Lunch Never Forever LOve is Dead Pt 1

- Dedicated to Drake, Marvins Room

"This system, this enterprise called love is intrinsically flawed; We were never meant to win, a girl never meant to completely satisfy the heart, romance never meant to set the heart aflutter the way the sunset refracts its glow off the dark side of a mountain, or a rainbow passes through clouds but never parts them, or shade and tree limbs swaying in the cool winds that provide a sanctuary in the midst of a sweltering summer haze. If it is peace you seek after and solace for your pains, run away from love and away from girls for these are only the gateways for the realizations of your worst fears suddenly set upon you - unfamiliar with any semblance of mercy. I fell in love with a girl once, and she told me that she was glad she was dating me since our relationship made it easier for her to discern what she didn’t want in her husband. Contrarily, our relationship was my lifeblood, my soul’s breath. Another example then: I liked this girl right (blonde, beautiful, buxom), and completely gratuitously she said my love poems about her (not to her) were a form of harassment and basically set out on a path to destroy me, proving to be very injurious indeed. Another example: I asked this girl out to lunch thrice, every instance of which she spurned, though after 3 months of silence and absence when she happens to run into me, smiles and speaks to me as though the lopsided transaction of the emotions that occurred between us was nothing out of the ordinary and happily traipses off, not even once addressing my unfulfilled longings. We were not meant to win, let me reiterate. This is not an expose of the fickleness of women, no, this is an indictment on love – how many women have had men exhibit similar actions? Give up on this thing called love, people, and be miserable like me – forever hoping for someone who doesn’t exist, though now fully enlightened to this fact!"

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John 8:21 - Once more Jesus said to them, "I am going away, and you will look for me, and you will die in your sin. Where I go, you cannot come" LOve is Dead (Pt1)
------/Lunch Never Forever


Through the course of our conversations
I traveled with you on dirt roads in an ancient world
you freaking healed my heart
sickened
forlorn
atrophied from
lack of a heavenly body and heavenly voice from heaven
on a mission to save me; putting to death my fears of flesh
and blood pouring on paramours that pushed me away
cutting my soul
running from me as the sun sets and before the
wolves of my tyrannous unforgiving low self esteem
ravage my mind assuring me
no one
no
one will ever love me. head on my folded arms on my knees
crying at night alone far from an earshot of
those who think I have my life together; Im not an immaculate
portrait (without you);
and raising my hopes to life with spiritual ambitions
of marrying you and holding your neck
gently as I lean in for a kiss, as ocean waves crash overtop our
gazebo, pillars adorned with winding red roses strung together
your infectious smile was like five loaves and two fish
that fed the ravenous disheveled mob of my
desires – including women and children, the more practical
and innocent ones -
to hold hands with a beautiful woman
You opened my eyes blind since birth that could never have
seen or perceived (pure fantasy)
me date a white woman, who actually cared for me
face full of acne, body full of nervous angst
but what about
"I am going away, and you will look for me,
and you will die in your sin?"
These are the words your refusal to do lunch proclaimed
and Im shivering in my sleep all over again
inconsolable night grief in my bed
though its summer
and you are walking on the Sea of Galilee in my dreams
I reach out
but then I get afraid, my sin
and its like you are releasing your hand
though you promised tentatively to do lunch
you walked away
and deep down I know
"Where I go, you cannot come"
and vice versa


--------Marvins Room Lyrics

Marvin’s Room Lyrics
by Drake
[Woman on phone]
"hello
Yeah I just walked in
Yeah I'm good you still working?
Tonight, right now?
'Did I go out' yeah I went out
I went, I went to a couple of clubs
I never went to bed
S* wine or water
You should see someone about a cold drink
I don't know, I'm delirious....night"

[Drake - verse 1]
Cups of the rose
Bitches in my old phone
I should call one and go home
I've been in this club too long
The woman that I would try
Is happy with a good guy

But I've been drinking so much
That I'ma call her anyway and say
"f that nigga that you love so bad
I know you still think about the times we had"
I say "f that nigga that you think you found
And since you picked up I know he’s not around"

(Are you drunk right now?)

