed your inner self, me, us with a duplicitous
charge on the sixth day –
impetuous panic for a man, twentyish “Bring
hither a burnt offering to me, and peace offerings”
of another man’s affections. Your integrity, fortitude trembling
retreating for caves and thickets
before the love of a thirty two year old man
so you offered the burnt offering of a new boyfriend that
fire and smoke of desecrated heartbreak
ill-timed and me ill fated ironically at the time you were
old enough for me to come back.
Half ashamed half fiendishly your arms raised in salute. You
have done foolishly
now we cant be together anymore
the Throne of our affection wrested, a scepter snatched from
your hands forever
----------------------------1 Samuel 13:1-13
Saul reigned one
year; and when he had reigned two years over Israel, Saul chose him three
thousand men of Israel; whereof two thousand were with Saul in Michmash and in
mount Bethel, and a thousand were with Jonathan in Gibeah of Benjamin: and the
rest of the people he sent every man to his tent. And Jonathan smote the
garrison of the Philistines that was in Geba, and the Philistines heard of it.
And Saul blew the trumpet throughout all the land, saying, Let the Hebrews
hear. And all Israel heard say that Saul had smitten a garrison of the
Philistines, and that Israel also was had in abomination with the Philistines.
And the people were called together after Saul to Gilgal. And the Philistines
gathered themselves together to fight with Israel, thirty thousand chariots,
and six thousand horsemen, and people as the sand which is on the sea shore in
multitude: and they came up, and pitched in Michmash, eastward from Bethaven. When
the men of Israel saw that they were in a strait, (for the people were
distressed,) then the people did hide themselves in caves, and in thickets, and
in rocks, and in high places, and in pits. And some of the Hebrews went over
Jordan to the land of Gad and Gilead. As for Saul, he was yet in Gilgal, and
all the people followed him trembling. And he tarried seven days, according to
the set time that Samuel had appointed: but Samuel came not to Gilgal; and the people
were scattered from him. And Saul said, Bring hither a burnt offering to me,
and peace offerings. And he offered the burnt offering. And it came to pass,
that as soon as he had made an end of offering the burnt offering, behold,
Samuel came; and Saul went out to meet him, that he might salute him. And
Samuel said, What hast thou done? And Saul said, Because I saw that the people were
scattered from me, and that thou camest not within the days appointed, and that
the Philistines gathered themselves together at Michmash; Therefore said I, The
Philistines will come down now upon me to Gilgal, and I have not made
supplication unto the Lord: I forced myself therefore, and offered a burnt
offering. And Samuel said to Saul, Thou hast done foolishly: thou hast not kept
the commandment of the Lord thy God, which he commanded thee: for now would the
Lord have established thy kingdom upon Israel for ever.
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