Jennifer....

JENNIFER, BABY....GOD I WANT YOU SO BAD. IT SUCKS TO REALIZE I HAVE TO LIVE THE REST OF MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU....

....And from the roof he saw a woman bathing, and the woman was very beautiful to behold. So David sent and inquired about the woman...
------------------[Jennifer....Uriah Was My Love For You]


You are death and destruction
obliteration, desolation
I was innocent as a ceremonial washing
hopeful on a rooftop...away from prying eyes, in the solitude of my own wistful thinking
before you seized me
and brought me into the chambers of your
royally
addictive
love
trembling in your presence, wandering in your green eyes
falling in love

Our future together was Uriah
on the battlefield chasing prosperity/
our life together. Me kissing you (running my fingers down your scalp)
I thought Ammon was his deadliest foe, blood soaking the grass
their spears impaling Jews beside him but
it wasn't in Rabbah, it was you in Jerusalem
sitting on your throne plotting his demise
the brief times we befriended each other felt like
being summoned home, but he couldn't rest
the battle to marry you was still being waged
and he couldn't sleep, knowing you still weren't mine
he would rather gaze at the moon
Holding stars in his hands
And sleep outside on the cold ground

Jennifer,
yet that wasn't enough to please you
you held me in your arms, told me to bathe and let me go
you took our future together and killed it
by rejecting me with the cruel sword of Ammonites
besides death, besides the tears
unbearable
my heart was pregnant with dreams, with wedding pictures
...and I think, I just had a miscarriage


.....selah....



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2 Samuel 12: 1-14 (NKJV)
Then the LORD sent Nathan to David. And he came to him, and said to him: "There were two men in one city, one rich and the other poor. The rich man had exceedingly many flocks and herds. But the poor man had nothing, except one little ewe lamb which he had bought and nourished; and it grew up together with him and with his children. It ate of his own food and drank from his own cup and lay in his bosom; and it was like a daughter to him. And a traveler came to the rich man, who refused to take from his own flock and from his own herd to prepare one for the wayfaring man who had come to him; but he took the poor man's lamb and prepared it for the man who had come to him." So David's anger was greatly aroused against the man, and he said to Nathan, "As the LORD lives, the man who has done this shall surely die! And he shall restore fourfold for the lamb, because he did this thing and because he had no pity." Then Nathan said to David, "You are the man! Thus says the LORD God of Israel: 'I anointed you king over Israel, and I delivered you from the hand of Saul. I gave you your master’s house and your master's wives into your keeping, and gave you the house of Israel and Judah. And if that had been too little, I also would have given you much more! Why have you despised the commandment of the LORD, to do evil in His sight? You have killed Uriah the Hittite with the sword; you have taken his wife to be your wife, and have killed him with the sword of the people of Ammon. Now therefore, the sword shall never depart from your house, because you have despised Me, and have taken the wife of Uriah the Hittite to be your wife.' Thus says the LORD: 'Behold, I will raise up adversity against you from your own house; and I will take your wives before your eyes and give them to your neighbor, and he shall lie with your wives in the sight of this sun. For you did it secretly, but I will do this thing before all Israel, before the sun.'" So David said to Nathan, "I have sinned against the LORD." And Nathan said to David, "The LORD also has put away your sin; you shall not die. However, because by this deed you have given great occasion to the enemies of the LORD to blaspheme, the child also who is born to you shall surely die." Then Nathan departed to his house.