I'm just sayin', you could do better
Tell me have you heard that lately?
I'm just sayin' you could do better
And I'll start hatin', only if you make me

Uh, cups of the XO
All my people been here
I see all of her friends here
Guess she don't have the time to kick it no more
Flights in the morning
What you doing that's so important?

I've been drinking so much
That I'ma call you anyway and say
"F that nigga that you love so bad
I know you still think about the times we had"
I say "f that nigga that you think you found
And since you picked up I know he’s not around"

(are you drunk right now?)

I'm just sayin', you could do better
Tell me have you heard that lately
I'm just sayin' you could do better
And I'll start hatin', only if you make me

I think I’m addicted to naked pictures
And sittin talkin 'bout b*
That we almost had
I don’t think I'm concious of making monsters
Outta the women that I sponsor til it all goes bad
But s* it's all good
We threw a party, yeh we threw a party
B* came over, yeh, we threw a party
I was just calling cause they were just leaving
Talk to me please, don't have much to believe in
I need you right now, are you down to listen to me?
Too many drinks have been given to me
I got some women thats living off me
Paid for their flights and hotels I'm ashamed
Bet that you know them, I won't say no names
After a while girl they all seem the same
I've had sex four times this week I'll explain
Having a hard time adjusting to fame
Sprite in that mixture, I've been talking crazy girl
I'm lucky that you picked up
Lucky that you stayed on
I need someone to put this weight on

[Drake and woman on phone]
"well I'm sorry" [Drake]
"are you drunk right now?" [woman]

I'm just sayin', you could do better
Tell me have you heard that lately
I'm just sayin' you could do better
And I'll start hatin', only if you make me

[Drake on phone]
"you're not going to come?"
"guess I'm bout to just kick it here then..."

Just throw up while I hold your hair back
Her white friend said "you niggas crazy"
I hope no-one heard that
I hope no-one heard that
Cause if they did, we gon' be in some trouble
We gon' be in some trouble

Maaaan, listen guys dont ever fall for someone...ever!

Yo check dis, check dis! This is about a girl I liked right....then the girl has to go and get a man!

Owww! Why she don go an do dat???

Now I gotz to pretend I dont got no mo' feelingz for dis guhhl?

Come on dood! How can I pretend I aint got no feelingz for this girl?

WHY DO FOOLZ FALL IN LOVE? (WITH GIRLS WHO FALL IN LOVE WITH OTHER GUYZ)

My only resort - is to get EMO!!!

read on party peoples!!!!

Back to Judah

[The setting: Tony is sprawled out spread eagle and semi-conscious on his basement couch, sullied by now with deep soy sauce, soda and jello stains, a half can of Pepsi lies on his stomach. (The resultant smells from the sustained state of squalor are rancid).The perimeter of the couch is littered profusely with sundry waste such as crumpled potato chip bags, opened Subway sandwich wrappers, and empty plastic bottles of Dr. Pepper some which stand erect while others were thrown on their side seemingly ages ago. Somewhat buried beneath these piles of junk yet with portions still semi visible sit unread Newsweek magazines and half-handled newspapers, everything but the sports pages intact. Adjacent to the couch a blaring TV is tuned to MTV. Tony begins to enter the dream state and welcomingly recognizes the slowly approaching silhouette of his dream girl.]

Tony (groggy): why.....why did you let me fall in love with you if you only meant me harm?

Dream girl: I never "only meant harm"

Tony: This dream will never come true will it? We'll only be together in fleeting planes of existence, ephemeral trains of thought and subconscious, in myths and [yelling:] FANTASIES BUT NEVER....

Dream girl: Tony, you don't know....the truth is.....

To be continued.....


---------/Back to Judah

We both know how this will end don’t we?
I can perceive it in your eyes
I saw it the other night
when you were standing there in the midst of the crowd
and you said to me "***"
.....and then you didn’t look at me anymore, only the ground
and I the stars, then with a lowered head and closed eyes
emitted a somber extended sigh
(of resigned grief)
your heart is Naomi in the land of love
dying, foreign to you and in the midst of famine
and your aspirations to be with me Mahlon
your pressing desire to kiss me (endearingly) Kilion
and in return my sanguine rapacious want of you is Orpah
and my ruddy steadfastness of belief in our togetherness is Ruth
and all these married.
We smiled at this, didn’t we? (Man you are so sexy)
I mused to myself that the underpinnings of romance were
in full swing, inexorably so
and so my security lay in your unwavering availability: Elimelek
overseer
the father of our dreams, the bedrock of all cogent elucidations
and forceful defenses of my certitude of us being together despite
race, age, religion, creed, family tie, regional disconnect
or slight snags in the tapestry of our overall chemistry
when he died (inexplicably), the foundation of my faith in us slightly cracked
yet still I held out hope – entertaining the possibility that perhaps you would
return to me, from the dead even
but the strain of ten years of my unrestrained absence due to deference
and indubitably his affection, or maybe just too much time elapsed
for me to interdict, in any case it was all too much you
for Mahlon and Kilion died; at their burial you esteemed us
just friends, I assume, but didn’t tell me yet
And you sent Orpah back to her mother and even insisted Ruth depart
weeping
you knew deep down inside Moab was the only hope we had
so you set off for another world without turning back a glance
on our former ambitions.
This new guy, he is a stud from Judah and his plans vastly different from mine
and the former barren land that was the pretext for our passion now lush
so he (and you) can convincingly convey things have changed since then
though we still see each other regularly and we maintain
empty social formalities, now your face beckons to me desert sands
that sting my eyes eliciting tears
(but I still cant get enough of your facebook page
and your posted pictures)
and memories of that night your back became to me
what your shining face once was
and joy and morbidity exchanged roles:
while you walked away toward the Judah of your future bliss with him
in the distance your silhouette like joy shrinks
and morbidity enlarges itself, approaching me.
My desire may have kissed you goodbye, out of respect
but know my belief, even to the point of sheer lunacy
in us will forever cling to you
and that is all I have left of me, while you love someone else
somewhere else,
to send back with you



----Ruth 1:1-14
In the days when the judges ruled, there was a famine in the land. So a man from Bethlehem in Judah, together with his wife and two sons, went to live for a while in the country of Moab. The man's name was Elimelek, his wife’s name was Naomi, and the names of his two sons were Mahlon and Kilion. They were Ephrathites from Bethlehem, Judah. And they went to Moab and lived there. Now Elimelek, Naomi’s husband, died, and she was left with her two sons. They married Moabite women, one named Orpah and the other Ruth. After they had lived there about ten years, both Mahlon and Kilion also died, and Naomi was left without her two sons and her husband. When Naomi heard in Moab that the LORD had come to the aid of his people by providing food for them, she and her daughters-in-law prepared to return home from there. With her two daughters-in-law she left the place where she had been living and set out on the road that would take them back to the land of Judah. Then Naomi said to her two daughters-in-law, "Go back, each of you, to your mother's home. May the LORD show you kindness, as you have shown kindness to your dead husbands and to me. May the LORD grant that each of you will find rest in the home of another husband.” Then she kissed them goodbye and they wept aloud and said to her, "We will go back with you to your people." But Naomi said, "Return home, my daughters. Why would you come with me? Am I going to have any more sons, who could become your husbands? Return home, my daughters; I am too old to have another husband. Even if I thought there was still hope for me—even if I had a husband tonight and then gave birth to sons— would you wait until they grew up? Would you remain unmarried for them? No, my daughters. It is more bitter for me than for you, because the LORD’s hand has turned against me!" At this they wept aloud again. Then Orpah kissed her mother-in-law goodbye, but Ruth clung to her.